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It's been a very long time since i last touched RO...
but i still keep in touch with some of my very very early RO friends =)
although nowadays really seldom chat ady lolx
ermm...edc has gone a long way n evolved into....i dono wat guild now =P
there's this gathering they're having in genting now...
a bunch of the ppl i know from last time...n lotsa new ppl as well lol
well i met them at 1U today...those i know n a few others ^^
havent seen them for a year ady...kinda miss them lol
i feel so isolated there lerh...too out of touch from RO ady
i think i'm the only one not playing there >.<"
yet they didnt make me feel like an outsider ^^ that's the nice thing
even so i still had fun chatting with most of them larh
this year wasnt as err...quiet as last year...
maybe all gotten used to me ady =P
but i went alone lerh...mich was too shy xP
despite that she came at last n chat with them for a while larh =)
hmm...we ate...walked around...shopped...ate again @@"
i didnt do anything much...
except chatting with them n bringing them around ^^
but then hor...they kept pestering me to go genting!!!
cannot larh =.=" too late notice
n i dont feel like spending the night with strangers...
err i meant the other RO players they came with
from afternoon til before they board the cab to go back
'see u tmr ah! 10am'
'i dont care u must come tmr...'
=.="!
very mafan for me to go up larh...
anywayz...i m glad that i no longer play RO
it's just that i see that how RO affects our real lives as well
very very complicating lerh >.<"
i see the situation of some of my friends now also i feel headache for them
n i saw shadows of me from other ppl still playing lol...
n i'm happy to say that i grew out of it =P
for me...it's just a game...
there's no need to bring those problems into real life...
just be friends and be merry XD
sometimes...ppl just put too much into a game in hope that it will come true
i regret to say that i almost...lolx...was almost at that stage lah
but i did realize in time
err...that's not to say playing game isnt good lah
it's fun! if u know where to draw the line =P
*too much crap paiseh...ignore me*
tmr's the last day of 2006!!
n i'm in dilemma where to celebrate my new year's eve =.="
i wanna go 1U!! nicholas tse n gary chao will be there!!!! T.T
but then i wanna go genting as well =.=
at least there will be groups of friends in genting...
aiyohh...dont know larh >.<"
just in case....in advance...
Happy New Year 2007 ~!! ^^
Thursday, December 28, 2006
well...let's see how much i kept up to my resolutions throughout the year =P
flash back:
- To stop being so addicted to RO n msn anymore...well's that's pretty much settled XD
> hah! this 1 i need not worry =) i pretty much quit ro last year itself...n even though i did login a few times this year, the fun n excitement wasnt there anymore =.= quitted for good lolx...as for MSN...err...yeah...not that addicted larh...really seldom chat on msn >.<"
- To work hard n actually study for my SAM !!
> I was kinda off course in the middle of the year >.<" was bitten by the lazy bug lolx...but luckily towards the end of the year i kinda woke up n studied =) n i was contented with my results XD
- To see life in a different perspective and appreciate life n everything in it ^^ *this is gonna be hard ><"*
> umm...this is hard >.<" it kinda depends on my mood larh xP but overall, i really do see life in a different perspective now ^^ n i really appreciate life more...i've found something to encourage me to do things that i'm afraid of tho 'as long as it doesnt kill me, why not?'... in another words - won't die de lah, just do it =P i...kept up my promise to someone =)
- Not to cry for every little small thing that i imagined ><"
> lolx...it's in my genes to cry for every little small thing larh =P i even cried while watching a comedy in the cinema =.=" see! silently weep once in a while comforts me =) so i guess i wont be keeping up to this resolution =P
- Adjust my sleeping time...not sleep whenever i feel like sleeping =.=
> errrr...cannot larh...i'm a night owl...i only can study at night...so this is another 1 that wont be done =D
- ermmzz...not to jump to conclusions n simply imagine things that arent that way...
> well...i guess i learnt my lesson...n i won't =) it makes me a better person...i hope?
- to control my temper as well...think things from other perspective! n not to simply shout at ppl when im not in the mood ><"
> lolx...i guess im not that hot tempered anymore larh...won't simply shout at ppl anymore ^^ learnt this lesson as well lol...
- Clean my room more often!! my room is more messy than a typical guy's room =.=
> lolx this 1 no choice larh...when i study i will throw my books n notes everywhere =P but at least now it's spic n span XD too sien nothing to do =.= obsessed with cleaning my room lolx
- Organize my time =.=
> err...i guess i did achieve this when i studied for finals =D or not >.<" organizing is easy...it's just keeping up to ur schedule that's hard =.="
- Try to go out more with friends n not rejecting their invitations n dates all the time ><"
> err...too bad i didnt get any invitations or dates this year =P or i did but i kinda rejected most of it >.<" depends on the company larh...no offence >.<" just that at times i rather be alone...what to do? i'm a loner lolx
- yeah...1 more thing..Not to fall in love anymore...
> eheh...this one's pretty much done then...although still pretty much in last year's sadness but at least...i know it will be a long long time before i fall out of it =)
2006
As the year draws closer to an end, I can't help but to flash back bits n pieces of this year ^^
this year ain't as dramatic as 2005 lolx...
compared to the lots n lots of things i experienced then, 2006 is just like a simple sail through peaceful waters...
although...there are still some emotional roller coasters i've experienced
let's flash back =)
I started my year venturing in college life...Taylor's College to be exact
It wasn't really what I expected...prolly watched too much telly =P
despite that, it was to my liking...I find that college life suited me much much more than secondary school life...
n believe me, even though it was dull...it was one of the best study years of my life ^^
to get to study in a totally different environment after 10 long years of hot n stuffy classrooms, not to mention the ever disappearing teachers who doesnt give a damn...
college is totally different ^^ at least the lecturers cared...
n we're quite free as well XD if we look past all those assignments and quizzes and tests and exams and presentations and researchs and ... etc etc =P
quite fun being back in a co-ed environment...made some friends there as well...
friends that im sure will still meet once in a while to yumchar =)
but didnt really bond or socialize like most of my friends did
so my life pretty much revolved around my class only =X no after class life...
SAM was...seriously tough...but...i'm very very glad i managed to pull it through =)
there was a time when i wanted to quit...just like many of my friends...
at that time it seemed too much for my little brain to take...
so much researchs n assignments plus the homeworks n not to mention the tests!!
really taking my life away!!
no time to sleep...what more time for myself =.=
yet...after i passed that stage it was going smoothly for me ^^
luckily for me...i had no distractions when i was preparing for my finals this year...unlike last year =X
or perhaps i should say...there were distractions...
just that i didnt want my mind to wander off to him >.<"
because...exactly 1 year ago...it was the times when we were...together
so i was determined to immerse myself in books n notes n words as so to not think rubbish
my hard work paid off XD
i was really really thankful for what i achieved...
i didnt even dreamed of getting such high TER XD
well my internal kinda sux big time...so naturally i didnt put much hope >.<"
unless i did really really well in the final exam
which...i kinda did n it pulled up everything =P
very very grateful..at least...i lived up to one of my 2006 new year's resolutions XD
apart from college...i can kinda say that my life is dull @@"
wahh...i really just realized...there's really nothing else big enough
erm...didnt experience any heart-shattering emotional breakdowns like last year larh lolx...although...i'm still pretty much drowned in last year's heartbreak >.<"
skip that...aite?
besides that...errr....i was kinda dumb in letting someone made a fool of me
i still AM stupid u see...always do soooo many things for ppl who doesnt even care
learnt my lesson larh...all feedbacks were kinda the same when i poured out to a few
'he's an idiot...but u r a BIGGER IDIOT'
'wahh i wanna meet him lah...never seen a jerk like him before'
beats me...i really dont know why i did that
lol...luckily i wasnt that hurt...maybe cause i wasnt really in it
i kinda pulled out...err when i realized that my heart still belongs to that someone else
which...is another stupid thing i did throughout the year >.<"
why??! actually i didnt really wanna go into that...sigh
when i saw him it really brought back old memories...that really crushed my heart
but...seeing him happy...i'm glad =)
this time last year was the worst time of my life...it ended. 1228.
painful day...finally it ended
seems like...1 year after that i can finally not think so much =)
or...in another words...finally let go...as in...i wont do stupid things anymore larh ^^
yet i know...during times when i'm lonely...
he will creep back up from the deep corners of my heart lol
i guess...that's pretty much it
i'm still in shock realizing it's gonna be 2007 in a few days time @@"
well...cheers to 2006 ^^
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
Merry (belated) X'mas =P
Merry Christmas ^^
although...i'm abit late here =P
I didnt make it to the countdown on Xmas eve...
too jam to drive to KL >.<" abit lazy larh
n i kinda sent someone to Genting alone n ffk'ed him =P wakakaka...
although...he go up there to gamble de larh...so im not at fault =D
so I stayed at home...online, watch TV, read books... =.=" sien~
Xmas day...
lol i didnt want to rot at home...so do mich n takeshi
haha...so we went to 1U to catch a movie - Night At The Museum
very funny!! XD...quite touching also >.<"
dono wat's wrong with me lah...a tear or 2 escaped from my eye lolx
very worth watching XD although...very hard to watch from the 1st row =.=
i think hor...almost all the nice shows i watch ady larh...
too sien at home u see....1st or 2nd day sure watch de =P
of all the shows i think i enjoyed Night At The Museum most XD
we didnt do much there...played at arcade...walked around...
n we bought books from MPH...used the Gift Voucher i got from Taylor's XD
very syok lah...bought 2 books n i only need to pay rm20 keke ^^
still got 1 more to use...wee~
nowadays i buy too many books larh >.<" i think since holidays started i bought 5+ books ady @@"
too sien at home u see!! somemore at the rate i'm buying books my mom's kinda scared jor lol...
i can finish a book in 1 day n bug my mom to buy another 1 the next day kaka =P
ohh...i felt so insulted!!!!!!! lolx
this takeshi ah...i fetched him to Assunta Hospital...
n he puts on seatbelt when he's sitting behind...
i was like @@" wat r u doing? then he said my driving scary!!
wAAAaA~!!!!! SOB T.T pifpifpif
erm...dinner i went to eat with mich's family after that...
em hou yi si lah...nowadays always eat with them >.<"
it's 26 Dec today...
last year this day...something happened
yeah u guessed it right...him again >.<"
damn...why do i keep thinking about....
anywayz...so fast ah time passes!
i still remember when i was blogging bout end of 2005 in this blog
in the blink of an eye it's the end of 2006 already!!!
so fast!!
seriously very very fast lor...
n i dont know bout my future now!! HOW?!
i know alot of ppl kept saying to me that i sure can get in IMU
yeah =.= that's what they said before IMU rejected me u see
i mean...what if i dont get?....what if NUS rejected me also
Monash...well...cannot larh...dont have Biomedical Science =.="
they only have Medical Bioscience....stupid...wanna confuse ppl nia
it's different u see...
Medical Bioscience is a normal Bachelor of Science BSc.
Biomedical Science is Bachelor of Biomedical Science BBMed Sc.
if i take medical bioscience in monash i cannot continue to do the Masters i want >.<"
aiyohh....very farn larh...
how now?! i dont have a backup plan...shit
bahh...i'm gonna die!
Saturday, December 23, 2006
lonely X'mas...again
well bloggie...looks like i dont get to spend X'mas in Singapore
>.<"
sigh...it's gonna be another lonely christmas...yet again
i wonder if it's gonna be a repeat of last year
faint...i think i'm spending X'mas with the same ppl larh @@"
dont want >.<"
why do i not get to spend it with the person i want to last year...this year as well?
gosh...last year i waited until the last minute...
waited for his call...cuz no matter how many times i tried he wouldnt pick up
and yet until the very last minuted i knew i waited in vain
a short conversation less than 1 min left me in tears
yeah well...this year...
i dont know...really dont know wor >.<"
just wanna stay home and hug my bolster xP
anyway...today i didnt wanna wake up in the morning for to go college >.<"
the ceremony was supposed to start at 9...n i woke up around 840 lolx
too tired lah...was up till 3 watching korean drama XD
was happy to see Girl, Gopi n Su Ee there ^^ miss them lah lol
talked with Gopi while waiting for the thing to start at 10 =.=
and i was shocked! Gopi's english was like a different standard from the rest of us...
i always read in awe all of his essays...n he told me that he practised writing a few essays before the exam
yet he got only a 17! @@" of all subjects...17 for ESL >.<"
i expected a 20 or 19 from him lerh...all of us do
wasted larh >.<"
n to tell him that i didnt prepare for the exam n yet got higher than him was like >.<"
i think i made him quite sad after that...sorry sorry
umm...the ceremony was...okay lah
so many smart ppl lah...all going aussie uni...if not than is IMU...
sob lah...then how m i gonna get a place next year?
quite proud of our year XD we broke all the records lol
just hope next year they dont do better than us =P
anywayz...nobody was taking my picture...my mom dono how to use hp =.=
n after i shook hand n took the thingy...we were standing n posing there for dono how long
lolx...wanna laugh ady lah...stand there nobody take then i wanted to go away as fast as possible lah...
but i got a rm100 MPH voucher...WEeeeEe~!!
goodie...can buy all the storybooks i want ady...XD
saw Miss Kwa n chatted with her...n hugged her too lolx...gonna miss her >.<"
after that...went to IMU
gave my real results...chatted with someone from the admissions office for a while lol
i was right! lol...
she said they rank the results...see whose better than take who
if a few ppl r having the same results only they will see whose interview better =.=
cheh...that's why lah...she somemore said 'some ppl not successful cuz their forecast not that good'
refering to me lah...pif
too competitive ady i guess >.<"
had to pay rm5 parking ticket for a mere 20 mins...sheesh
and then ermm...
went to his house to take headset >.<"
no biggie lah...take ady say bye then turn n walk away
sigh~
i dont know why is it such a coincidence
every memorable day i will see him...
nature wanna inflict pain on me arh?!!
last year's pain not enough izit...why wanna let me see him this year somemore
n it's on those sad sad meaningful days
1123...1223
dumbo ny
i'm tired...i dont wanna go on...
3rd attempt =.="
Lazy to retype the 2 posts i lost larh =.=
in summary...
shopped at Times Square...the boutiques too LaLa @@"
eye sore lah...give me headaches ny...i dont wanna shop there anymore =.=
i got lost in Klang =.= cant believe it
i can drive around kl n ampang n subang with no probs but i got lost in my place of birth >.<"
went to Taylor's to collect my results
happy with what i achieved this year ^^
got awards presentation ceremony tmr lol...didnt think i could make it this far
watched The Curse of The Golden Flower...
not so much the movie that was nice...it's more of the ermm...background?
as in...i like to see how the director manage to direct this massive undertaking
fun lah...to watch how they construct everything @@" nice props lol
p/s: Jay was cute =P but the voice not his larh /pif
hand itchy...kept doing things i'm not supposed to do
i wanna faster return his hp...so i can put this misery to an end!
else i'm just gonna stare at his pics with her everyday n weep
but why? i want to move on...i dont wanna drag on n on...it hurts...alot
ermm...supposed to go Singapore to celebrate X'mas geh
really wanna go >.<" cant stand it at home anymore...
dont wanna torture myself by thinking of things
but Johor is err currently flooded now...so train service abit disrupted
plus...my stupid bro dont wanna go
wanna stay home sms gf whole day...PIF damn pissed off with him
then if he doesnt go we cant go u see...
sigh...looks like i'm not going there
and ermm...i dont know which Uni to go now
i dont wanna stay in m'sia...i wanna go overseas
sigh...if only i have the $$...
i've been thinking...dono wanna continue with those related with Bio anot
kinda wanna do Aerospace engineering =P or maybe Astronomy...wakakaka
was kinda sad this few days...especially after hearing sad songs >.<"
but then...i'm currently listening to BSB's Black&Blue XD
really cheered me up ^^
damn...just realized it's 12/23 today...sad sad memories 1 year ago...
that day was one of the worst days of my life...cannot even bear to flash back what i been through that day
i waited so long...hope to see him...n he just...left me there after i gave him
aisk...it's gonna be a roller coaster ride from this day onwards
xmas is gonna be torturing for me...
last year was pure hell...hoped so much and yet...sigh
stupid blogger
eesh...posted 2 posts...
but got prob both lost le!
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
SAM results
hehe....
after 2 super long, nerve-wrecking, nail-biting hours
i got my results at last~!
so sian ah...waiting for the page to load
i almost almost gave up le...
well i targeted for TER 90....but i hope i can get 95 >.<"
n boy...i couldnt believe my eyes when the page loaded
i was utterly shocked!
partly because the page loaded lah lol after 2 hours...
so quite surprised that i can get through at last
i got...
98.25
XD
i kept blinking n staring at the monitor =P
couldnt contain my happiness lol XD
didnt expect to get so high...keke ^^
well i got
A19 for biology...good enough lah XD even though i screwed my essay
A18 for english...hmm...expected? lol
A18 for physics...lol i kinda expected 17...happie happie
A18 for chemisty...this 1 im ecstatic XD i didnt get A for chem before...the best i hoped for was 17 only...weee~
A17 for maths...yeah well...good enough le lah XD considering how bad i did
wakakaka...go out celebrate ady
phew....huge huge burden lifted off me
now it's time to enjoy XD
then only worry bout uni applications =P
Nerve-wrecking moment of truth
sweat lah...
my SAM results r OUT already
but then...too lag lahh!!
too many ppl logging on in the whole world right now
cannot get in!!!
sheesh....
cannot lerhh...how can like that?!
keep in 'Cannot find server'
nervous nervous >.<"
should have woke up earlier at 5am to check /pif
aiyer...........
Monday, December 18, 2006
Bleak future
yeah well, it came as no surprise that IMU rejected me
lol funny that i had a dream that i will not be offered a place before i got the letter
n the postman's sound woke me up from the dream
once i see that small piece of letter i didnt wanna take it! T.T
sigh...they wanted TER 95
i dont know i can achieve that or not...quite high >.<"
n my SAM results r coming out this week @@"
well...i cannot take more disappointments
but then...these obstacles and failures really made me think
do i really want to study medicine?
or is it because of other reasons?
i'm quite certain that my decision when i applied to IMU was err...blurred by other reasons
now that the mist is cleared i suppose...
my brain is errr...more capable of making the right decisions?
still...a part of me was prepared to be sacrificed for the tough tough life of a medical student
it's a good thing u know...
i dont wanna think bout other problems...
studying 24/7 might be a good option to forget bout other things
but then...too bad i'm not good enough =(
well...i'm still waiting for NUS...that 1 need to wait quite long
but i wasnt good enough for IMU...what more NUS? @@"
Monash next...that 1...should be can bah? =X
but i dont really wanna go Monash...
i dont know =(
sigh...
should be not bad bah...
aiyer...i dont know what to do le larh...
everytime i'm back home i'm super sad
at least in my sis's house i was bz taking care of my nieces
have no time of my own...by the time they fall asleep i m tired n sleepy too =.="
now that i'm at home...
boring. rotting. depressing.
Sunday, December 17, 2006
.
The more i hope for something...the more i would get disappointed
and yet the opposite thing always happens
why?!
Seriously i already made up my mind not to think about it anymore
after that heartbreaking day i thought it would be the last
and then i had to see him again =.=" sigh
again i thought it would be the very last time
cuz this time...it really really hurts...no words to describe those painful moments
hearing how he talked to her on the phone
god i dont wanna elaborate...
from the moment he said 'hello' i knew it was her
u know how dumb is it to listen to the conversation?
not so much the conversation that hurts...it's the tone of his voice talking to her
i didnt have the urge to look at him...i kept looking at michelle =.=" n trying to hold back my tears
i wanted to stand in the heavy rain...or even just get out of his car n jump onto the oncoming traffic and just die there...sigh
fine i thought...i wont ever ever meet him in any circumstances again
that was simple...seeing our paths dont cross...
n IMU rejected me...
so i dont have any reason to see him again
suddenly he said he wanna exchange phones...faint~
oh i wanted to do that...but that was before i found out he has her
i dont wanna give myself another reason to see him
i dont...it hurts enough already
and yet...sigh...
i feel funny...using something that belongs to him
although it breaks my heart seeing all those pictures of him n her in the phone
*yes i am dumb i know*
there's this feeling in my heart holding the phone
a part of me couldnt believe i was using something of his...
his possession...
but a part of me couldnt wait to exchange back so i can quickly get over it
sigh...
i ought to kill myself...
it's supposed to be the last time...why did things happen??!
why not just let me go away silently this time...without hurting much
why let me suffer more? just let me leave in peace...
just hope this will be the last
please...i dont wanna hurt myself anymore
i just want to let it remain where it's supposed to be...
that deep corner...
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
I never wanna have many children =.="
I got back from my sis's house yesterday
yet I'm too tired to do anything after that i just slept lolx
cannot tahan larh...
Saturday till Monday - 3 days...
n i KO le...
3 nieces...hyperactive ones...somemore the maid not there
i must at least take care of 2 at any time...
then they kept pulling me...jumping at me...argueing for toys
dont know where they get the energy from...
morning wake up at 7am...at 10pm still can jump around
by afternoon i was tired like hell ady arhhh
n then hor...the worst part was going out with them lol
cuz my sis will be carrying the youngest baby...
then the middle 1...around 3 years old...very heavy
she just woke up from her sleep n kept bugging me 'ah yee baobao!!' >.<"
imagine carrying a child around 1U!!
somemore that time both of them hold my hand n walk around while my sis was no where in sight
sooo many ppl looked at me as if i'm a young mom ok =.="
n ohh...1st time i wiped someone's ass n felt shit @@"
taking care of kids is never easy...i really dont wanna get so many le
my sis was laughing at me...she can carry 1 daughter with 1 hand ler...
that time both crying...carry n tam both @@"
somemore wanna have more kids...lol lucky my bro in law dont let her jeh
but then hor...when i came back
that night itself i cried...
it was terrible...i didnt cry that hard since quite some time le...
i just cant stand it...
it's like nobody cares about me...
i know lots of my friends r having problems...n i dont mind a bit consoling them...
in fact...i felt happy i can listen to their probs n talk to them
n i feel contented when they said talking to me made them feel better
but the thing was...i really really hate it when someone said
'i dont want her to be like u'
*indirectly saying im a slut lor*
'she needs someone now...if can go her house find her ok?'
wahseh...i was in rawang...expect me to fly to shah alam to find her izit
'remember to take care of her n call her when she needs someone'
what about me?!!
I WAS FEELING DEPRESSED TOO...
when i told him about my problems...he didnt even listened n kept talking on bout his problems
did anyone ever think that maybe i was in a worst situation than them
n i need them to listen too?
never listen nevermind...nonit to insult me geh
i was soo hurt...even more hurt when they treated me like shit
i'm a wat wor...they need help just ask for my help
i m sad then ignore me...insult me somemore
sigh~
maybe...really nobody cares about me
just using me when they need me only
i thought they were my friends
if it werent for the promise i made to someone...that i will live happily no matter what happened...
i think i would give up...
today went to 1U...shopped quite long...
didnt buy much lah....a few things on sale
YET i spent more on foods n drinks !! sweat lah~!
i saved so much on the shirt i bought...yet i spent soo much on other things
sheesh...nx time dowan to eat le lah...
so sim tia >.<"
n i think...i dont wanna stay home anymore
i'll go to my sis's house again on thursday
lol...dont wanna face comp
too saddening...
at least if i keep myself busy it will refrain me from thinking stupid stuffs
Friday, December 08, 2006
And so it didnt go smoothly...
LoL...
not going for the job...
friends not going...so I didnt go lorh...
even though i was looking forward to it >.<" especially the $$ that comes with it
sigh~
no biggie...at least i get to stay home n wait for my results
n i get to slack around my house
also go to singapore to celebrate x'mas
i hope?
ahh well...i still won't be home during the weekends
gotta go to my sis's house to keep her company
after that...aisk~
kinda disappointed though
planned n arranged so much for the job
ask around n asking ppl's favour...grateful of the opportunity
in the end cancel le =.="
now i dont know how m i gonna get back from her house also @@"
Rawang...so far away...
hmmz...see how larhz...who can fetch me back then tumpang their car =D
x'mas is around the corner
this year wont be as sad as last year bah
last year really >.<" painful painful memories
hoping n waiting so much...
he promised...confirmed he will go...
in the end i was still alone...with my tears
gahh!!! shouldnt think le lah...
stupid me...
this year...maybe i should escape the misery n fly to singapore
err...more of travelling long hours in the stupid train =.="
didnt spend xmas there before...hopefully everything goes well lah
well...had some much needed catch-up with my cousin...
talked quite alot of heart-to-heart probs lolx...
quite comforting to know that someone's in the same boat with me
n surprisingly her sister too lol
imagine 3 gurls in the car
all 'haiz...why like that 1?'
funny though lol...we came up with an unspoken conclusion - why is love problems so complicated?
ahh...guess i'd better be packing~ =)
Thursday, December 07, 2006
Away from home
Never thought i would be this busy during December =.="
time passes quite fast bah?
oh...today's only 7th Dec...paiseh...time passes so slow T.T
well my cousins gone back to singapore today >.<"
not that i miss them...but they stayed with us for 2 weeks ady...
feel abit not used to it cuz nonit to fetch them around anymore lol
n yesterday was their last night here...
n err coincidently i was in a depressing state after someone fetched me back >.<"
til there was some change in the way i talk =.="
as in i talk slower n gentler n err funnier? n more patience bah
maybe cuz i was thinking bout other things n my heart wasnt there whilst talking to them
so my cousin was like 'are u tired?'
'no...why?'
'u talk funny today'
even my mom n bro noticed n laughed bout it
n when i was with him n another friend before that
i was soo depressed that i totally lost my appetite to eat
n i ate chilli padi!! lol...i just took it 1 by 1 n ate it raw
surprisingly...i dont feel the spicyness at all...
it was nothing compared to the pain in my heart
sigh...sad sad day...dont wanna think bout it okie?
maybe i should just...forget
but how can i?
anyway...i'll be going shopping tomorrow with michelle XD
long time never shop with her le...it's gonna be so fun!
just hope that's enough to make me forget what happened yesterday >.<"
n then i'm off to my sis's house on saturday...
long time never go there le...too busy lol...
grow up ady prefer to do other things than staying there babysitting my hyperactive nieces=P
still i'll just go there n keep her company while my bro in law goes away
n urmm if everything goes smoothly i might need to work lolx
i need the $$$ u see...n i'm kinda sien during holidays...
although sacrifice 2 weeks of dec for work is kinda @@"
but still...i need the $$$ =P
so i'll be staying at my bro's place
which err...is near...
nvm...
the worst part is...i wont be home when IMU results n SAM results r out!
SOB T.T
IMU results r due next week...n i wont be home the whole week
n they send by mail!!
howwwww?! i wanna open the letter myself lah
liddat more nerve-wrecking lerh...everyday wait for call from home see if they get any letters
wat if i dont get in? T.T
SAM results r going to be out the week b4 xmas...n i wont be home still
well that 1 check online...but still >.<"
sigh~ turning point of my life?
yeah well...meaning i wont be online for 2 weeks at least
maybe 3 if i'm going singapore the week after that lol
i wont miss coming online
in fact i dont wanna come online at all
too sad for me
well...lets hope with so many things to occupy my time
i wont have any time at all to think bout those sad things
一年后
一年后
Brown Eyes
过几天会好些
这么想着过了一年
每一个跟你一起过的纪念日
总是困扰着我
第一次爱情告白时的羞怯
和我们第一次见面日也过去
你生日那天我们一起庆祝
你含着眼泪吹灭蜡烛
I believe in you
I believe in your mind
虽已过了一年
一年后
再过一年后
我也依然等你
没能说出“想你，回来吧”
因为看着你温柔的眼神和左手上带的戒指
I believe in you
I believe in your mind
知道你已从新开始
知道你已开始编织没有我的回忆
我的回忆只有过去的欢笑和话语和等待
还有以后编织的唯一回忆也是我的等待和眼泪中的你
很痛苦 为什么我为了要见他而不顾一切 知道真相后 我的心简直被撕裂 看着他那么开心地说着她 脑袋一片空白 我真想那一刻消失在这世界 好想念他 可是我应该祝福他 忍着痛 我该答应自己不要再期望 但我知道 心中那地位永远属于他