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Today was fun. lol =D
oh...but the fun part was later u see...
in the morning i attended lectures as usual...
n in the afternoon i had this guided Medical Museum Session by a lecturer...
well...i thought...
just go inside the museum n listen to him describe the models only wat...rite?
boy...was i wrong =X
when we went in he was sitting down in front of a table filled with models waiting for us
n he started with the human skeleton...
there was about er...30+ of us i think?
and then the nightmare begun...
'can someone name me wat type of bone is this?'
'why is it called a long bone? why is that bone shorter than this bone but still called a long bone?'
oh boy...i thought...n it's getting worse!!
'why is the sternum a flat bone?'
because it's flat?
'no...there must be a reason it's called a flat bone'
BECAUSE IT'S FLAT LAH!!!
well actually none of us answered...we just sort of thought that in our heads =X
nobody dared >.<"
'wat type of joint is this...u here...come...answer me'
then this girl went forward n tried to answer...
she started with...
'i think...'
'u think? there's no thinking in medicine...if u wanna think then u better think over whether this is the right choice for u...maybe u shouldnt be a doctor...wat kind of student are u? not prepared at all...u should at least know... bla bla bla'
shoot....we were all like...shit >.<" we r soo dead~
we kept giving each other the 'we-are-so-dead' look haha...
even my cousin kept saying
'i wanna go now lah...lets cabut can anot'
n as u very well know...im super lazy
so....i dont know anything at all!!!!! darn...
n seeing other ppl answering those questions soo smoothly...
sei lor...im sooo dead =X
it went on for an hour or so with my heart pumping very fast...
n praying very hard that i will not get chosen by him...
sigh...if he were to chose me...im very sure that he will scold me much worse than how he scolded the girl just now
maybe he will say something like...
'u shouldnt be a doctor...u r not qualified to be one...not prepared like this'
'yah...maybe i shouldnt...ok fine! I QUIT NOW! good BYE!'
LOL........
i seriously thought of that =P
an hour passed...n phew....i faster walked out ah...beh tahan ady T.T
in the afternoon i went to meet my secondary school friend...
lol...imu's having interview for the next batch u see...
so erm...i went to tell her wat to prepare for interview...
or more precisely...
'aiyah! nonit to prepare anything de lah...heck care'
LOL i'm evil =P but it's true wat....it's not important anyway =.=
well...we were sitting there talking...
then my orientation group friends were outside...
some of them didnt know that i was with my friend
n this guy asked me wat was i doing there...
n my other friends being so....playful!
they were like 'oh...her results not so good lah...so need to attend interview again'
!!!! sweat~ i looked at them like @@"
they just gave me the evil smile =.=
n then i was like
'yayaya....very sad lah...they ask me to go interview again =('
this guy actually believed lerh!!!!! after they went away laughing...
he passed by again n said 'eh? ur turn havent ah? still waiting? good luck!!'
=.=...
i thought i was being bad ady...mana tau
this other guy from my batch came in with a girl...
so i thought he was accompanying his friend...like me...
n then i saw him reading the imu prospectus while trying to memorize something
n talking bout the interview thing with the girl...saying he was scared...
sweat...i was thinking...how come?
takkan it's like wat i said ah? he need to attend interview again...
cannot be rite? i just saw him this morning in lecture =.=
n then suddenly 1 whole bunch of ppl from my batch came in n they were like...
'hi...u came for interview rite? i'm s...'
'oh...hi...im ch...nice to meet u'
'nonit to scared 1 lah...they gona ask bla bla bla'
i was like...HARH?!?!
i thought they all knew each other???!!!
gosh...they know how to act man...
seriously =.=!!
n when they went out...this guy wouldnt give up still!
'err...wat's ur name again ah? c....ch rite? bye...n good luck yea'
'yaya...thx'
i looked at them like @@"
even though i dont know them lah...but still they know we're same batch =.=
n he wanted to laugh n wanted to bou chuen but then he continued to act on lol
then my housemate went up to him n ask
'eh wat r u all doing ah?'
'har? waiting for interview lah...'
'oh...yes arh? good luck worrrr....sheesh =.= u all hor'
aiyoh....i kept laughing there sia...
no matter how hard we tried they still put that act on =.=
until in the end that s came in...
n i was like
'eh...u all damn free hor =.='
'lol...fun mar...u lah! if u're not here we can fool ur friend also leh...i was thinking how come u looked so familiar'
seriously too free lah they all...
i kerlian the ppl!!!! kena cheat until...u know wat he said to the innocent victims?
'ehh they gona ask from this prospectus lah...u better memorize it!'
n the nx second i saw the REAL girl who came for interview sitting down concentrating hard on her copy of the prospectus....
n somemore 'they gona describe to u the signs n symptoms of so n so...n they will ask u wat kind of disease is it'
wahseh...i seriously pity the soon-to-be juniors =.=
they somemore took video of it!
yeah well...so that was kinda it...
lol...fun eh?
tmr i'm gona start working =(
i cannot go back home T.T
i miss my bolster!! sob...
=X
erm...for the past few days i restricted access to this blog...
why u ask?
i don't know...
i just feel like...it
nvm >.<"
lol~
sorry to some ppl >.<"
i guess i'll set back as public access =)
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
unhappy...
bloggie...
i dont know what's wrong with me
i really dont...
i've been feeling very very down lately
depressed...like im at the bottom of the pit
i feel as if...there's a dementor lurking in my shadows...
sucking out happiness from me...
making everything feel so...
cold...dark...heartless...hopeless...
it's like...i'll never be happy again...
it's been a long long time since i felt like this
that i'm totally clueless on why im feeling this way
i dont know what caused this...
i have totally no idea...
i just feel...sad...
nothing i can think of can cheer me up
n nobody i talk to is able to do so...
in fact they only irritate me more
that's y i'm best away from everyone...
i miss my bolster...
haih
Thursday, April 19, 2007
piggie me T.T
Seriously...my biological clock is screwed...
seriously!!
i didnt attend lecture yesterday >.<"
cuz i couldnt sleep the night b4...only slept at like 5?
n couldnt really wake up at 7 >.<"
too tired...
then i slept till 5pm!! 12 hours!!
eeshh...
then i couldnt bear being at home so i went to uni to watch movie in the evening lolx =P
they showed The Guardian...
i wanted to watch this movie when it came out in cinemas...
but didnt get the chance =(
n now i can watch again...wee~
it was every bit as nice as i expected =)
from the moment i set eyes on the trailer i knew this is gonna be a touching show...
n it didnt disappoint me ^^
seeing them saves lives like that...
willing to sacrifice themselves for others...
really really heroic...
some parts in the training school r funny!! =D
but the ending really T.T
he sacrificed himself *sob*
how great can a person be?
i really couldnt help but cry >.<"
really xia sui leh!!!!!!!!! aiyer...
but that's me wat =.=
PIFT....im touched cannot ah?!
that shows that im human n have emotions ok?
n oh...there's an alternative ending on the dvd...
where the guy didnt die...they managed to pull them both up
which was....er....sad to say...lame lah =.=
still the original ending more touching =)
oh...back to the piggie topic....
u know what...seeing that i woke up at like 5
normally i would last till around 3-4am only the sleepiness kicks in
but i slept! at 11pm!!!
wth rite?!!
the whole day i'm only awake to watch movie then go back to sleep again!
omg.......really piggy lah!
but i woke up at 3am just now n knew that i couldnt sleep back
i was wide wide awake...cannot sleep too long lah =.=
im screwed...it's gonna repeat tmr =.=
aiyoh...
n u know what? i dont even bother studying anymore
i give up!
aih~
wat to do till 8am lerh?
3 hours more...tick tock...
Monday, April 16, 2007
oh well...
bloggie...
umm... i don't know how to start...
these few months in medical school really opened my eyes...
maybe it's not what my heart truly desires afterall...
or maybe it is?
i dont wanna talk myself out of it...
for fear of making the wrong decisions which could affect my future =.=
yet part of me knows that i want to be here...that i want to continue on
that maybe the stress im feeling is normal...
maybe i'm too stressed up that i trick myself into believing i cant do this
yet...
when i found out that i wasnt shortlisted for medicine in NUS this afternoon
although...i was disappointed...
i kinda...well...expected it...
maybe...i'm just not good enough...
but still...it's prolly very very competitive as there's only 1 miserable medical school in sg =.=
i was disappointed...naturally
not because i couldnt get in...
cuz i know the possibility of them taking me in is like...zero
it's because i need proof that i'm not that poor in studies >.<"
i was thinking maybe i could go attend interviews n stuffs
getting kicked out after the interview's better lol
i guess i just think too much...
but...wat if...
wat if they deem that i'm also not good enough for their life sciences?
n in the end...i'll get an even bigger disappointment?
i dont know...i've been suffering so much lately here that...
that i'm beginning to wish i was there instead...
i'm not paying attention in lectures...i dont revise
n i certainly dont study everyday for hours like most of my batchmates >.<"
my minds kinda fixed on getting outta here...
sigh~
does it matter?
it's just 2 different paths in the way of life...
the path i choose will determine my future
n i would never have found out if the path not taken by me will yield better results
but...who cares?
as long as i'm happy rite? =)
just 2 different ways of achieving it...izit?
lolx...dono wth m i crapping =X
well...my apologies for the following but...
i feel that i have a need to clarify things abit...
seriously...if u think u know how i feel by reading my post
screw it ok?
u DONT understand me at all...
n i never go about writing every lil tiny weeny details here
n most of the 'intimate' posts...i dont reveal much
so whatever u might think...it might not be what i'm really feeling at the moment ok?
so dont act like u know me
n try to TALK me into believing what i'm really feeling...
that u know me better than i do just by reading this
u dont...believe me...u seriously dont...
the posts r just my diary...
it only makes sense to me...n it's supposed to make sense only to me
anyhoo...i sighted a UFO in the sky!
maybe there's something wrong with my eyes
dont know what's that >.<"
looks like a ufo though...but it's static lol
cant be buildings cuz the shape's really odd...n really really big
n it's higher than twin towers...
eeeeeeee....
im going mad
better chao 1st ~
=)
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
thoughts...
Dear bloggie,
it's been a while =)
not that i've been bz >.<"
in fact...i'm bored till death here!!
but i have nothing to blog...
dull, dull life u see...lol
so far it's still 2 lectures a day n that's it
i'll go back home n sleep till night falls...
then i'll start reading storybook till wee hours in the morning >.<"
im on my 3rd book this week =X
really book addict lah me...
why oh why m i not addicted to the books im supposed to study? =.="
read those irrelevant stuffs... *shakes head*
ppl all around me reading Marieb n studying notes n i'm reading chic lit!!gosh...i'm so so lazy...
u know these few days i've been thinking bout stuffs
stuffs... u know? stuffs...
lolx... =P
i'm beginning to think that i might be...well...unattached...for life >.<"
not that i want someone...
it's just that seeing ppl holding hands...cuddling up...really made me @@"
i admit lah...it does make one feels lonely...
really wat...most single ppl will feel that way too...
humans have needs lol...
as in the need for someone to care for them lah!!
dont simply think! /pif
but dont get me wrong...
i'm contented the way i m now...
as in...i'm fine being alone...
dont think there's more room in my heart for more disappointments...
moreover...i dont think i will fall for anyone anytime soon...or...for a long long time to come lol...
it's just...a hunch...
i know when i'm unwanted...i understand that perfectly well
so i will just disappear from those ppl's lives...
n it's been a real eye opener to see what's underneath the mask that fits so snugly on their faces
now i know...n it's a sad thing u know...
that most of them r like that
why r they like that?
seeing them like that really made me feel disgusted...
dont they care for other ppl's feelings?
just play around n ...
bah...maybe for some ppl it's alright...no emotional attachment n all
but not for me...maybe im conservative...
forgive me for wanting sincerity...security...
m i living in my fantasy?
looks like it lol...thats y im better off alone =)
>.<" crap too much~
Thursday, April 05, 2007
Internet deprived
Bloggie!!!!
it's been a long long time since i last blogged...!!
maybe nobody missed me lah...
but i feel weird not to blog anything for few days u see =(
since i returned to Vista this monday i couldnt online...
cuz my bro's jaring account suspended...sob T.T
well...not that it makes much of a difference oso lah =.="
but still i get to sign in msn n blog on my bro's comp mar
well...this apartment's sooo sooo dysfunctional...SERIOUSLY!!!
since monday i've been trying to fix things or clean the house bit by bit
i was so devastated i couldnt online that i locked myself in my room reading harry potter for 2 days straight =P
lucky for me i brought the order of the phoenix here with me XD
anyway...the apartment's really breaking down till i really dont feel comfortable staying here >.<"
1st 1st the bathroom keep flooding!!
even before i moved in when i was cleaning up my room it flooded so badly!
n my mom tried to push all the water down but it's still stuck!
my bro said the pipe was too small down there that's y
n then it got worse but my bro said it's cuz of my hair stuck'in up
so everytime after i bathe it will flood
n all the DISGUSTING worms will flood out of the drain !!!!! @@"
SUPER DUPER EWW~!!
seeing all those little black things swimming around >.<"
dont really dare to take bath there anymore
it's unusual u know...cuz i just pour a cup of water down the pipe it will flood...
cannot be cuz of a few strains of hair rite? =.=
but usually once i use some metal thingy to knock abit it will subside after like...1 day? =.=
until it got really really bad that it didnt subside for 2 days like that
we had to call the plumber!! /pif...
in the end the old uncle stick his hand down the drain...YUCKS!!
n pulled out some soap box thingy =.=
CHEY.....that's y lah.....
n after that we cleaned the bathroom till it's spankling clean =)
SOOO nice to bathe there now...i can indulge under the cooling waters for as long as i want XD
nonit to hurry or worry that it will flood n the icky worms will crawl to my feet =X
n then the fridge is not working
so cooking is a no-no for me...can even keep my chocolates! T.T
but i'll leave the fridge bit out 1st lah...until next week
so far cannot find ppl to fix >.<"
n then i blew a fuse...AGAIN!
what's wrong ah...?
we already blew like...3 fuses?
1 toaster n 2 kettle...
n then i blew the fuse of the extension thingy
n i didnt even realize it!!
when i was cooking my usual maggi for dinner 1 day i could smell the fuse burning
but then i couldnt see anything burning...so i continued cooking n left it ><"
the nx day i was cooking maggi again =.=" n this time the smell got really really bad
n then only i realized!!! it was burnt sooo badly till the plastic melted as well
n we couldnt plug the thing out!!!!!
up till an extend that we broke the whole thing...n left that point there =.=
aihz...now i'm soo paranoid while using the electricity point in the kitchen ady
keep sniffing the plug =.= like some siao po liddat =X
ohh...as if those probs r not causing me enough headaches...
i couldnt use the internet!!
ah well...in the end i went to Jaring office in TPM to pay
but then it was sooo secluded n inside =.=
we had to like round n round n round for 30 mins in tpm alone...
at last must ask a few ppl for directions!! grr....
even after i paid i couldnt surf the net!!
using my laptop lah...no prob using my bro's laptop...
i called them n they said it's just plug-n-play...nonit to install anything or settings
but i tried n tried for 2 hours + yet still cannot!!!
called them 3 times...wasted rm10...
n all they told me was bull... =X totally irrelevant!!!
SHEESH...
in the end still he solved the prob for me
really must thank him =) i was soooooo relieved after that...
but it's not over...oh no...
i had to configure the router so all of us get to use...
but i cant! then i gave up! T.T
but before i tried to sleep i told myself to try again...
n tinker here tinker there...then i succeeded!!!! =D
still... =.="
although i'm paying like rm124 a month for 1mpbs...
the speed im getting is like max...seriously MAXIMUM 300kbps
after using router n split to 2 comps i check the speed...
it's like 20kbps *dot dot dot*
wat the...
it's even slower than a dial up modem lah!!!!!!!
how to surf net liddat?!
aiyoh...n i havent been studying
really really really L-A-Z-Y of me *shakes head*
so lazy...where can qualify for med school wor...
die lohh...
oops...too long le =X
guess too much to rant bout having been cut off the internet world for so long =D
ta' for now