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Happy Chinese New Year !! Gong Xi Fa Cai ~ XD
bloggiee...this year has got to be the weirdest cny celebration ever!
u wont believe how me n my cousins celebrate cny...
erm this is gona be a very long post as i attempt to blog out everything lol...
kk...so new year's eve on saturday...we were supposed to be at kepong by dinner time...
so we were kinda free b4 that...n i got this DiGi rewards for my birthday - free lancome makeover lolx...since it's free so i might as well do it right?
i met meichi there...but she gtg after passing me a book...then i was left alone
that makeover thingy was fun lolx XD...i saw myself in the mirror b4 the makeup n after the makeup...wahseh...like 2 different ppl sia XD
after that we went shopping n my old habits struck again ><" cannot tahan must buy 1 top...
we got back at around 9++ i guess...then when we reach hor...our dads all changing clothes =.=
then my mom gimme 1 stack of angpao said 'nah...ur angpao' =.=
wahseh...where's the fun of getting angpao anymore!!
the real meaning of it is the 'sam yi' mar...as u wish gong xi fa cai then they give u then u say thx ^^ that's only fun mar...
suddenly 1 stack of angpao i also dono which r from who...cannot say thx also...faint~ 1st time im not happy getting angpaos...
after that we were sooo sien...left only siewlee,mich,me,my bro,yikai n yihan there =.= really dono wat to do...somemore san su never buy big big fireworks to play with ><"
at last we made decision to go watch movie at 11pm lolx...my mom n juju drove us...
took my mom 20 mins to get started...cuz she never drive my dad's auto b4 =.=
cannot change gear!!! n the car stuck lolx...i was laughing all the way there...
so we watched fearless...gsc sold out edi so we ran to tgv =D
the show was chun!! XD b4 the show got part of jay's huo yuan jia mtv ^^ dam nice
that show really very touching n ermm...heroic? lol really nice...should watch ^^
we kinda celebrated our cny there lol...after we finished at 2 liddat...
nobody came to fetch us...in the end we were stuck at 1U =.=
ppl thought we were homeless kids sia...sitting at the exit there lolx...
n then hor 1st time sia...my dad wanna go back klang sleep...all these years sleep kepong edi ler...
at last i followed saki back to her kk house n sleep...
1st day of cny - went to saki's grandma's house in happy garden...
wahseh...the journey there suffering ><" nostalgic...those of u who knows knows y...every road taken is so familiar with memories of...err...u know...
anywayz..i feel so awkward there...ppl were asking who m i ><" n i think they weren't expecting me...
err after that went to 1U again...kepong really nothing to do lolx...
wanted to shop de...but mostly d shops all closed...so we went to watch movie - 3rd generation...
well...it was a buatan malaysia movie...i thought the actor n actress wasnt bad - nicholas zhang dong liang n amber chia...so i support them lor...
wahseh...how wrong i was!!! i knew it was gona be bad...i just wanted to see how bad it turns out....but i didnt know it was that bad until i cant stand it anymore! had to walk out of the cinema halfway @@"
1st 1st hor..the dam camera man...u will never see their full body...hardly ever!! it's always legs!!!! or else its their body...
n it's sooooo confusing...the timeline really...goshh...after 1 hour i still dono wat they talking about....starting they put there 3 weeks later...then show 1 scene...then 1 day before...show 1 scene...then 1 day after...show another scene...then 3 weeks ago...show another scene..wahseh my head aches from figuring out their timeline..
3rd thing...gosh u can vomit blood by listening to their conversation...it's always - 'ngo...hou zhong yi' 'lei...em ga yi?' 'ngo....hou hoi sam' 'lei.....hoi sam zhao dak'
wahlau! soo freakin slow until...really need patience...
the scene that made me leave at last was the 1 in the office...20 mins on 1 dam scene just showing their feets walking up n down the stairs.... =.= faint...
walk out better...pffttt...played in arcade n pool after that with 1 indian guy trying to kau saki...
then went back to kepong n back to klang ^^
2nd day - sis came to my house...lol kerlian mich...kena bully so by phoebe... XD her turn to kena =P
after that went the curve n ikano =.= wanted to sing at redbox geh...too ex jor...bought another top...i m soo broke!!
then too sien so went back lor..
weird cny hor? cny eve, 1st n 2nd day oso shopping =.= nothing better to do sia...
faint...sigh...i dont even feel like it's cny T.T
Friday, January 27, 2006
then i tried a more ermm practical way? act cute! always works...but then even my friend also can see that my smile is sooo fake ><" even if wanna act cute also to certain extend...this cute is soo fake... this...as opposed to the last 1...is genuine XD i think this at least looks better than the last 1 bah?yeah...really having fun with the camera in singapore that time ^^ sigh...i wonder when only i can really smile from my heart...that's kinda rare lolx...
*warning* this post may sound harsh-
15 things you probably never knew or thought about...
which almost all fake...at least for my case
1. At least 5 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.
- bullshit...try naming me 1
2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
- i dont know how far true is this...maybe...maybe there are some ppl who love me as a friend or wat...but i dont think there are 15
3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
- is it? i dont think the only reason to hate someone is because of jealousy...there are loads more reasons...eg. betrayal...
4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.
- too flattering...a smile is contagious...i dont think those who dont like me seeing me smile will get affected from it...
5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
- haha...very funny...i dont think i m on anybody's mind right now...maybe yes...but not so much that they will think of me to go to sleep? that's only for those who really love someone...
6. You mean the world to someone.
- bull...i might believe this last time...but not at this moment...
7. If not for you, someone may not be living.
- this...cant deny...life goes by in a way that a little change in the history will change the whole future...u never know? we might indirectly be in the path of significant event
8. You are special and unique.
- cant agree more...everyone is special n unique in their own way ^^
9. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.
- lol...how can u love someone if u r not close with him...the only exception in this case is that fella stalk me for a long time after falling in love with me...lolx
10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
- yea...u get to learn from ur mistake...that is the good thing...maybe u will get more ^^ sometimes these are the things in life that makes it interesting XD
11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.
- maybe? i just dont wanna accept it...maybe it is true
12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it.
- i believe in myself...but i didnt get wat i want...n i dont think i will ever get it lol...nevertheless...believing in urself will give u just that lil bit chance that u fought so hard for
13. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.
- bei hiao ba =.= lolx =P about the rude remarks...if it's really true then we should learn from our mistakes..but of cuz not those rude 1 lar...like someone said to me the other day 'ehh u look like aunty la' (really dono how come some ppl can be so direct n inconsiderate...at least if wanna give negative comments...find a better way so that u wont hurt ppl la)
14. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know.
- we cant go to everyone n tell them how we feel...sometimes if u tell them how u feel ur friendship or relationship might just change...n we wont feel much better...we will feel more miserable lol...this had happened to me many times b4...however...if u really love someone...tell them kay? *this is a different situation* ^^ that's if tomorrow never comes...trust me u will regret
15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.
- do i actually have one?
*~* that's for my case...for every ppl it's different bah ^^ havent took a walk in a long time...walked back from where the bus stopped me today...today's different...normally i would rush back home but i took my time this time...thinking about lots of things...that long walk home really made me think about alot of things...n it was windy ^^ nice weather...it's sad in a way...walking alone n all that's left of u is u urself...
Isolated
sad sia...here i m alone at the web again...feeling so isolated now...sigh...
i've been wanting to blog this last night...not really this thingy la...something related to wat i wanna say
about the thing that me being lonely...looks like im not wrong ya know...im correct in a way
u might say i have friends...yes i do have friends...but do i have any true friend? a friend that's there for u n understanding n not taking advantage of u?
in times of need...who do i have? who can i go to? the answer...nobody~
for this reason i cried again last night...i was feeling unstable n moody...n i kinda argued with someone...im not naming names here
i thought when i need somebody to accompany me to do things that person would gladly aid me...how come i overlook this damn thing called jealousy?
if a friend of mine wanna do something nice that i cannot do...although there is some jealousy in me i would be happy for him/her...
how come everytime i wanna do things it would be 'dowan la u go urself...pif!'
u might say im sensitive...but even if u wanna joke...some words will really hurt someone...even though u dont mean it...
the thing is i was really down last night n i wanna talk to someone...but there is really no one for me to go to...
serious...no one...i looked through my msn list n those that i thought close enough to comfort me all never reply me...
i guess things had changed...
n in times like that...one can never help but feel lonely...
that feeling came back again when i cried...the 'i have nobody' feeling
another thing...i thought that college was fun...i get to know more friends...
but in this early stage...not one is close enough to actually think about u...
the fact that i'm here...lets see...
1 friend of mine practically begged me to go pyramid with her today...i was hesitant at 1st but i eventually agreed...
but when i called her today...she ffked me...dont wanna state y...
so 2 of my friends r going...but they finished their classes 1 hour b4 me...i thought they would wait...
but in the end i get the msg that saying if i wanna go i meet them there... =.= meaning i m alone n i have to take a bus
wats the use then going there?
n so i resolved to finding a friend to accompany me till my bus comes...
all i got was 'not free gotta meet friends...'
yea all of them got their own friends...even if the own friends r those that i know n i m close with...
they either dont want me to be lightbulb or just plain dont want me to be there...
makes me think ya know?
really makes me think....
i think i'll go get a mcflurry....that's just about the only thing that can help me soothe my feelings right now
Monday, January 23, 2006
泪.生日愿望
我以为可以破记录...终于可以渡过一个没有眼泪的生日
这一天...我很努力的去试着让自己开心...让自己幸福...
但偶尔心也会酸...那是因为我放太多期望...
虽然如此,我还是成功了...
在剩下一个小时的时候...我的生日愿望实现了...
没想到生日愿望真的很灵...
我好开心好开心...真的很感谢上帝实现了我的愿望...
我万万没想到...是这个愿望...让我的眼泪流出来...
在开心的那一刹那...我的心却被割....还割得好深好深...
看来这个生日...我还是一个人默默的流着泪渡过这一天
但我还是很感激我的愿望能实现...
17
Happy birthday to me...lolx ^^ ~
birthday wish : /gg... =P not telling
anywayz...thx to the following ppl who wished me XD
michelle, cele, lieng chong n sueling ^^
really thx alot...means alot to me
Sunday, January 22, 2006
Memoirs of sweet 16
bloggie...well..
22 hours n 57 mins more n it will be the 17th year from when i was born
actually i blogged about this last week...cuz of some technical error all of it was erased...never managed to find it back...i posted all my feelings in it...wat a waste...cant really recall back...
i guess i'll start with a new 1...
well...here i'll be posting about bits n pieces of my 16th years...be it sweet or sour...
they say sweet 16's where it's all happening...that u will experience new things?
as for mine...i think i learned alot in my 16th year...
a year ago...i celebrated my birthday...not in a good atmosphere i can say...very much like every other birthdays of mine since i was young...
as usual...when the clock strikes 12 my tears would be halfway down...i never recall any birthday without tears...
i guess i think too much...n that im alone...n that i will spend the birthday alone again...
i was wrong? yet i was right?
i spent the day at midvalley...with a friend of mine...
much to my disappointment...it was like every other outing...
i thought there would be at least a present or wat...ermm not that i was being greedy...it's just that...presents r 1 of the fun things about ur birthday aint it? XD
anywayz...there's not a present in sight n not even a single birthday wish...
didnt feel much like my birthday...n the day ended in ermm...not in a good way...
i was disappointed n sad on my way home...
n when i got home...goshh...i had a birthday cake alright...after some scolding from my mom...
anyway not even my dad spoke to me...n they went to sleep early...
n so i had to blow my own candles...n sing myself a birthday song...at almost 12am
really dont know how much of tears dropped on my cake...
after that i had no appetite to eat the cake...which was left in the fridge for days n eventually got thrown away...
as the year goes by...i grew up from the little gurl i once was...compared to the me when i was 15...i cant believe the changes
one of the many reasons was ragnarok online...i've met new ppl...new friends...it brought me bad influence as my results dropped...i was no longer the smart student who never scored C in my life...
anyway...i still learnt alot alot from there...i've got to know lots of interesting ppl n some friends whom we go out once in a while now...especially those from Ethos...
i wasnt an outgoing person last time...i would just lock myself at home...
but through them...i learnt to go out n have fun ^^ those times when we played gvg together...n those times we catched a movie or yumchar XD really appreciate those times...
not even those from m'sia...from sg as well ^^ the xmas gathering was a blast XD...although my mood was really bad those few days ><"
i still enjoyed myself...as i never celebrated xmas or went to an gathering with that many ppl b4 ^^ it was truly fun...
lol uncanny...the time now is 1:23am just as i looked at the time...
apart from friendship...i was involved in relationship as well...that made a big big impact in my life...
few years ago...i rejected a guy i really like cuz i swore to myself to finish f5 1st b4 being with anyone...
yet i broke that last year...there were sweet times...really sweet...but there were even more heartbreaking moments...
nevertheless...i never regretted...i've learnt alot alot...n i've experienced alot too...as well as many firsts ><"
i really really appreciate someone who cared about me...
i grew up in an environment that nobody gives a damn about me...n that im all on my own...
i crave for compassion...crave for someone to love me...
when i had someone...i was really happy...i was...n i appreciated it alot...maybe i hold on to it too tight?
the feeling that u have someone is what i wanted for my whole life...n yet i cant have it...
still...through that i've grown up...those tears n those painful moments toughen me...
ppl learn from mistakes right...although...i wonder wat i did wrong ><" maybe i did...lolx...it's the obstacles that make u stronger right? ^^
those moments...will be on my mind for life...this year really matters alot alot to me...it's like a turning point of my life...
anywayz...really dont know how im gona celebrate it...
every year i really wish...really hope that i can have a truly wonderful time on my birthday...
but now i've seem to have given up on that...i dont wanna hope anymore
cuz i know im destinied to spend my birthdays in tears...
someone promised me he would celebrate my birthday with me...
yet that seemed so far away...maybe it would come true...in my dreams lol~
i dont wanna put much hope on celebrating my birthday anymore...
never thought that the tears will drop so early lol...still got 1 day ler ><"
i guess im back where i started last year...i was without anybody...n i am still without anybody now...n i will be without anybody...
i never regretted any of the steps i took...those hurts n heartbreaking moments really made me learn alot...it will be a vital part of my life...as this year will be
as for my birthday wish...lets keep this a secret for myself okie?
Thursday, January 19, 2006
bad mood -
dam frust le la!!
today today...arghh~ today i walk back under the hot hot sun
dam hot...i was sweating like hell when i got back...
today hor got maths homework only...
but to solve 3 questions i took 2 hours!! wahseh...
simple question nia...i keep making minor mistakes that made me couldnt get the correct answer n i keep alter n alter...to find out that it's such a minor mistake like +/- sign...faint =.=
i got so dam frustrated after that i gave up...
dont wanna do edi...left more than half the paper havent do...dowan edi larh!
dono y so moody now...feel like scolding ppl =P
but too bad la nobody to comfort me again~
i dono y i on my msn also...leave it there dont use geh...
another thing hor...u know when ppl ffk u...really grrrrrrrrr!!!
hate it when ppl ffk larh...nvm i'll leave that part out...
gona be friday tomoro...cant believe time passes so fast...
maybe time passes faster when im in college now bah...
cuz secondary school life is really slow n dull =.=
so fast end of the week edi...
dont want!!!
i dread this coming monday...
everyday i keep hoping...wishing that time passes as slow as possible so monday will never ever arrive...
funny hor me? all year long i've waited for this monday...anticipated it with excitement...
yet when it's nearing...i dont really feel like facing it after all...
it's gona be the same aint it?
ppl should be happy on their birthdays...they should be glad n enjoy n celebrate the day...
me?
HAH~
i think i'll go sleep...g'nite
*pls pls pls dont let it be monday* T.T
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
Craps
hey bloggie...i was supposed to post something...not something...is a few things
well 1 got lost cuz of some technical error n the other 1 i simply hadnt had the time...
i think i'll briefly state somethings before i turn in...hadnt post in quite some time...
i miss blogging XD most probably cuz i had no one to talk to so i had to post it out =P
yesterday...i went pyramid *yess i know...again!!* 3 times in 3 weeks =.=
anywayz siewying invited me n sueling there to skate so we went lor...
well i can say that's the time i really had fun since...uhh...since december...
i really hadnt got the mood to skate...my legs were sore...after 2 hours i just dont feel like skating anymore...
so i asked someone to pull me XD lolx very fun ^^
normally only michelle is capable of pulling me while skating n she just drag me along...but she still cant go too fast...
this time hor...really dam fast until i can feel the wind blowing on my face...somemore i keep shouting n laughing all the way... ^^
after that...i dont think i wanna skate anymore...just ask ppl to pull me along =P
wanna say thx to siewying who paid for me n sueling...n erm that fella that teached me how to skate XD
hmm...as for today...nothing much...too tired...still tired from the outing last nite...
i think i learnt my lesson...i will never go out on a weekday when there's class the next day...
i will be sooo tired i wont be able to concentrate on finishing my homework...n i will be tired in class next day...cant pay much attention...
however...im feeling happy today ^^ even though i cried just now =P *over some small touching thingy* i still feel glad...
even though it's impossible...i still dont mind hoping for it...
maybe im overeacting...but that's enough for me ^^
dont understand the sentences above ler? =P for me n bloggie to know XD
i wanna sleep...tired tired...
nitez~
Monday, January 16, 2006
grrr~
cant believe how low morale some guys can be */e5*
i'll get to that point later...
nothing much in school today...
i sat the 4pm bus back...halfway through shah alam it started to rain...
i was like 'oh shit...' cuz i have to walk back under the rain!! *sobzz T.T*
when i reached the old pasar malam spot...the roundabout there...
luckily for me the rain ermm was not as heavy...
just abit drizzle...so i decided to walk only lor...
then hor...i was waiting to cross the road at the roundabout...
from far far away i hear whistles...i was wondering wat is that?
then the whistle got louder n more frequent...
until 1 point i realize a truck full of guys drove by...
n the all looked at me n whistle...
wth...even they pass so far away edi still look back...
fine lor i thought bad luck so i looked away...
then i crossed edi i walk bside the road...
n i realized 1 black proton iswara was following me..
from the starting point of the road it followed me...driving slowly bside me till the junction...
somemore keep looking through the side window...
wahlau...i kept walking faster n looking away...
n i thought nothing worse can happen...
zzz...another truck drove by after that...
3 guys inside did the same thing!!!
wahlau...these guys ah...nothing else to do izit...
see ugly gurls oso wanna woo...think gurls r wat?
i was thinking hor...its only a matter of time until i kena snatch or err...something much worse T.T *touchwood*
dam irritating ler...no life 1 arh...do these kind of things...
really beh tahan edi arhh!!!!!! dam~
piff....y today so suey? walk under the rain somemore must kena annoyed by ppl...
oh yeah...my mom called me n cried just now =.=
she said her exam paper too hard she cannot answer even 1 =.=
faint la...see la...from last time i keep telling her exam papers hard...
she said there's no such thing as hard...u study sure can answer everything..
now she complained say she study soo hard n yet cant answer even 1 =.=
now she understands edi ><" but i felt bad oso la...she cried =.=
sigh..tmr go pyramid again ><" skate so expensive!
dono wanna skate anot =.= bo lui edi arh!!!!
Sunday, January 15, 2006
Piano
since the age of three i've touched the keys of the piano...
at 5 i started taking piano lessons...
it has been 12 years since i learned piano...n yet i havent achieved high grades yet =.=
i think that ought to be blamed on my ex piano teacher =.=
nvm...that's not the main point today...
as i grow up...i left those kids songs n classical songs...
n more into those comtemporary pieces...
but never once had i focus my attention on it for more than a month...
everyday new songs r released n i tend to get those scores n start playing it...
leaving the old ones behind...
i was yet waiting for that 1 day when i can just play a full song from my memory n not looking at the scores...
certain times i almost did it...but i have short attention span u c ><"
get bored with the songs easily...
n of course those short n simple songs r not counted...
i wanted a full n long n hard song XD only that can my ability be shown...
wat i didnt know was...the reason that made me succeeded...
i thought it was just hard work n practice everyday...
but it was for a person...
i still remembered when i get that piano score online i tried to play it...
my sight reading was bad for 1 thing...another thing was the song was hard @@"
5 sharps...n full of semiquavers ><"
i never thought i would be able to play it well...
there's one day when i played for that person through skype...
it was bad ><" even he said it...
by then it was hard for me to play the whole song...
n i remembered those words that made me play that song everyday since then
he said something like 'practice properly and play for me nicely 1 day okay?'
didnt know that words would be so effective...
since then i played everyday without fatigue n boredom...
but it was just for the fun of it...never tend to practice hard...
just play few times everyday...
playing that song had become part of my daily routine...
n now...without looking at the scores i can play the full song without any major flaws ^^
*took me long enough to actually live up to my ability*
everytime my fingers touched the keys it's like my fingers know which keys to press next automatically...
as i played on...the song brings me back in time to that moment
sigh~ i shouldnt have started playing it...
now the only song i wanna play is that song n only that song ><"
never seem to get bored of it...
i think my neighbours r getting bored of it edi =P
Saturday, January 14, 2006
忘了爱
街道我徘徊
灯亮起来
冰冷冷的雾气风吹不散
看著你离开心有点乱
该热闹的时候你却不在
一个人能说出怎么样的对白
空房间只剩我的无奈
花谢了花又开
你却不再回来
静静的试着忘了爱
等著你醒来天有些暗
站在这里只为了你回来
一个人能说出怎么样的对白
空房间只剩我的无奈
花谢了花又开
你却不再回来
静静的试着忘了爱
这么冷的冬天
我走在一个人的街上
天空飘下了雪
而我想起了你
就在这个时候眼泪流下来
*忘了爱.Toro
This song...the music is sad...i like the music...the instrumental part is really nice...suits my mood now~ u can feel a tinge of sadness as well as loneliness in the song...this song is for those who are alone late at night mourning about loneliness de =P most of all...the lyrics mostly says everything
smile
a smile...
can u identify a genuine smile?
as in those smiles that come straight from the heart...
not the 1 that ur brain send msges to ur mouth to force a smile...
those that look really beautiful is those with smiles from the heart =)
lemme show u this...
dono how come since a long time ago i cant seem to get nice pics...
this 1 i tried to smile *genuinely* but turned out like this...my mouth's like forced to pull apart
Friday, January 13, 2006
wait
omg...at last i get to load...
soo dam slow ler the connection here at taylor's de The Web =.=
do everything must wait for sooooo dam long...
dam slow...i waited for this page for like 15 mins edi!!
umm...it's raining outside...
n i have to wait for my bus to come at 4...
wanted to eat mcflurry de T.T but then raining cannot walk there!
sienzz ><" cannot do anything here de...
the comp looks nice...but the service sux */e5*
nothing much to say le la...
nowadays i daydream alot...
no good sia...
yay! tmr saturday...
thinking of perming my hair...dono my mom let anot ><"
hope she lets ah...
weee~ can shop at 1U again...
i m soo not gona bring money there...
if not i will spend again!!
that's all oh~byez
Thursday, January 12, 2006
moments
this is dumb...
i thought i've accomplished something at last...by not mentioning 1 word about my sadness or suffering in the last post...
seems that i forgot that temporarily...n after i posted it i felt happy with myself...
at last i dont feel as sad anymore...
boy...how wrong i was ><"
i was taking some much needed rest from doing homeworks n suddenly there's this song in mtv...
the starting melody was so familiar to me as jay's song ><" then i ran to my tv n i saw the whole video clip...sigh~
every word that he sang in 'feng' itches deeper n deeper into my heart...
it's like digging back all the memories...all those moments with him
forcing me to relive those moments in my head...
u know songs r like...ermm...how to explain ya?
sometimes when u listen to an old song it will bring back some memories from certain time or year...
that song may be significant during 1 period of time...that u will remember that song for that moment aint it?
n hearing those jay chou's songs r like bringing me back 3 months in time...
goshh...not only that...i read mayling's latest post n it reminds me...
she typed everything out...goshh...
reading her post was like making me realize those things that i never wanna think of...cuz it's too painful to think about it
sigh...even though i bury myself with loads of work n books...
in between those times when i flip the pages or i stop to understand those things...
those moments will automatically flow back ><"
sheesh...
dowan to talk about it le...i need to relaxxxxxx
stress my mind too much nowadays...
n i got nobody to talk to...it's sad to know that u've got nobody to talk to...to share ur problems with...to help lessen ur burden...
everything's jumbled up in my heart n i just wanna explode!!!
faint...im getting mad again...lucky i can post it here...
guess i have to treat my bloggie as a listener...sigh~
i'll continue studying~ taz`
busy
at last! today i finally feel the stress of going to college...
lolx dono wanna complain or feel excited...
well i have too much time to spend nowadays...cuz i seldom go out n i dont really face my comp except to blog anymore...so i got lotsa free time...
i think can fill in my time le bah lolx...
but today's homework really alot ler!!!
lemme c...physics got 2 super hard ques which take hours to figure it out...
chemistry got essay!! sobzz...
english ler! must find research topics =.=
somemore oh...maths got like 30 questions ><"
fainttt!! today must ka yao edi ^^
hmm...lucky i came back early...cuz my classes end at 2 today...
it's gona rain edi oh...if i follow the 4pm bus hor...i think i gonna be drenched XD
so tired sia...wanna rest a while...~ pheww~
oh yeah...im like out of touch with co-ed school edi...
primary co-ed school that time...ur frens will always try to match u up with other guys/gurls =.= dam mou liu...
but then the funny thing is...they always seem to get it right...
dono how they get the hint that some ppl have lil bit crush on other ppl XD
my class got 2 ppl ler...dam cute...they dono each other de oh...
but always sit together...today saw alot things ler XD
she shake shake him...somemore she sayang his head...
then my fren was like pushing them together...that guy said 'shhhh...dont kacau'
lolx...5 years in all gurls school...sienz ler...
lack of the ermm interesting things XD everyday face gurl only...
sometimes need some guys to joke around in the class ^^
i think im happy with my class overall...quite fun la ^^
all like get to know each other better edi XD
anywayz...i guai ler /gg =P normal days i will sleep at this time de...
especially nvr sleep enough last nite...
but then i gotta go bathe n start on my work edi oh XD
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
Sadness
today quite bz ><" that's y now only got time to blog in some stuff
well...funny sia...izit true arh there r 7 identical humans in this world?
i've been told i look identical to some other ppl...
but today hor...wahseh...i met someone who looks sooo much like hawick...
that tvb actor hawick XD at 1st i didnt think so...
but when i looked at him...his expression n feature is so identical ><" faint sia~
ryusei de twin oso XD
anywayz...today ermm came back home around 530 then kautim my ro stuffs
i sold soo many things sia...somemore sell super cheap!! really super cheap sia...
until all argue to sapu my stuffs =P
but then still earn not much ><" sigh~
now only free to blog in some stuffs...
oh yeah...i realize nowadays i sleep early jor XD
maybe cuz i nvr really chat on msn n manage my bots anymore bah
i know for a fact that last time hor...im like 24/7 on msn
wake up 1st think i c is comp =.= then stuck there n chat till wee hours in the morning @@
for a particular person...
now that i've got nobody else...it'll do me some good
sigh...i've been keeping myself bz these days...
concentrate in class...hang out with friends...do homework...revision
n that really put that thing off my mind for a while...
maybe i chuck it in 1 deep deep corner..
but when i reach home...n i face to comp...
gosh i feel nostalgic...once i saw anything that's linked to u know who...
i...sigh...no matter how happy or how excited i feel that time...
it will be replaced by sadness n pain in just a nanosecond
i mixed around...tried to smile
but i guess nobody can see underneath that smile...
it's late...i better go get some sleep...
nitez
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
I Still...
listening to music can help relieve stress huh?
these days I've been listening to the lyrics more...
n my hands will automatically type it out XD
*
Who are you now
Are you still the same or did you change somehow
What do you do
At this very moment when I think of you
And when I'm looking back
How we were young and stupid
Do you remember that
No matter how i fight it
Can't deny it
Just can't let you go
I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you
Now look at me
Instead of moving on I refuse to see
That i keep coming back
Yeah im stuck in a moment
That wasn't meant to last
I've tried to fight it
Can't deny it
You don't even know that
I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you
I wish I can find you just like you found me
That I will never let you go
Need you
Care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you
*I Still... by Backstreet Boys
Monday, January 09, 2006
Shopping spree...
omg...cant believe how much i spent today!!!
wahseh...cannot believe lor...since after spm im like becoming such a big big big spender!!!
eeeeee!!!! i wasted sooo much money edi...
but the thing is...shopping really can make someone happy...
when u shop n buy things u like u will relieve ur stress...
but then hor =.= once u reach home n start counting how much u spent! u will be much much moree stressful!! ><"
anywayz...tmr is a public holiday ^^ n im running out of jeans u c...
so i planned to go pyramid with sueling today after class...
so erm...after class we walked to the bus stop n sat bus there lor ^^
wahseh we went in every possible shops man...pyramid is quite small compared to 1U so we can walk all...
but then there r sooooo many nice shirts...unfair ler!!
past few years i went shopping i nvr c any shirt i like...somemore i seldom spend...always got extra money de...by the end of the year got few hundred never spend...
now arh =.= crap...im in red...
i saw lots of nice shirts which i wanna buy!! but i cant! i bought around 8 shirts since december edi =.=
so i browsed for pants...levi's got so many nice jeans ler...i wanna buy T.T
wanna ask my mom to buy for me as my b'day present ><" but no good la she paid so much for me this year edi ><"
so ermm i terpaksa shop those cheap stuffs ><"
bought a jeans...that time really no money edi...
then we went in a shop...saw nice sweaters!
im sick n tired of my giordano one =.= cuz everywhere i go ppl's wearing it...even in my class!! so xia sui ><"
n i saw 1 nice 1...cannot tahan boro money from sueling to buy again T.T
waaaaaaaaaa.........i spend rm100++ edi larrrr!!!! HELPPP~~!!!
sueling's suppose to advise me not to buy!! but she keep say buy la buy la =P
bad bad me...dono y nowadays spend so much
maybe i wanna release my stress on other aspects ><"
yeah...this way i really can forget that pain temporarily...sigh~
oh yeah...very suey ler me...i saw a guy in my college that looks sooo much like him ><"
looking at that guy's like looking at him...faint sia~
haizz...y liddat 1 wor...
n i saw 1 gurl that looks like ryusei also..mini ryusei!! lolx!!
dam cute...hairstyle same...same height face everything oso!! the way she dresses also like ryusei...
i thought how come ryusei's here de...
anywayz...those of u who read this pls pls pls advise me not to go shopping anymore!!!
wahseh i will spend like hell 1 ler...
come back with 2 or 3 bags de always T.T
cannot go out edi!! sobz....no money edi...i charged those thingy on angpao money ler =.=
><" tmr holiday oh XD can sleep late ^^
but i got lots of work @@"
that's all bah~ adios`
Quote
i came across this in MayLing's blog...
which i think it's true...
'It hurts to know that someone you love is with somebody else, yet it hurts more to know that someone you love is unhappy with you...'
i think i'll turn in...
hope my nightmares wont repeat itself tonight ><"
sweet dreams ^^
Sunday, January 08, 2006
crap...
fuck...*sorry abit rude...cant find a more rude word to scold myself*
dammit...how come my hand so itchy...
so many links to click i 'pin pin' wanna click that link
darn...
i have to blame myself...
yeah all my fault...who ask me to do that...
im the one adding more misery to myself
it's uncanny...nobody's making me suffer...
im the one suffering...im the one who made myself suffer...
Y IS IT LIKE THAT?!!
at least last time there was someone who made me overcome all these...
but this time it's cuz of that someone...
really cant take it anymore...help?!
waaaaa....i want beer/vodka/wine...
sobzz...as the day goes by...the pain should be lesser n lesser rite?
that's how it goes...
but WHY is it that my pain increases day by day?
i suffer more n more everyday...arghh
neverending nightmares
as the title suggests...i guess u pretty much know im gona crap about wat...
sorry ahh these few posts r all the same...
nightmares nightmares nightmares...
haixx...
a new feeling of hatred begin to surface in my mind...
the more i think of it the more i hate...the more i hate...i also dono wat i hate
i cant say that i hate someone...it's more like i hate myself...
how come i kept thinking about it...
yeah i tried to make myself happy by occupying myself with things to do...
yet in the still of the night those memories kept floating back
i go to sleep everynight with those bittersweet memories
sleep through the night with those nightmares...
wake up with flashes of nightmares from the night before...
i really really cant stand itt!!!! arghh...
Saturday, January 07, 2006
For someone...
Who can say for certain
Maybe you're still here
I feel you all around me
Your memories so clear
Deep in the stillness
I can hear u speak
You're still an inspiration
Can it be
That you are my forever love
And you are watching over me from up above
Fly me up to where you are beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight to see you smile
If only for a while to know you're there
A breath away's not far to where you are
Are you gently sleeping
Here inside my dream
And isn't faith believing
All power can't be seen
As my heart holds you
Just one beat away
I cherish all you gave me everyday
Coz you are my forever love
Watching me from up above
And I believe that angels breathe
And that love will evolve and never leave
Fly me up to where you are beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight to see you smile
If only for a while to know you're there
A breath away's not far to where you are
I know you're there
A breath away's not far
To where you are
*Josh Groban - To Where You Are
Friday, January 06, 2006
Tired
im sooo tired...lazy to crap here edi la...
last night...as usual...nightmares about u know wat n who ><" made me sweat in my sleep...
cant believe after so long i still...faint...i dont wanna have nightmares!!! very sufferinggg!! m i having a sleeping disorder or mental problem? sobzz
anywayz...sat bus there...today's class arh...not bad la...
i was soo not in the mood to study...still in holiday mode...
took me few mins to engage to the lessons ><" yet my mind's on other things...
sighh...my class got 1 cute couple...the gurl dam sweet ^^ the guy oso...both of them dam cute ahh...always c them together everywhere...sighh~
somemore sit in front of my during physics =.= making me cant concentrate nia */pif*
nothing else to blog ah...
sighh...how come i still think about that arh?
today i made a new friend...not a...some new friends...
yet i dont really feel like mixing with them too much ><"
sighh~ i know im supposed to be having fun...
but then as i talk to them my heart's elsewhere...
zzzzzzzz
got ppl said im dumb...haix
dowan to say edi...
i sat bus home...soo long journey...somemore i have to walkkkkkkk
to think of it...the old pasar malam to my house is quite near...
but when i walk ah...it's like forever oso cannot reach my house de...
1 funny thing...sueling was telling me bout chengyong...
then as i was walking home i saw him in a car =.=
then he stopped n chat with me for a while...lol so coincidence...
he offered to fetch me back...even though i want to sit the car!! can escape the hot blazing sun...but then em hou yi si...
i wanna go sleep edi lar~ too tired @@"
sweet dreams
Thursday, January 05, 2006
Unlucky day
today...really wanna faint..my finger hurts~! i'll tell u y later...
well i started the day pretty well...
i slept at 7++ last nite...intended to wake up at 9 to watch CSI but then as most of u know...im a pig...lolx...i didnt even lock my door ><" i think someone switched off my lights for me
when i woke up it was 226am...gosh that was pure hell...
i cant sleep back...n i opened my eyes the whole time...thinking about...errr...u know who la...
my mind kept repeating that song...'never let you go'
dono wat the hell was wrong with me that time ><" i just cant get to sleep...
but at last i managed...n i woke up at 6 ><"
when i sat the taylor's bus i was freezing!!! the aircond thingy was stuck...n it was blowing directly at me!! cant even feel my arm anymore...
surprisingly though...although i feel cold...i dont ermm really err...feel cold...
as in...my brain didnt register the information...lolx
maybe my mind was on other stuff...some other ppl from eng ann had to stand...cuz it was soo pack...i wonder how to fit in those ppl when A lvl starts...
today's timetable sux...i had class from 8-9...n then my break 9-10...after that 4 hours straight until 2pm =.= how to eat my lunch wor!!
well...having been thought by some of the worst teachers in secondary school...i think my lecturers r not bad... *government servant salary so low...wadaya expect? *wink**
maybe i was ermm intrigued by the fact that i get to study in english =D
im gonna stuggle though...every english word they say or write i guessing what is that in malay only i understand =.=
my chem teacher was soo young!! i think younger than my bro =.= my maths teacher too...
the class went on pretty well...with some occasional yawning now n then XD
cant show that im sleepy ><" i was sitting right in front... @@"
erm 2pm finish class...
after that supposed to go sunway pyramid...
my pet bro yingkiat's bday...so he suggested we go there to watch movie...
by 2pm my frens..the twins were calling me n telling me they still cant contact him =.=
i was debating with myself whether to go anot...cuz i was tired...n i lazy to sit bus...
but i promised him...n i dowan leave the twins alone there...
so after class i walked...without direction =.= just simply choose 1 road n walk along until i come across some familiar road =.=
luckily i walked till sjmc...n the bus to pyramid came after that...
so i reached around quite early...but then hor =.=
he changed his hp number n we cant contact him!!! when he called me at around 3pm...guess wat he told me? 'ohh im still at my friend's house'
u cant imagine how shocked m i that time...wanted to slap him sia !!
change venue to celebrate his b'day oso nvr tell us...the twins waited for him since 12pm edi ler...rush there straight after driving lessons...
now he's telling us that he's still in klang....wahlau...
he's the 1 asking us to go there de ler....zzz
yet we waited for him till 430...in the meantime i met hamsuplou n chatted with him...
after he came it was almost 5...n we were no more in the mood for movies...
so we sat at the bowling alley while sokling n her bf went to paktor...
me n sokching wanted to play...n since i promised my pet bro to treat him...
i pay for his bowling...only to find out that he doesnt wanna play =.=
wahseh waste my money ler...i was soo furious at that time i just walked away...
oh that's not the worst...i started to bowl n then i realize the pain in my operation wound...
zzzz i cant play sports ler...how can i forget!!!
now 2 games wasted....faint ler...
ohh i even had my finger 'kempit' between 2 bowling balls...
now it's bleeding in the insides of the fingernail...
cant imagine how suey m i today...
hope tmr will be better bah...
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
Orientation day
faint...dono how to start...
what a tiring tiring day...
having not slept last nite...my head was bursting on my way there @@"
my mom drove me n sueling there...cant believe the jam man...
came out jam the whole way till klang city....
then after the 2nd toll jam again =.= 1st time c 11 lanes de toll jam =.=
reached there at around 820...saw a few mgsians...
then went to the classroom to collect my ID card n timetable...
after that went to mcD to eat ^^
then went to the hall to hear briefing...boring 2 hours man =.= i was falling asleep...but the chair was soo not comfortable i had to sit up
hmm...then later went to class to meet mentor lor...
eeshh...tell u hor...my class no lengchais de!! =.= all so...errr....lol~ got a few from klang...lucky i got 1 ermm ex classmate from mgs with me ^^
well i very kerlian my mentor....he's like talking to walls...nobody's paying attention to him...all staring into space...
he was like asking us things n we just stared at him...n he stared back...
then he asked 'u all got anything to ask arh?' then we looked away....nobody looking at him =.=
kerlian sia ><" my class so sienz de...all so quiet...dont have any fun ppl T.T
suppose to end at 2pm de...1240 he let us go jor =.=
i was like...sienz...wat should i do??!!
well i waited for half an hour till i saw shie ming n sarah...
went to asia club lolx...i didnt know that no admission under 18...shieming was so scared....she's afraid of all those guys there XD
lolx...i was soo tired by then i just sat n watched them play pool...
then went down to eat with sueling n pauline...
cant find the tako T.T i was not hungry...so i just ordered fishballs XD
later we walked to ermm ohh...subang ktm station =.=
walk so long sia...30 mins @@" must keep turning...c which road we know just walk only...hahaz...
but i was so hot n sweaty by then...when i got to the train i just lie there...
n there's this old man kept talking to me =.= how come i always kena de wor...
i find excuse talk to my friends yet he still 'chap jui' =.= faint...
aiyo im soo tired now...from the way i blog oso can c...
so erm not interesting n so dull...zzz
i wanna sleep!! but cannot sia ><" if i sleep now i will wake up during the midnight =.= n then i wont sleep tonight again =.=
help~~!!
cant believe im actually starting college...lolxx
that's wat i want...yet i dont feel like it...
probably too tired jor~
aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....i'll go find other things to do
ahh~! watch meteor garden =D
chao~
sleepless
im here again...lolx...clock shows 5am
im supposed to be in bed...but im not...
i tried to sleep...i really tried...switched off the lights...pulled covers over me...closed my eyes...n yet i cant seem to fall asleep...
no matter how tired n sleepy i m...
my mind r full of thoughts of him...of those memories...
i didnt want to...no matter how hard i tried to shut it off...it kept appearing...it's like a broken vcr player that kept repeating the same footage over n over again...
gosh it hurts...
not being mawkish here but...i just want a place where i can express how i feel...
n i dont appreciate being mocked */pif*
in 2 hours time im suppose to wake up...n prepare for college...
1st day...dono how i will adapt...im kinda scared meeting back those ermm old rivals ><"
sighh...i dont want my name spoiled for no reason again...making me friendless ya know?
yeah i promised someone i would live happily no matter wat happen...
i'll try...but i know deep in the corners of my heart...it will always bleed...
faint...im so crazy...i wanna do something!! wat should i do?
msn's getting boring now that nobody seem to realize im on their list anymore...
haha...no one's bothered enough to chat with me....
y m i complaining? maybe i prefer the freedom...yet it's the loneliness that seem to linger around...
ahhh....how come i keep yawning!! ohh i found another thing to blog
at last i got to take bath!!WEEEE~ u know the past few days when i've been ermm...wiping my body with wet towels...i nearly nearly wanted to just bathe in the cooling water!!
i was like staring at the running water...wanting to let the water flow n wash all the dirtiness away!!
1st time sia....3 days without bathing...i stink!!
it felt sooo nice to be under the water...but then i still cant let the wound make contact with water =.=
so dam hard to bathe myself...i was like thinking ways to wash myself up without touching that area...
but then ><" still...i accidentally let the water run on it !! ><" eee...
faint...dono how i gona bathe the nx couple of days...seeing that that bandage will only go off on saturday =.=
arghhh...i m so sleepy...i miss my bed!! my bolster!! i miss the comfortness of lying on my comfy comfy bed!! T.T
how come i still dowan to sleeppp~ naughty me...naughty!!
i think i've written too much crap here...better sign off~ chaoz`
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
Nightmare
goshh...this sux...
to think that i start to show symptoms of sickness 1 day b4 i start college
starting from the non-stop nightmares i had last nite...
it's horrible...everytime i woke up from those nightmares my heart hurts like hell
these nightmares r similar to the one i had few months ago...
u remember the nightmare that i had that's hinting me of the one who made that relationship failed? that i would know of who she was when i woke up...n i did found out...
well as im typing this now...my heart hurts...my body's hot all over n i suddenly felt that there's no air for me to breathe...
i slept at around 4am last night watching meteor garden...
straight after that the nightmares begun...i woke up at 7++ am...
like those u see in movies when i woke up abruptly cuz i cant stand the nightmare...
it's bout him...and her...i was playing a part in it too...seeing him trying to win back her heart...
i went back to sleep in tears...n a new 1 begun as soon as my eyelids closed...
2nd time i woke up was around 938am...i woke up with sweats around my brow
same thing...uncanny sia...it can be as different as the 1st one yet bringing the same msg to me...he's trying hard for her...
i really didnt wanna sleep after that...but i did...
well...3rd 1 took a lil longer...made me wake up at 12++pm...yeah same thing...
i still didnt wanna wake up...n the next 1 was super long...as if convincing me that it's really gona happen...n i didnt woke up until 543pm
i was yet to know that when i was dreaming...the real movie was playing somewhere on earth...
funny how the world works aint it? those dreams were actually visions of real things that were happening right now somewhere...
goshh...to learn the truth was like...indescribable...
didnt know that my dreams will come true again...
maybe it was really trying to tell me to give up...
sighh...that wound had been pretty obedient since after operation...but now it hurts like hell...really hurts...i've started to feel headache...coughing like mad n having fever...
funny sia...normally ppl get sick right after operation...mine's like
it's like someone's playing a fool on me...isnt it enough that my heart already hurts like hell? how come it always never rain but it pours? bad things happen all at once...
i've really had enough...
really cant face it anymore...
Monday, January 02, 2006
Chicken soup for the teenage soul journal
i've got this chicken soup for the teenage soul journal...which i bought a couple of years ago...
a mistake ><" i thought it was a normal chicken soup until i realize it was a journal...
well the book is dam thick n hard to write in...
n im lazy to write so i'll just type out here yea...
since im dead bored nowadays...
i'll start from the front! XD
Loving yourself - All about Me...
My favourite colour - blue
My favourite song - right now it's fa ru xue by jay chou ^^
My favourite band - still backstreet boys XD since im errr 5?
My favourite movie - ermm...lord of the rings i think XD
My favourite TV show - ahh...seldom watch TV nowadays...i guess its CSI...preferbly CSI:Miami
My favourite teacher - hmm...tough 1 ><" i think it's Pn.Liza...my form5 bio teacher XD
My best talent - ahh...that's hard...i'm kinda like 'Jack of all trades but master of none' ><" pretty much good in almost everything but not the best ><" the reason's cuz i dont put enough determination ><"
My best sport - hmm...table tennis? havent really tried others...
My favourite subject - that would have to be between english n bio...i guess i'll take bio XD
My favourite book - used to be harry potter series...but i like the DaVince Code n Angels and Demons too XD
My favourite movie star - ahh...Hawick Lau XD that cute tvb actor...
My favourite thing to do - ermm ><" spending time with the 1 i love...but too bad
My 2nd favourite thing to do - sleep...zzzz piggy me
My favourite day of the week - Saturday XD shop n have fun ^^
My favourite website - ahh...seldom surf net nowadays...my bloggie? lolx
Do you like your looks? - well im born with it...i'm happy with it ^^
Do you like your body? - yeah i guess...overall bah...except my complexion n legs n fur? lol
What is your best feature? - do i have 1? ><" i dono...my...err...cant think of any ler...really cant think of any feature that's outstanding ><
Length of hair - ahh...long...longer than shoulder
Colour of hair - black
Colour of eyes - brown? i think ><"
Height - arhh....170cm i guess? didnt really measure...
Are you athletic? - was...not anymore...too lazy n tired...but i guess im still up for it
Are you healthy? - haha...as far from it as u can imagine...
What emotion do you hide? - ><" hurt...sadness...tears...sometimes when someone smiles or laughs...in the heart it's the other way around...
Do you think you are smart? - ermm im not the 1 who can judge this...but i think i can do much much more better if i put effort in it
What is your best subject? - not sure ><" judging by my marks in exams n tests i guess it's english? but it's ez ><"
What is your special talent? - ahh...just said that im jack of all trades but master of none...cant think of any special talent...
What do you want to be when u grow up? - ermm...used to be astrologist...now i wanna be a genetic engineer ^^ or maybe a forensic scientist which is impossible in m'sia
Are you religious? - nop...
What religion are you? - suppose to be buddhist as stated on official forms but im generally a free-thinker
Do you believe in God? - yeah...i do
Do you get along well with people? - depends...i guess? but when im moody ppl will shun me @@" cuz my face dont look inviting to talk to...
Are you fun? - ahh...depends on my mood again ><" i could be as fun or shut myself from anybody =.=
Are you a good person? - ermm ><" i dono whether the bad things i've done is enough to determine whether im a bad person anot...but i know i wont hurt anybody on purpose ><" except when there's really no choice
Name one thing you would change about yourself - my temper i guess ><" i pretty much like to jump to conclusions using my ermm imagination ><" my brain's good in linking things n making things up ><" that's y i always suspect ppl without concrete proof...n i get angry very easily...so i hope i can be less temperamental ><"
Name one thing you would not change about yourself - ahh...i dono? i guess it's the thing that i dont hate ppl for life...well i may hate ppl when they irritate me but i dont keep grudges for that long...so i guess it's the forgiveness? =.=
For what you are grateful? - goshh...for what? right now i practically hate everything ><" sigh i guess im grateful that i have a chance to live in this world n experience bah
How would others describe you? - well that you have to ask others ^^ generally im bad tempered...moody...dont appreciate life...sadist...likes to isolate myself...lolx really have to ask others XD
that's all i guess XD
Sunday, January 01, 2006
New Year resolutions
lolx...forgot about this part...cuz i dont usually make new year resolutions =P
anywayz since i have nothing to do in the meantime ^^
let's see...
- To stop being so addicted to RO n msn anymore...well's that's pretty much settled XD
- To work hard n actually study for my SAM !!
- To see life in a different perspective and appreciate life n everything in it ^^ *this is gonna be hard ><"*
- Not to cry for every little small thing that i imagined ><"
- Adjust my sleeping time...not sleep whenever i feel like sleeping =.=
- ermmzz...not to jump to conclusions n simply imagine things that arent that way...
- to control my temper as well...think things from other perspective! n not to simply shout at ppl when im not in the mood ><"
- Clean my room more often!! my room is more messy than a typical guy's room =.=
- Organize my time =.=
- Try to go out more with friends n not rejecting their invitations n dates all the time ><"
- yeah...1 more thing..Not to fall in love anymore...
that's about it i guess? XD hope i can try bah ^^
Happy New Year 2006 ^^
Happy 2006 XD
though i should be more enthusiastic ><" abit groggy...
i was awake at 12 but i kept myself in bed till now...cuz i dont wanna wake up finding myself sienz with nothing to do again...
anywayz...last nite was the 2nd time in my life i went for countdown XD
notti me...doctor advise me not to go anywhere n do anything for 3 days...
especially countdown...where someone might just hit my wound n make it burst open @@"
but i was feeling well...nothing much n my wound dont hurt that much anymore
well i didnt bathe ><" only wipe myself ><" but i did wash my hair though...
then it was raining cats n dogs when my dad drove us...the fog was soooo heavy till the visibility was only few metres ahead...apart from that it's all foggy...so syok =P
hmm i reached 1U n i went to gsc to buy tickets for movie XD cuz we've got nothing to do when the shops close at 930...oh yeah...sux sia ><" i wanted to watch Narnia alot...so i dont mind the last 2 tickets left for the movie ><" lowest n the most side seat @@" faint~
so i went shopping...shop for new year clothes...
faint ler...seems that the clothes i like michelle wants too...
we got like 2 same clothes jor @@" in the end she let me have it ><" thx yea ^^
i bought too many clothes ><" still havent buy the jeans!! i m running out of pants ><"
oh yeah...terrible terrible thing happened while i was in padini concept store ><"
really terrible...my right eye started to itch n red...then i leave it n watch it got redder n redder...at last i accidentally touched it hard n it swell !! wahseh it's like those...ahh i dont wanna explain...i really had to take my contacts out cuz it's getting worse....
n i had to go on wearing only 1 contact lens =.= zzzzz sux ler...the other eye was so swollen n red that everyone was staring at me...luckily it's time for the movie so i faster walked to the cinema...
Narnia was nice though...well nicer than the book at least...not that nice when i knew wat was going to happen =P but it's nice la ^^ not wasted...
well then we got out of the cinema to a carpark =.= everybody was like @@" where r we? then we walked to rainforest where the U countdown party was held...
unfortunately admission's only for 18 n above so we cant go in ><"
we stayed at ground floor...which is 1 lvl above the party n watched them dance n have fun *sobzzz T.T*
oh yeah i met kokwei/frost there ^^ lolx that time only he told me nicholas teo was in ikano!!! i swore i could have strangle him!!!!
but that party wasnt bad la...the music was so catchy n jumpy i just had to tap my feet n move my body abit =P n i was very protective of that operation part =P keep covering it haha...
then it was time for the countdown when we shouted 10-1 n happy new year XD
n the fireworks!! eeeee we cant c ler...cuz it's blocked by the building!!! SOBZ!!! we can only c half...n we saw on the party screen it was sooo nice...
at last i cant take it anymore i ran to find an open area...well we saw the full fireworks...dam pretty!!! really dam pretty...even seeing it with 1 eye =.=
the last few 1 was soo pretty it's like stars falling out from the sky...sighh how i wished i was with somebody...
hmm then that's it then...after the fireworks plannig to go home...
someone treated me coffee bean XD thx alot ^^
n i got scolded by my dad =.= sighh~
was not in a good mood at last i went to sleep early...
well that's all...it's raining again...i wanted to stand under it...
but that's no good for my wound sia...will get infection ><"
anywayz...Happy new year again ^^