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Waiting...
Everybody knows what its like to wait
but this particular wait is a very very suffering one
what m i doing?!
I also dont know what's wrong with me
my nightmares have been visiting me again...
there are bad ones, sweet ones n normal ones
n i dont know what message they r trying to bring me
is it cuz I think too much?
Sigh...I dont know what's wrong with me
I avoid going online...I rather be in denial than face the truth
the horrifying truth
YET y m i still waiting?
I know I am dumb...yes! A classified First Class I-D-I-O-T!
All I do is just wait...wait for the next chance
n hopefully that next chance will give me more hope
more hope for wat u ask? MORE HOPE TO WAIT SOMEMORE LAH
bugger...wait n wait...what do i expect to get?
even though i know the probability is just like 0.000001 I am still so willing
It's seriously dumb u know...
I message...n my heart beats like hell
n in my heart i keep thinking 'shit shit shit shit shit...maybe i shouldnt have messaged'
n I kept waiting n waiting for the reply to come
IF it comes...then i will reply 'oh so happily' n yet I would try to end the conversation as fast as possible
because I dont wanna face disappointment...I dont...I am afriad that suddenly when the conversation becomes uninteresting there would be no more replies
so I would rather end it first...
and many times the reply wouldnt come...I would be heartbroken
yes...n i would think of lots of things
I am an idiot...no?
YES...why m I still waiting
WHY m i still thinking bout that
It hurts....
sigh...my life is pathetic
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Gosh...I m seriously bored
I woke up today...alone again =.="
n then I thought...y not I go fetch my bros n cousins home =.="
yeah well...he told me they wanted to come home today geh~
see me! I'm so bored till i dont mind being a driver...
actually i thought i could go to 1U a while geh...on the way back
but then >.<" aiyohh~ have to fetch my mom later at 4 lah
liddat hor...I cannot go 1U ady T.T
WAAA~!
shit lah...super emo now
i seriously seriously wanna end all this...
i wanna end this suffering...
dont wanna care anymore...
dont wanna think that much anymore
dont wanna put hope anymore
BUT why m i so weak?
anywayz...it's raining heavily outside...
n i'm so lazy to go get my lunch =.="
maybe i shouldnt eat lah...not hungry also =P
go fetch them lurh~
Best lecturers I ever had
This 1 year in SAM made me learn so much more than what I've learnt in secondary school...
must thank all my wonderful lecturers...
cuz i think they're pretty good in teaching...
apart from that they can be someone u can talk to as well ^^
really glad i had them as my lecturers...will miss them >.<"
Mr John
-My Physics lecturer & my mentor ^^ 1st impression of him was - pity this man sia >.<"
lolx...cuz during the 1st day of college he kept trying to talk to the class n nobody answered him...he was like speaking n waiting for us to reply n we were like *blink blink*
he didnt really talk much too...kinda set lotsa rules for us...so we didnt really like him at 1st
turns out he's a great lecturer lolx...
he was helpful...he would walk around the class n gladly answer any questions
n he's damn patient as well lolx... i dont think he ever got mad at us
if he disagree he would think about it n say his typical 'errr...no' lol
even if eugene kept bombarding him with silly questions he would just laugh it off
during the SAM charity drive he was a great help...really XD
we were looking for err...kiddy pools n he said he would bring 1 for us
well even though he brought a pail =.= the thought was there lah lol
actually i felt quite bad for skipping so many of his classes...n lying a couple of times about skipping classes >.<"
sorry~
Ms Angelene
- ESL lecturer...some ppl dont really like her...well that includes me in the beginning...but overall i think she's a very very nice person...
just that sometimes she's abit err...i dont know how to describe it...she can scold ppl at times...n be kinda harsh on us
but that's just cuz she wants to push us to do better i guess?
i still remember at the beginning of the year she was kinda pissed at us...cuz someone wrote bad comments bout her lol...she thought it was from our class
so she gave us lots n lots of essays n didnt really chat with us >.<"
but she was sweet...gave us chocolates in return of the cookies we gave her on Teacher's day ^^
she tells us lotsa stories in class...her holidays, kids, husband...n chat with us too XD
i still remember telling her bout my family prob...
n she was like @@" 'bring ur dad to me for counselling...or why not u come stay with me!' XD
lolx...plus i know she put hopes on me...kinda disappointed her when i didnt do really well
just hope my finals is good enough to do her proud
Ms Tiew
- My maths lecturer...lolx i know quite alot of ppl r not really fond of her...
well...at 1st i dont really like her too =P during the 1st few weeks
gosh she was like the harshest lecturer on our 1st day...
she has this stern face...n seldom smiles u see...n she jus walked around the class with this strict strict facial expression n warned us not to do this n that >.<"
we were soo afraid of her @@"
but turns out that she's not as bad...she can be quite nice
although the way she teaches is errrr....really kinda fast @@" express...
but she will gladly help us with any questions
n we always eat in her class de =P buy lotsa junk food to eat there lol
sometimes when we dont feel like doing her work we will just slack n chat around...
she would even join us! lol just some occasional *shakes head* 'haiyo...u all hor!'
Ms Kwa
- super young Chemistry lecturer...she's so cute! lolx...seriously very cute ^^
i thought she was a student or wat lerh...she's so young...20+ only
but she's a good lecturer...even though not as experienced as others...but she's really good in teaching
i like the way she teaches...give us lotsa exercises n discussions that the facts just kinda glued to our head automatically =P
even so i did quite badly for chemistry >.<" didnt manage to score good grades even though i think it was easy? sigh~
i still remember those times in chemistry lab...whenever me n veelyn did something wrong she will be *tsk tsk* then just laugh n dont wanna tell us our mistakes =.="
oh...she stays at klang...n so kind of her to offer me a ride
cuz sometimes when i walk from train station to college i would bump into her n chat abit ^^
n for trials n finals our paper starts soo early that there's no train that time
so she said if i wanted she could fetch me to college ^^ so sweet hor?
i hope i didnt do too badly in chemistry...or else i would feel bad
Mrs Ong
- Cute little motherly Biology lecturer... =P she looks so motherly XD
n so cute n blur as well...lol...when we asked her questions she will stare at u with the small cute eyes through her glasses n *blink blink*
her notes are comprehensive n she explains quite well...
she's kind...never really angry at us...very patient as well
n will laugh at our jokes ^^
besides that, she's been understanding bout my surgery last year...
i remember we had this class about cancer...after class she talked to me bout my err...tumour that i got last year...
lol there was this small crowd around my table n we just kept laughing at my OT antics =P
she kinda explained n comforted me...somemore asked me to take care ler ^^ sweet huh?
sigh...will miss her too
Monday, November 27, 2006
Home alone
i dont know why...
but seems that nowadays lots of ppl like to leave me alone at home
serious~!! sigh...sux u know
not that i dont like this alone time that is rare
but then...whenever i'm alone with nothing to do
my imagination will run wild n i'll start thinking bout things that im not supposed to think
lol that's y ah yesterday so emo...too emo le...
let's see...
saturday all left me alone to go kepong...
then my sis also left me alone n went back home >.<"
then yesterday also! my bro n cousins not here le...then my parents went out
so i was home alone again...no dinner =.="
sigh~ but i didnt really dare to go out late le...they r unhappy
somemore ah...TODAY!
haix...bro n cousins still in kepong...mom went school trip...dad went to work?
waaa~!! I'm alone again...
why??
n i guess tmr as well...sigh~
y everybody like to leave me alone de wor
im kinda incapable of taking care of myself u see
nono...cannot use incapable
more like...ignorant...yea...
even when it's lunch or breakfast i wont get food unless im super hungry
aih...then i'll start to think bout things
my mind can wander miles n miles away
thinking bout...
shucks lah...i thought i was fine...
yet these few days it's like...im transported back in time
back to 1 year ago...
when...
nvm
sigh~ i think too much
Sunday, November 26, 2006
busy or bored?
i'm super bored!
these few days didnt really get much chance to online
even if i do have the time...i dont want >.<"
nothing to do online geh~
the last post...sigh~
anywayz....it was a happy/sad day for me?
didnt expect that to happen...really didnt
bittersweet...really glad can see err...
but sad cuz reminded me of lotsa things
nvm~ skip that...
on that day also i went for imu interview
i dont know what to comment lah
cuz that was my 1st interview
just hope >.<" they offer me a place?
friday...what did i do on that day ah?
OH~ i remembered...my cousins from sg came
so i had to fetch them from KLIA @@"
yeah well...i get to drive my dad's auto car! wee~!!
quite fun to drive big car...scary as well
definately nicer to drive than my mom's old manual proton
on the contrary =.= i still prefer to drive manual cars
sux lah...auto cannot speed de...wait for it to change gear takes forever!
glad i get to drive to n fro without a glitch
at night...supposed to go movies with them geh...but no nice movies
so i dropped them at cc n went yumchar with friends at Halo Cafe
nice environment...drinks not bad lah...just that the service sux
had to wait super long...n then when i asked them they havent even prepared
n oh...had to pay before the food came also!
on saturday...quite sian...
supposed to go 1U to watch movies with cousins again
but then my sis came =.="
so i was left behind at home! while they go enjoy in 1U T.T
err actually i made that choice de lah =P
i dont really know wat to do with 3 guys anywayz =.=
long time never see my cute nieces too!
but for an unknown reason, they decided to be super naughty that day
SUPER!
no point mentioning all the damages they done to me at home
but there was once where i drove all of them to mcD's to tapao food
my 3 years old niece was sitting in the passenger's seat
my god..!!!!! it was the most horrifying driving experience ever!
i was driving quite fast...n then she just stood up n TURNED MY STEERING WHEEL!
i almost almost banged something...luckily i had more strength than her n able to pulled it back from her
SIAO DE~!
then her 6 years old sis decided she would like to join in the fun too
n she started pulling my steering wheel from the back!
ohh that's not all...i was waiting for the traffic light that time n my leg was on the clutch
they just changed my gear for me!!!! luckily i realized >.<"
somemore ah...they kept pulling my hair from behind...ouch~
zzzz...seriously i never ever wanna drive children le
well then at night when they went back i was quite sien at home
so err...kinda went out with friends again xP
wanted to watch movie geh...cuz of jam at bukit tinggi when fetching friend...i spent like 1 hour on fetching ppl around klang! siao rite =.="
didnt manage to watch...so just walk around n go yumchar again
got home quite late >.<" think my mom wasnt happy with it
lol...wanted to go out again today! but err...well...no good lah?
very sien ah~!!!! what should i do today??!!
Thursday, November 23, 2006
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1123
一年了
怀念
好想回到从前
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
The Consequence of being Bored...
oohh kay...it's official - I've gone MAD!
lol...too sien at home...i'm rotting...seriously rotting
i can see moulds growing ady!! =P
well...even though it's not as bored as the last holidays...
even though i've been occupying myself with things to do
yet i still feel bored
ya know why?
cuz i've been trying to find ways to overcome this ho hum, monotonous, dull holiday life
up to the extend where i'm obsessed with cleaning my room n doing work =.=
well, something's seriously wrong with me u know
as i was cleaning up my room yesterday...i had to clean up all my SAM notes...
n urmm...being a lazy lazy person >.<" as usual i didnt do all my homework
namely those exercises n past year papers that lecturers gave us
n being sooo bored...i actually thought of saving them n doing them in my free time!!!
my god...how siao is that??!!
i even took up a few chemistry past year papers n sat down on the floor to read n try to answer =.=
why is it that i cant remember a thing prior to my exams
yet i can remember ever so clearly post exams?
SHEESH...how good is it if i had that drive to do the questions...
now too late le T.T
even my kor was like 'OMGG!!! u okay anot??!!'
another thing...i was cleaning my room
n i seriously like my sparkling clean room =)
so clean that i felt different upon stepping down from my bed this morning =P
usually i had to avoid those notes n books n junks on my floor =.="
well anywayz...i've really cleaned my room thoroughly last night
even those hidden corners under my bed n behind my cabinet...spic n span XD
but then hor...i was soooo bored today
that i started to take a cloth n go around my room hunting for dusts!!!!
i know...SIAO rite? =.=
err i found 1 place i missed last night...on the socket...where u plug the err socket?
i kept wiping n even wiped the wire!! lolx =P
i'm being paranoid...really ~
sigh~ how good if this can last...
it's always like that...1st few days really really clean...spotless!
but then after i'm busy i'll neglect cleaning it =.=
hey! dont blame me...i've got better things to do =X
n once i study ah...fuah...
i'll throw my notes n books everywhere on the floor
til i have to jump to avoid stepping on them =/
so untidy hor? T.T
ahh well...i think i'll go do more things to my room lol...
too sien XD trying to decorate it now lolx
chaoz`
Monday, November 20, 2006
Exhausted
hey bloggie,
long time never online le =P
kena complain =.= say finish exam le why MIA xP
well i was busy occupying myself with a book =P
The Nanny by Melissa Nathan
at first i thought it was err...kinda bland n boring
really boring ah =.= until about halfway through bah
then towards the end i really couldnt put down the book!
lolx...i was reading the whole day...
from the time i woke up till around midnight bah =.= then i go to sleep le @@"
really touching too >.<" i cried reading it...
hmm...this was the 2nd time bah i was so engrossed in a book
1st was harry potter series...lol really left my room for food n bathe nia
didnt even wanna watch tv or do other things XD
anywayz...today...was a very very tiring day
i was err...cleaning up my room lol
u know lah...exam time sure simply throw books on the floor
somemore alot of dust cuz long time never clean le >.<"
i took 7 hours to clean @@"
to the extend where i had to err...vacuum the ceiling lol
although very very tired now
but satisfied =) clean le XD
i threw away alot of things though =.=
my stuff toys =.=" my notes...1 whole box of it!!...lotsa clothes as well
ahh well...
i dont wanna be sien at home...
gonna find things to occupy myself i hope? >.<"
ta'z for now~
Saturday, November 18, 2006
Death Note
This movie...really cool!!!
i dont care wat some critics wrote about it...
despite the boringness, the bad actingness, the childishness, the blandness etc etc that the critics said...
I still LOVEE this movie...*heart <3*
It's about this genius Light...who found a Death Note where anybody whose name is written in it will die...
the characters are soo cute!
Light Yagami...oohh...i like his name xP
something like Moon - The God of Night
he is a genius...in uni i think?
now that i watched this movie...i realize japanese guys are typical thin, small sized with pretty eyes...lol
anywayz...at first he was disgusted with the way the law was enforced >.<" with loopholes n corruption...some criminals just get away without a scratch
with that he was determined to rid the world of criminals
at 1st it was for a good cause >.<" n i like to see him at that
so cool n cute...killing criminals off
but then when he started to be power hungry...sob...wasted lah
he started killing those innocent as well....but he got no choice >.<" cuz they almost found out his secret
the worst part is...he killed his own ...!!! T.T
so saddddd to see him turned so evil!
even the God of Death said 'u know what? u're far worse than the God of Death'
n oh...the God of Death - Ryuk was cute!
so cute lol...smart as well...
he didnt seem as evil as he should be =.=
n the way he craves for apples XD
but the character that i like most was 'L'!!
he is sooo cool n yeng...
even though he seems to have abit err...mental prob =.=
he dont sit down on chairs...he squat there =.=
he bites his finger at times...n his eyes r like ghost liddat
but the funniest thing is...wahh the way he eats ahh
errrr...somewhat like me >.<"
in front of his computer there's sweets n chocolates n cookies n chips *drool*
he eats non stop de! even when monitoring ppl's house ah keep biting chocolate....finish ady eat other things
somemore aiyoh...he makes some drinks or wat...put soo many sugar cubes in it...somemore use lollipop to stir!!
n when we were watching him eating...3 of my classmates suddenly turned to me...unanimously
'loan ping!!! LIKE U LAH!!!'
my god....so paiseh =.= cuz in college everyday i also go buy junks de =.= sweets, chocolates, chips etc...until they cannot tahan me xP
n umm the way 'L' holds things...so cute...like so delicate n soft =P
but he's smart u know...damn smart...at such a young age can command a team of FBI =.=
well apart from all those cute characters...
the coolest thing was to see the battle of the wits between 2 geniuses
see them work their minds was like @@"
dam chun...
ee! cannot tahan lah...wanna watch again =P
it was worth every cent i spent XD
although...i think i didnt pay for the movie =.=
Friday, November 17, 2006
Holiday
It seems not long ago that i just started college life
lil ol me anticipating this new environment
now =.= cant believe i'm walking out of it...
time passes so fast~
in just a few months time i'm starting Uni life @@"
n im still wondering m i too young for that ah? =.=
i'm not prepared!!
I'm done with my SAM finals XD
just waiting for my results to come out >.<"
well...hopefully it's not too bad? sob
my last paper was chemistry...
seeing how chemistry was my worst paper...
ironically it's the paper i did err...better than my bio =.=
although i screwed up 1 essay lah...but overall still not bad
n the paper ended in heavy heavy rain!!
so suey...i always put my umbrella in my bag de...ALWAYS!
just that day i didnt bring =.=
n how 'lucky' i was...the rain was sooo heavy...n there was thunder n lightning >.<"
i had to run to the car sia~ n i was drenched
so many ppl stared at me >.<" i was wearing white shirt somemore...*faint*
since i'm free now...I MISS SHOPPING!
WEEE~!!!! i can shop at last...
i went shopping for my prom dress n shoes n bags after my exam =D
gosh i miss shopping... =P
the fun thing going shopping with my mom is i dont have to pay ! xP
i spent quite a lot u know >.<" didnt realize
i just take n she paid...if i were to shop myself ah...i wouldnt part with my precious money T.T
sigh...very sien lerh...
what m i to do?
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
=.="
aiyoh...i really dono wat to say bout myself lah >.<"
i slept 14 hours!!!! *faint*
i was supposed to wake up n study geh...
but then i didnt want to >.<"
because....
errr....
paiseh ^^"
i had a really really sweet dream XD
really really really very sweet ^^
u know sometimes after we wake up we wont remember the dream at all
but as long as im half asleep n im in bed...
if i force myself to remember i will still remember geh =P
sigh~ how i wish that dream will come true...
but that's impossible =( dreams will be dreams
only my bad dreams come true lol...
anywayz....i screw my bio paper
i really did =.= i never did so badly for a bio paper b4...
n sad u know...bio was my best subject...never get B b4 de >.<"
n i just downgraded myself to B after screwing up the WHOLE essay question
i dont get it...they make it so confusing i dont know wat they want
'Describe : cellular processes that use glucose to produce ATP that synthesise gene products' something like that lah cant really remember
i read n read n read...n i thought they wanted cellular processes that synthesise gene products >.<"
SOB then only all of them told me they wanted cellular processes that produce ATP
seriously...i was still doubting the ques despite 10 ppl telling me im wrong
i thought maybe there's a weeee bit hope that i'm correct
but now horr....after typing the ques here...n reading them over again
only i realize...i was wrong T.T they wanted aerobic n anaerobic respiration T.T
SOB!!!! It's an essay ahhhh T.T my essay gone like that...GONE
haiz
not enough time somemore...
normally i got time to shade bubbles n to re check geh
but then...this time =.= spent too much time on essay
sigh~
1 more paper! then i'm FREE~!!
this is screwing my health...seriously damaging my body lol
Sunday, November 12, 2006
Weird =.="
I feel funny =.="
usually hor...once i sleep i really sleep de leh
like after maths exam on thursday...i slept like practically the whole day
n the whole day on friday >.<"
awake for few hours nia >.<" never study de T.T
n then hor...after MUET i slept til 11pm only woke up =.="
see such a lazy pig m i?
see i studied a bit ? til err...7am bah
then i cannot tahan le...
even though i told myself - CANNOT! must study till tonight
cuz no time ady...
but then i still fell asleep at 7am
but i woke up now leh =.="
funny...i slept 4 hours nia
n i expect myself to take up at around 7pm =P
see!!! sometimes i can be guai also de xP
eat 1st then continue study...hopefully i wont fall alseep again >.<"
Malaysian English Test
u know i realize there's a huge difference between Malaysia's English Test n Australia's English Test...
for 1 year i've been studying english under SAM
n for essays...we just have to extract points from the text given
it's been a long long time since i thought about my own points - quote from Gopi =P
then we all realized that too
for me >.<" im more suited to australian style
well the 1st paper was...not to say easy lah
reminds me of SPM paper where there were comprehensions n confusing questions with even more confusing answers =.="
those answers r so close together i just had to resort to this -
'ee ni mi ni mai ni mo~'
lolx~ sux lah...seriously it wasnt my taste to choose the BEST answer
n then there was this essay n summary
aiyoh...summary ah...i really dono wat points to summarize
i dono wat they want >.<" SOB T.T
they wanted 'how conflict can be managed'
but those points r only like 2 paragraphs =.= not enough lah
essay was worse! it was something like
'In order for a nation to achieve developed nation status, the young workforce must be prepared to meet present day challenges - state ur stand n justify ur arguments'
eek! i dono wat they want...seriously i dam long never think of own points le leh
always also got points for us n cannot use other points other than those in the text
i really dono wat i crap about =.=" somemore crap till 800 words when they only wanted like 300? heheh ^^"
the listening ah...aiyoh
mcq...personally i prefer subjective...easier to catch a point n u can write out
rather then look at 4 VERY CONFUSING answers...
all so close together...all correct also...
but u have to choose which is the best answer
sux...not enough time somemore...1 min nia...sigh~
overall...long n tiring day lah 8am to 1pm leh~ 5 hours
almost no rest...actually got 30 mins in between geh...
but they took 15 mins to dismiss us...n ask us to come back 15 mins earlier
so we practically had...30-15-15 = 0
no time! to rest /pift
aiyoh...i slept till now somemore >.<"
i was supposed to study!!!!!!!
monday got BIO ah~ it was my best subject
see lah...never study...from 19 drop to 18 to 17...
get B only i know T.T
study study~
Thursday, November 09, 2006
Screw Maths
Shucks...just screwed my maths~
sigh...i made it a point to sleep last night
Tried...yet again =.=" but to no avail...
flipped around for 1 hour...until i cant stand it le...listen to music to sleep again
but then when i finally got to sleep an hour later...
i woke up =.= at 4++ n couldnt sleep back again
i was like @@" wth...y suddenly wake up de T.T
oh well...i really couldnt sleep so i drove to college quite early
reached at 555am =X lolx
so it begun...n i flipped open the booklet
1st page...wow~ so easy ah?
2nd page...wahh~ so simple ah? =D
then flip flip somemore...ok ok lah
then flip to the back...sweat~ i dont understand
towards the end - DIE
man...this paper was TOUGH
i did all the past year papers...from 2003 to 2005
those papers were direct n simple...at most 1 or 2 questions that require us to think
but this year's paper ah~!! alot alot questions must think de
i look at the question n i just stared at it
*blink blink*
*shakes head...knocks head as well - read again!*
*blink blink*
CANNOT larh...i still dont get it
it's like i never read that type of question before...
must think alot...n yet no time
at the end of 1 hour i thought...wahh i m at the last question le...
2 hours more can slack =D
then i flipped back...shit =.=" so many blanks
took me 30 mins just to clear 1 part of a question leh
hard lah T.T i dont know how to do
the simple 1...those that carry 1 mark all dam simple
then those that i really cant answer ah~ 5 marks GONE just like that
sob...not only 1 lerh...around 4 questions...4x5=20 marks
not to count those i m uncertain about n those careless mistakes
damn...trials wasnt that tough...i was pretty confident i did okay...in the end? so low T.T
this 1 ah...so so so many times tougher...
DIE LAH
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
Hopeless!
omg omg omg~!!
I cannot believe myself...I seriously can't
I already have limited time to prepare for my Maths finals tmr...
n i totally wasted all the time away~!!
gosh...i sat for my Physics paper on tuesday...until 9am
n cuz i didnt sleep the whole night before...after physics i slept like a pig =X
until around 10pm bah...then woke up to watch my favourite House series =D
I WAS supposed to study...but wat happened?
grrrrr.....watch tv, chat online, download movies to watch...
until 4am bah...then in the end i went to sleep
but i twisted n turned in bed n yet i'm so fresh awake =.="
in the end at 6am i had to resort to listening slow songs to put me to sleep =P
my parents must be wondering wat the hell m i doing ah =.="
n u know wat time i woke up? NOW LAH~!!
pfft....slept for the whole day...havent even studied for maths
i die lahh...totally screw myself jor
maths is my worst subject...along with chemistry
sigh~
should i sleep tonight?
u know that's not a pretty good idea...
i need rest before facing exams....so i can focus...
last time i had a policy...no matter how late i studied til..
i need to get at least 1 hour of rest before i sit for exams
that's to freshen up my brain u see...
but on tuesday...that's soo not the case =.=
i slept in the afternoon...n i woke up at night to study...
oh...chatted online somemore!! stupid me /pift!
around 4am bah im supposed to sleep...but i cant >.<"
if i closed my eyes they just struggled to open...
too nervous i guess...cant sleep at all
my brain was full of physics terms!
then at 5++am i drove to college
such luck...my car is out of petrol =.= n i dont have money to pay
had to turn back n steal my mom's money =P
n then ah I was SOOOO BLUR when i reached there
my exam was until 1010am...
n i paid my parking fees till 924am...GEEZZ
it's worse once i sat for the exam
i was SO BLUR i couldnt concentrate
i had to read n read n read...n yet...i dont understand A THING
my god...that's probably my worst concentration ever sitting an exam!
n it's bad u know...cuz i have to press calculator buttons...loads of it...
sigh~
n believe me it's worse for maths...
if cannot concentrate...1 word for it = DIE
n look at me...i'm blogging instead of hitting the books
GRR~
u know i was planning on getting an A u know
but seeing how my average was low B's
it's a wonder if i can get A
great...just great...i totally screwed my maths...
Saturday, November 04, 2006
Study
This is what i face everyday: 
Sigh...that coffee on the table is a MUST
abor i nonit to even think of concentrating =.=
my biological clock seems to have turned upside down...
normally ppl wake up at like 8am...n go to sleep around 10pm?
as for me...i will only be truly wake after 8pm...
seriously hor...dam funny de leh
i wake up at 5pm everyday ><
n i'm still so tired n sleepy...
i would try to study...TRY...
but all i do is stare at the foreign words n yawn...n yawn...
nothing will register in my brain
i just look at the notes n keep yawning =.=
then i realize it's better to just give up lah...
no point also rite lol
until around 8pm...suddenly my mind will perk up by itself =D
then i will have the mood to study...
but i will watch tv =P n slack around until midnight only start studying >.<"
you see...morning for normal ppl is night for me...afternoon is midnight =P
n morning for me is when the sky turns dark... XD
wakakaka...better wat...peace n solace ^^ no disturbance
around the time when i hear the muslim prayers from nearby mosque then i will be in my bed XD
3 more days ah....3!!
can't believe...time passes so fast huh?
sigh~ study study study!
Thursday, November 02, 2006
Frustration
Stress has taken its toll on me T.T
5 hours of studying physics....
n i've only covered 1 chapter....1 miserable chapter T.T
out of wat...13?
now wednesday le lah!!! less than 1 more week is my physics finals
somemore ah...i very stress T.T
i'm like that when i put high expectations on myself
then i'll be darn stress n cant think straight!
n i'm getting mad cow disease
HAHAHAHAHAH~!!!!!
i siao ady lah =.="
stupid physics...
so far...my 1st test i got like C12...damn low le leh >.<"
then after that i subsequently get B14, B15 etc...
that's counted low leh >.<"
n then for trials luckily i studied n i was sooo lucky to get A17 just nice @@"
n now my lecturer gave me a forcast of A17
i dont think i can do it for finals T.T
waaaa...put so high hopes on me...wat if i dont get A wor
how? somemore my internal quite low le leh...B >.<"
i need to get A18 liddat for my finals so they can moderate up to A17 just nice
how??!! T.T
very stress...ahhh~!!
u know why?
I DID THS SAME FREAKIN QUESTION 4 TIMES
4!!!! from the starting of the year till now
keep doing the same ques n yet time n time again i forgot how to do
wat lah...why m i so dumb?
T.T