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even though i'm tired and sleepy now (considering i've been sleeping for 20+ hours yesterday =.= ) i still wanna blog this out...
if i'm typing this a few months ago...i would say it is fate
but now...my head is clear =D n it's nothing but coincidence
ahh...so it started when me n michelle went to 1U to watch Fast&Furious: Tokyo Drift...
we really really wanted to watch that XD
it started out fine alright...until that black guy introduced himself
'I'm Twinkie'
@@"~!!!!! i was like wat the............
CANNOT~!!! T.T waaaaa.......my twinkie ><" y must remind me of twinkie...
n just as i'm still trying to get over that twinkie thing
i learnt that the DK is takashi =.= that's nothing much la lol just that it's similar to someone's name
n then the guy who ahh lent his car to sean was Han...lolx...n wat a coincidence it was for michelle to like this han in this movie...so sad he died ><"
just as i thought it couldnt get any worse...
'Danny!'
*faint* ...double faint =.= really faint lahhh~! michelle was laughing there =.=
why do so many of the characters in this movie resembles so many ppl i know in real life?
n i never thought anyone would be named twinkie =.= well at least not one that i know of
the movie was nice =D i like the excitement watching the race lah...
when the movie ended i still kept thinking bout all those names...
n then i saw someone =.= to be precise i thought i saw twinkie =.=
it was sooo alike him ><" n to think that i followed him from the exit to U-bowl =.=
soo many things resembles him ><"
his height, the way he walks, the way he hunches his back, the way he puts his hand in his pocket, his hair!
but i was thinking it couldnt be him since i assumed he watched it...
n then i saw that guy turned his head abit...the specs is same also =.=
i told saki...n she agreed! yay~! im not oversensitive...
really looks like him from the back...
that time i was thinking...wat if it was him? wat m i gona say to him?
after thinking bout that i'm not sure if i really wanna meet him anymore...
but when he turned his head...sigh~
it was not him...sigh of disappointment? or sigh of relieve?
well...it's over...
n i'm certain it's coincidence...
Thursday, June 22, 2006
Sometimes i really wonder what is wrong with me...
i'm seriously angry at my family right now...
having cheated by the stupid computer shop for almost rm1k
n still blaming it on me...n oh...
it started when my idiot bro wanted to change the graphic card...
fine lor let him change...should be around 200 bah
then the stupid shop keep add things...
n say this spoil that spoil...then give us back the comp...
when we got back it wasnt working...then send back to the shop again
n he said hard disk spoil n we must pay extra...which added up to about 800
well...my family being noobs in comp cant do anything
n the stupid fella reformat the comp n SPOILED MY HARD DISK
n LOST ALL MY FILES
FUCK...all my important files inside as well as my assignments ler
idiot...
n u know what? THEY SOMEMORE ASK US TO PAY FOR A NEW HARD DISK
which incidentally cost up to rm1k...wat the hell...can buy new comp le
u know what? my mom somemore happily agreed...
she said 'they actually ask us pay 300 for the hd...then now give us discount need to pay 200 only'
damn la...wat the hell??!!! THEY SPOILED OUR HARD DISK N EXPECT US TO PAY AH?
really dumb fuck...
my bro asked me to shut up n my mom supported him
FINE! THEY WANT TO PAY
THEY GO AHEAD N PAY rm1k
I DONT GIVE A FUCKING DAMN
fuck la dont wanna say anything edi lar...the more i say the more agitated i will be
zzzz...
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
Many many things have happened in the past few days...or should i say weeks?
I've not been updating...maybe cuz i didnt want to write down what i have gone through
well...since now i'm a wee bit free...i feel like writing down all those weird n funny stuffs that happened to me...
dont worry it wont be any sad n depressing things here...i'm feeling happy XD
well...let me see...i met a flasher last week...YES!! a flasher!!!
my god...i was so shocked as that was the 1st time i actually met face to face with a flasher...
i was late that day you see...n i was abit sick...
as i walked to college from train station in the morning...i was alone
n in front of me was a man aged around 40+ with messy hair n dirty clothes...i guess he's homeless...
so he was standing under the tree n taking his pants off =.=
i only saw his hands on his pants n a patch of hair ><" n i quickly turned away n run!!
n then the other day...i saw a cat being banged and run down by a car!! T.T
i saw the whole scene! from before it happened till after it happened...
my god...my eyes was sooo big n i shouted ><"
the car was driving fast...so i waited at the side of the road to cross...
n there's this cute lil cat who wanted to cross as well...it jus ran soo fast...
n i heard BANG! n the cat jumped n slammed the floor n the car's both tayers ran over it...
WAA~!! so cruel...after that the cat was jumping n struggling...like how u see a fish jump when it's out of water...
after everybody heard the bang n my scream only they turned to look
sob~ so kerlian the cat T.T
today...talk about bad luck ><"
i woke up late...it was raining so heavily...
when i drove to the train station i see my train leaving...
n i was stuck between 2 cars...couldnt move front nor back...
n when i managed to park my car at last...
i couldnt find my touch n go card...n had to buy a ticket...
it was then that i heard the sound of my car locking n unlocking by itself
i was like...huh??!! i never press anything also...n then i realized
MY STUPID CAR REMOTE BUTTON JAMMED!!!
my god...it was so embarassing...imagine every few seconds the car kept locking n unlocking...
n i couldnt do anything...the remote kept blinking ><"
i tried to keep the keys in my bag n run far away opposite to the platform
n it's still jammed!!! i was sooo afraid that my car would unlock after i board the train...
n soo many ppl was staring at me T.T
i mean...u would be annoyed rite? keep hearing the stupid car locking n unlocking...
like someone playing pranks on u T.T
waaa~ soooo xia sui...
sigh~ hsienleng said bad lucks will only happen to me ><" n i'm always the one who experience funny n weird stuff T.T
on the other hand...things were going okay in college today...
well i had English mock presentation today...which i only prepared the night before...
n i hadnt even memorize ><" so i just went up there n talk spontaneously...
n wow...my lecturer actually liked my presentation @@"
i havent even got to the main point ler =.=
hope i'll do well in the real presentation
i guess...that's all? n sigh...my comp isnt working...
the stupid graphic card sux...n we had to keep sending to the shop...
luckily there's a laptop for me to do my work
hope...nothing happens tomoro? ><"
Sunday, June 18, 2006
lolx...looks like i havent been updating lately...
12 days since i last posted something...
well...lots of things happened...
n there were times that i was motivated to write something
but then i was lazy...
sigh~ wait till i got mood only i write down bah -
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
i'm lost...confused...
really don't know what to do...
i thought i didnt really...but now that something happened i realize i did start to...
haiz
maybe i really should stay away from everybody
just isolate myself...
i think i gona get mental problems soon lol
i dont know what to do
i want to be alone...
but i know i'm very soft hearted...
just have to make me touched abit n i will change my mind
sigh
what am i to do??!!
Monday, June 05, 2006
i'm very very pissed off now...
i don't wanna cry so early in the morning...not with my mom n bro around
but the stupid tears just wont listen to me
idiot la...
part of it started because of a dream...
n maybe the dream's trying to tell me something
when i woke up i was angry...but i shrugged it off after some logical thinking
but now...i start to think that the dream's gona happen anyway
i just...can't take it anymore
i cant...
why m i still dragging this on?
i feel so miserable...wat's the use if i suffer like this everyday?
Of relationships and siblings
It all started like this...
sis : 'ehh siang...u got girlfriend edi anot?'
bro : 'dont have lah'
me thinking in my heart - yeah rite =.=
i guess my sis saw my reaction
sis : 'she pretty anot? got as thin as ur er jie ah?'
bro : 'nola...she not that thin...normal la'
me : 'HORR!!! i thought u say dont have?'
at night...
bro : 'eh er jie...tmr buy necklace for me'
me : 'for wat?'
bro : 'for her la'
me : 'her birthday mer?'
bro : 'nola...just buy for her only'
and then it struck me =.=
i started to think...am i the only one in the family who is such a failure in relationships?
okay...lets start with my sis
well...i dont think i remember any part of my memory without my bro in law...formally sek yau korkor XD
i think they've already been together when i was a baby...
n they took care of me together...whenever i see my sis...i would see him as well
she's his 1st love...n he's her 1st love...
they were together when they were studying f6 in ACS...n have been till now ^^
when i was a lil child i've been treating my bro in law as a part of my family edi lolx
they took me out to movies...playgrounds...n i even slept at his parent's house =.=
well...they're still happily together XD
kinda hard to see 1st love lasting like this...so lucky
and well...my elder bro...
he's abit slow...he dont have a gf until he's in his late 20s
either that or he keeps it a secret =.=
i dont really know anything bout him...having seen him only like wat...once a year?
he's been single for soo long until my nosey aunts n uncles start suspecting he's a gay =.=
until one day when i went to genting with my sis's family
n i saw her =D i guess she's his 1st love too...
she's a indonesian muslim...n so young =.= i think younger than him almost 10 years?
well they've been together for quite long now...n it's time to marry
n umm...to do that my bro have to convert to islam ><"
melli's mom kept insisting my bro to convert
but my bro's mom dont want him to convert...
n well..my bro being him...oh he's so stubborn...
he's not gonna listen to anyone of them..
i know all he wants is just to be with her ^^
so sweet...he will do anything to be with her
so happy for them =)
and lastly...my younger bro...
as far as i know...he n his best friend were chasing 1 cute gurl from their class in standard 5 i think?
n in the end my bro got the gurl =.=
n i found out bout that few months later from my friend!!! can u imagine that =.=
my friend asked me one day 'eh...how's ur bro n his gf?'
'huh??!! his gf???'
since then they've been together...until now?
which i guess...is 2 years...
gosh...so unlikely for a couple at their age...
i thought they broke up last year...but my bro cheat me =.=
they r still together...pfft~!!
they never even went out ler...only sms everyday...faint~
well...erhh...i guess he still likes her very much...
having asked to buy necklace for her just because he wants to buy for her =.=
this really makes me wonder...
why am i the only one different? =.=
i know it's...i know it's wrong to think that way
but then...seeing them all so happy with their partners
sad leh =.=
anywayz...i wont have the chance to be like them anymore also
lolz...
nahh...dont think anymore ><
Sunday, June 04, 2006
放不下
听着他从前常常听的一首歌
就一直重复地听 也不感到厌倦
半夜只剩我一个人
突然觉得孤单 突然很想听这首歌
我真的很努力得试着不去想他
真的很少了
只是 夜深人静的时候
他的一点一滴慢慢从脑袋深处浮现出来
都习惯了 每一天一定有想
他还好吗? 他现在做着什么? 想着什么?
只能静静的望着他 msn 的名
就在那儿笨笨的想着他写下的讯息是给那一个女孩
心里那阵痛 是我怎么努力都除不了的
好希望我能摆脱这折磨自己的痛苦
但我也不想忘了他
我该怎么办?