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hello,
hmm....
lols kinda lost for words >.<" anyways...time passes so fast~ im in my final year now.... n my final exams for my first semester coming soon... and as usual...i haven't started studying so um...lol? i really wanted to blog about my life im just...uninspired i guess =x really nothing much happening in my life now i was addicted to online gaming i admit but i soon realized that it's doing me more harm than good (at long last?) but then without that...there's really nothing else going on in my life now except studies which is...really...boring...really :( gah...i better get back to studying and blog again when i feel more like it (:
Tuesday, November 02, 2010
it's just you and me again bloggiejust you and me...
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
urgh...been having quite a bad case of diarrhoea these few days
started with my mom's not cooked fried chicken :S
which resulted in my bro my dad n me having diarrhoea
n since i had the most...naturally i was the worst >.<
gahh...couldn't get out of bed the whole day
oh...n to top it up i had flu, fever, headache n cough
n my stomach was making lotsa noises :S
sigh...this sucks
oh...my dad bought super oily fried kuey teow for me for lunch =.="
n i was only feeling well enough to get out of bed occasionally
only to get giddy if i stand up long enough
n my mom was asking me to go to the night market
i was like...i dont think i'm well enough for that
n she said...'see lar! never exercise!! never exercise that's y sick'
...
wdf
'crazy ah food poisoning you ask me to exercise'
she responded by laughing at her own words =.=
oh and i could play aika online here at home! weee~
that's one part i havent explained
see...during those dark bleak times...
i turned to the only thing that could make me forget about him
being addicted to online game =x
i know it's not a wise move
but...at least playing it makes me stop thinking about him all day
when i came back i could hardly login...let alone play
once i login i would just be the only one moving there
chat not responding, guild list not loading, nobody moving...
even my pran doesn't want to follow me D:
and yesterday i just tried logging in since i saw my facebook was loading quite fast
to my surprise...i could play! :D
almost like normal...albeit with abit lag here and there
but i could heal well enough....
being itchy hand...n being away from aika for weeks
i missed my cleric...and healing ppl in zant hell lol
naturally i went with a random party...
i was complaining to my friend the whole time via whisper
really can vomit blood >.<
but oh well...i was happy enough to get to play! :D
could play again this afternoon but later it got abit lag
so...imma try again later at night when it's less lag :D
i've been sooo bored at home
sleeping the whole day...really
i wonder how come i still feel sleepy after sleeping like....14 hours a day x.x
can't wait to go shopping tomorrow!
and visit the hair salon! :D
i needs a new haircut
i are bored of my hair
lol
see what the boredom is doing to me
x)
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
bored...and pissed
and trying to get rid of my alternate craving for ben&jerry's and hot soup wdf
so uh...dont mind me x)
p/s: don't know why im quite obsessed with saying wdf nowadays...lols
WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: sky juice
2. Last phone call: sis
3. Last text message: one of the twins
4. Last song you listened to: emo jay song lol
5. Last time you cried: eeto...cause of that certain someone which...i dont want to recall
HAVE YOU EVER:
7. Been cheated on: yesss.....twice...it sucks
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: don't think so
9. Lost someone special: yes
10. Been depressed: the past 5 months
11. Been drunk and threw up: nope...i've been trying to get myself drunk tho
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. purple
13. blue
14. pink
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2010)
15. Made a new friend: yup
16. Fallen out of love: trying......
17. Laughed until you cried: when was the last time i truly laughed?
18. Met someone who changed you: well...i didn't meet anybody much this year...in fact...i disappeared from the world for the past...5 months lols
19. Found out who your true friends were: guess so...after that happened
20. Found out someone was talking about you: uh huh
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: ...
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: don't know...many i guess
23. How many kids do you want to have: uh
24. Do you have any pets: nop...me wants a cute pommy or scottie tho :(
25. Do you want to change your name: idk :S
26. What did you do for your last birthday: LOL what a joke
27. What time did you wake up today: was in bed the whole day :S dont remember lol
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: trying not to puke all over my bed
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: eehhhh....ice cream! :(
30. Last time you saw your Mother: just?
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: not to be so effing stupid anymore
32. What are you listening to right now: nothing
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yes
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: lol...loads...unwise to list it here
35. Most visited webpage: email?
36. Whats your real name: there on my profile
37. Nicknames: not much
38. Relationship Status: single
39. Zodiac sign: aquarius
40. Male or female?: female
41. Elementary?: 3 different chinese schools
42. Middle School?: mgs
43. High school/college?: taylor's
44. Hair colour: brownish red...but i would say it's black now =.= can't really see
45. Long or short: long
46. Height: tall
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: nah-ah
48: What do you like about yourself?: oh...still alive after all those things
49. Piercings: 2 on each ear
50. Tattoos: don't like
51. Righty or lefty: right
FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: rather not talk about it thx
53. First piercing: ehh...very young...remember crying alot lol
54. First best friend: dont't remember her name
78. Lost glasses/contacts: lost my contacts inside my eye before LOL
83. Turned someone down: sigh...yes
84. Cried when someone died: yes
85. Fallen for a friend?: uh huh
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: guess so
87. Miracles: not anymore
88. Love at first sight: i guess not
89. Heaven: hmm...
90. Santa Claus: no
91. Kiss on the first date: blergh :S
92. Angels: i would want to x)
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: no
95. Did you sing today?: um...yah the emo jay song
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: no...i hate being cheated on myself
97. If you could go back in time what will you do?: nothing actually...
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: sigh...many?
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: for now....yes
Saturday, May 22, 2010
lols...hello?
uhh...well
i kinda forgotten about this blog until someone asked me if this is my blog =X
so...i guess uh...long time no see?
hmm...many many things have happened
really alot...n i've kinda stopped blogging
but i guess...since i have no one to rant to
i might start blogging again...
might =X
although...i doubt anyone actually reads my blog
oh well...i dont care anyways...just want some place to crap
and read back when im bored lol
um...i dont think i can post everything that's happened here
but no matter...
let bygones be bygones i guess?
i shall...move on with life
i was kinda stuck in a rut since january this year...
i didnt know how i got through that....dark period
really dont want to recall >.<
n i thought i was never going to get out
depression goes in a cycle see...
once you think you're better and wham! it hits you hard again
and then you will fall deeper than before :S
so for...5 months...gawd...i was at the bottom of the well
really really deep...n the more i tried to climb up the more i slipped back down
i know i was supposed to feel better but :S
i just...cant >.<
bahh...it's the same all over again
just that this time i didnt bother to blog it
i got kinda sick reading all those emo posts :S
well...until something happened
something that...sliced my heart open
and then crushed into a million pieces...
and threw into the sea to feed the sharks
that was...the worst night of my life
but i guess i needed that...
i needed to see the truth
otherwise i would be guessing and going crazy thinking about that
all the while comforting myself that i was being too sensitive
but no...my intuition was right after all
it was always right
so yep...i needed to face it
i needed to crash and burn in order for me to stand up again
so i guess...
i'm out of the rut now
although i cant deny that i'm still feeling sad now and then
and i still do...miss
but
im grown up now...i think?
i should grow up :S
and well...i still can't really face the world yet
me disappearing and such
but
i know i'll be fine soon :)
in the meantime...
im just gonna enjoy and have fun x)
Saturday, December 12, 2009
dear bloggie,
how pathetic my life has become
in just a day...the healthy lifestyle that i've been living has been reverted back to the old ways
i would at least think that it would take me a while to get used to this
no food...screwed up sleeping hours...
but surprisingly im coping quite well
very well in fact...im just too...tired to do anything
dont wanna do anything...
i'll just...disappear...
nobody reads my blog anymore anyways
that's good i think :S
i dont want anyone to read
i just...need a place to rant
as usual...
sigh...
Thursday, December 10, 2009
绕了一大圈
最终好像又回到了原点
这又何苦呢
我还真笨
早知如此 何必当初