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Bloggie!
u know wat i would say bout the movie Transformers?
this is the awesomest, nicest, most exciting, most exhilirating, coolest, yeng-est, syok-est....(n insert any other words u can think of here) movie i've watched ever!
initially i thought it was gonna be a normal movie...
as in...a normal nice movie that i would enjoy...
that wont have any lasting impression on me...
i knew it was gonna be nice...
oh boy was i wrong....
it was not merely nice
it was like....the BEST ever!
definately kick pirates, LOTR, harry potter, n other nice show's butt =P
it put all my previous reviews of other movies in this blog to shame ya know
u know...i didnt even have a liking for robots
n all the err...robot models n shows n stuffs...
not really my type
but this movie....
i savour every minute every second of it...
didnt even wanna get my eyes off the screen for fear i will miss even a small bit
i was hoping to sit there n watch that movie forever haha...
ok...those who havent watch...
dont continue reading ok?
seriously....im soo gona spoil ur show
go watch it 1st!!
cuz im gona rant all i want bout the show =P
STOPPPPP!! go n watch 1st lahh~
seriously it worths every cent of ur money...
heck...i even wanna watch 2nd time!
haha =P
n my rating for the movie...definately 10 out of 10 XD
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i think nobody would be able to stand me if i were to like rant all i want bout this show...
haha...bloggie's my kerlian victim
but heck! =D
from the very first scene i thought...
oh wow....damn cool...
i have a liking for US military haha...
ehh...really very cool working for them u know
seeing how they coordinate..how they communicate
how the whole system works...
their computer's like way way more advanced than ours...
how they fly those fighter pilots n how they fire missiles
i really do hope i can work for them sia =P
like...way cool...
n the 1st scene of them fighting that err...chopper robot in Qatar...
i was like on the edge of my seat squinting at the screen
n worrying for those ppl already @@"
at that time i thought...oh boy...this movie's gonna be good i can tell =D
but i would have never guess how it will progress...
even more so the ending...
i'm lost for words u know...
there's like no way i can describe every scene n how i felt bout it here =X
i'll try... >.<"
those Autobots!! i lurvvee them!!!
eeeee.....so chun sia...
n oh...the way they disguise as cool sports car...
lolx...very cool seeing them work together with humans...
haha...the part where all the robots gather together n spoke to sam...
it was like...oh wow... @@"
even the cinema was applauding XD
n they r so sweet!!
fight against their own kind to protect us humans! T.T
n n...the graphics!! the special effects...
oh wow...really...
seeing the robots fight n all really keeps my adrenaline pumping throughout the whole scene...
n how the F22 fly around n fire megatron also!!
it's a wonder how they produce movies as cool as this...
another things the plot of the movie...
intriguing personified...definately!
ahh....at times i just wanna shout at the screen telling them
'Sam!!! tell them bout the good autobots!!!! if not they r gona kill them!! T.T'
'tell larhh.....wat r u waiting for!!!! TELL!'
im like nervous half the show waiting for the autobots n the US military to co-operate to kill those decepticons sia...
kept hoping n praying that they will fight together...
n who would've thought a young girl would be the 1 who cracked the mystery...
i kept chanting in my head hoping they will believe the girl!
so sad when they captured bumblebee T.T
almost teared watching him surrender to humans >.<"
i know he's capable of taking down all of them but he just dont wanna hurt us!!
the scenes just got better n better =D
every scene i would be like thinking in my head 'this is the coolest movie ever!'
n the ending definately didnt disappoint me!
so chun lah seeing them fight liddat...
lol imagine if it were to happen in real life @@"
ahh...my review suxx
im just really...lost for words...
no words can describe this movie...
just have to see it for urself =D
at the end of the movie the whole cinema applauded n cheered haha XD
quite rare to get the whole cinema to enjoy a movie together
oh i'm definately watching this for the 2nd time...
who's up for it? =P
Mood Swings
Dear bloggie,
haih...
i don't know what's wrong with me...
just few days ago i was singing along and smiling to some happy songs
n laughing at stupid things...
feeling happy from the bottom of my heart
n my thought that time was
'i m so happy...that nothing can make me sad...'
i didnt even hold grudges to bad things that happened to me
i just listened to those songs n i will be cheerful again
it really...works u know
cuz i wondered when was the last time i was this happy
i felt...free...cheerful...carefree...
bad news hit me n it just rebounded off...
took me a while to process it n i just thought
'oh...what the heck?' n just shrugged it off...
smiling happily moments later...
i was thinking why m i so happy?
cant seem to think of any reason...
even things that i know will make me cry didnt have it's effect on me
but now...
seems like everythings going the wrong way...
i was fine hours ago
i really am...
now it's like...
i dont know how to describe...
i just feel so...depressed
so...empty...
so meaningless
i just wanna be alone...
dont feel like talking to anyone
n i have a feeling that...nothing can make me that happy again
i just wanna sit here n stare at some distant faraway spot
n stone...
thinking bout nothing...
bout everything...
gosh...n now i dont even wanna touch those happy songs
it disgusts me...
the only songs in my playlist now r sad ones
the more i hear it...the worse it gets
at 1st i thought there's no reason to this
but i think i identified the cause
i didnt know it will effect me
i dont feel anything
i really dont....
but what else to explain this?
it happened right after i found out bout it...
n it got worse after that
i thought it was all over n done with
i thought i let go...
i really did...
but...
cant be rite?
im not sad because of...*
im sad because of nothing
im just...sad
i dont know...
i just wanna curl up in my bed n cry
haih...
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
New skin
Heyya
quite sien seeing the 'image not available' everytime the page loads =X
quite lazy to find new images as well
so here...
my new skin =)
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
Celebrity look alike
Lolx...
too sien lah forgive me =)
see mine
see michelle's
2nd 1 same worrrr....O.o
see....cousins mar /gg
maybe we r related to fukada kyoko!!
LOL...
paiseh too bored jor =P
bloody hell
=X
paiseh...
but then....that's wat i wanted to say
so err...be it...haha
ehh suxx lorr...
1st time take blood test so painful
with side effects...
seriously...bloody hell
ok lar i start from scratch
i went to a hospital today to do my medical check-up
well...it's a compulsary for my students pass for NUS
so i went lor...
1st 1st...i urinate in the bottle for them
urrghh...quite eww to say it lolx
then they took my blood for blood test
this is where the bloody hell begun...
erm...how to say lerh?
this is the 1st time i dont feel scared b4 taking blood lor
b4 that still got abit nervous n abit scared of the thick needle poking in my skin
but har.....quite err ngam oso...
as in...lucky i wasnt that nervous cuz this was the worst blood test i took =X
really ah~ the longest sia...
i was staring at the needle when the nurse poked it in
n then i stared...n i stared...
still no blood came out =.=
it's already painful enough that the needle pierced through my skin...
but not nearly as painful as when she pulled the needle out n poke in again =.="
nvm lor...in the end lucky she found the vein
n then i watched my blood flow into the err...that thingy lah...tube?
n then i watched....n i watched....n i watched somemore...
but my blood was like sooo little....
wah...seriously the longest blood taking test ever!!
i only saw like bubbles going into the tube
i was thinking...r there supposed to be bubbles ah?
if the air bubble go in my vein i mar can die =X
nvm lor...if she never push the needle in, the air will stay in the tube i thought
right after that she pushed the needle in somemore =.=
cuz not enough blood must take more
then she push in push out push in push out to force more blood in
wahlau...
can imagine my agony staring at the whole process kah
with like 3, 4 nurses around me watching =.=
really...aiyoh...
that wasnt it...normally few hours after the blood test...
everything will heal...not painful anymore hor?
all that's left of the reminder is that small red spot where the needle was poked in
but ah...now after like few hours rite...
the pain still havent subsided!!!!!
in fact it's getting worse =.=
arrghh...n there's blue black around that area...
plus it hurts alot if i press it >.<"
eeeee....
where got take blood take until blue black 1......
dono how to take blood 1!!
SOB T.T pain u know..............
nx time dowan to let them take le larh! T.T
hopefully the pain n the blue black will subside >.<"
ah well...did chest x ray n eye examination too
i realize i can see better in my contact lens
even though the power's not as high as my specs rite
i cannot really see well in my specs =X
the eye examination was badd......
n the x ray quite...err....awkward =.="
guess....that's about it
very pain!!! T.T
Monday, June 25, 2007
boredom
Bloggie!
i'm so bored...
so so bored....
dono wat to do lerh...
wat to do leh?
aihz...
everyday eat sleep tv comp...
stuck at home everyday nia...
i need to go out in the sun!!
anyway...
this bit of conversation quite funny lolx...
-su- says:
ah ping
-su- says:
what happen?
-su- says:
u bang car?
hsien *shen* says:
she bang car?
-su- says:
ask her la
-su- says:
i also dunno
hsien *shen* says:
haha she busy la
- 冰 `PinG~* - says:
har?
- 冰 `PinG~* - says:
i bang car?
hsien *shen* says:
-su- says:
u bang car?
hsien *shen* says:
she bang car?
- 冰 `PinG~* - says:
i bang car?
hsien *shen* says:
haha classical
- 冰 `PinG~* - says:
LOL
- 冰 `PinG~* - says:
not i bang
- 冰 `PinG~* - says:
the fella bang me
as usual lah...
owiz so siao...
lolx =D
Sunday, June 24, 2007
wtf
seriously wtf...
dammit larh....
just now i drove to 1U
in my dad's car...
n then exit that time very jam lor...
so have to wait quite long...then turning that time
the car was initially behind me...
supposed to be 1 lane 1
then arh...he go n turn together with another car....
like sooo close sia...the other car like bo song ady u know
then after that is memang 1 lane ady
then he wanted to cut me
but then no space ady mar...i tot he wont do anything
then the STUPID IDIOT go n cut somemore
seriously...
pardon me for saying this but...
fucker lah....
his car body go n scratched mine
not scratch so simple....is like
the whole car body go n bump into mine
i can feel my car like kena pushed to 1 side jor
fuck...
then his side mirror can see like bent ady...
there no place to stop u know..cuz is the exit ady
somemore behind so many cars
then i saw...nothing wrong lor
i tot nothing wrong with the car...hopefully?
cuz his paint came off...
so i never got down to talk to him...
but then just now when i got back
until klang only we got chance to check =.=
they saw a long long n deep deep scratch!!
WAAAAAAA...... T.T
n my dad just looked at it n answered just 'ya lah!'
to my 'har? the scratch is jus now 1 ah?'
SOB!!!!!
I FEEL SO BAD!!!
should have got down n scold that STUPID fella larh...
wahlau...
now....takkan lah ask my dad to pay for it
not his fault oso
not my fault lah
THAT STUPID fella's fault!
EESHH!!!!!
i wanna curse that fella lah
damn it...
i not so bad to curse him to hell
just hope
he gets his balasan
hmmphhh.....
so impatient for wat...damn him
n may he get not only scratches on his car
Saturday, June 23, 2007
rotting...
arghhh.....
i'm sooo gonna die of boredom!!!!!!!
help! =.="
really...nothing to do lor...
quite the opposite from my friend who's going nus as well =X
very funny hor...
cuz rite...we both oso going nus...so meaning same things to prepare larh
but ah...she can run around day n night everyday...
everyday diff thing to do 1 wor...
somemore so kancheong
me on the other hand?
sweat.....
really cannot think of anything to do lerh...
like everyday slack around doing nothing only
i cannot think of anything to prepare this early =X
seriously!!!!
arrghh......im growing moulds ady larh!
i tell u har....
my daily routine rite...
wake up...eat...face comp...sleep...wake up...eat...watch tv...face comp...sleep...
u know how sien is that anot?!!!
sleep has already taken like more than half of my day =.=
min 12 hours of sleep everyday!!
n then i only like eat n sleep n eat n sleep nia
eeeeeeee.....
i dont want larh!!!
but wat's there for me to do eh?
really...really...
nothing to do lerh...
not that i dowan to go out larh
but then....not all of my friends free mar
then everyday ask same ppl to go out with me...
paiseh lerh...ppl got class somemore
then ah...
not that i got car can use everyday jek
no transport lerh!
if i wanna use then my mom no car jor...
have to ask her colleague to fetch
i feel quite bad lerh lidat...
imagine wat she have to say
'umm...my daughter wants to use the car to go shopping...so errh...have to tumpang u'
very....swt rite!!
ARGH!!
can become crazy larh everyday liddat =.=
Thursday, June 21, 2007
Sunshine after the rain
bloggie...
errr.....
i m fine now =)
lolx...
funny eh? haha...
so fast recover =X
actually...quite sad also larh =(
to find out like that...
to lose something u treasure
au contraire...
maybe this is better u know =)
as in...
i dont know...i just feel relieved...
like a burden lifted off my shoulders...
this morning when i woke up...
ok lah is almost evening =.=
when i woke up i felt happy =D
n then suddenly i realized im supposed to feel sad =.="
had to lie on the bed to think of wat happened the night before
then only 'ohhh...that =.='
it's the sunshine after the rain =)
yeah...should be that...
never thought that a good night's sleep can cure this =D
not really...cure lah
maybe...it's how i look at things i guess...
it's better this way that...
i do not have to wait or linger around bah...
from the moment i sensed the change...
it's been quite tormenting u know...
u know something's wrong yet u cannot confirm
all the while in denial...
yet there's nothing i can do...
but let things go on the way they were...
without knowing wat's the cause of it...
while hoping...that maybe im wrong...
that maybe there's a wee bit hope that things will go back the way it were
n when i finally found out...
i can...at last...breathe freely
it set me free... =)
hence...i have no reason to be sad anymore
no reason to think nonsense anymore
actually hor....those nonsence that i thought...
it all came true ok =.=
nvm bout that...
it's like i finally tasted freedom after so many weeks...
n i for one...am happy for that =D
the least i can do now...is bless them ^^
deja vu
bloggie...
why?
why lah why??
seriously....tell me why~
it's happening all over again...
note for note.
i dono whether i should laugh or cry over this matter...
when i found out just now...
i just...laughed...
really...
maybe that's how i cover the pain in my heart
or maybe....
that's just what i should do...
laugh at my own stupidity...
to fall for my own trap all over again!
remember my new year resolutions?
well...i guess i failed it again...
i knew where this is all heading...
yet i happily followed the path...
that lead to my own destruction
around...5 months ago...
the exact same thing happened...
i dont know if i blogged it out...
but then that time i was stupid enough to not pull myself out...
to fall in deeper n deeper into my own trap
even though i knew where it leads...
i knew it would end quite bitterly...
still i went on...smiled along the way...
n then shed tears when i found out...
actually i knew....i can sense a change u know...
it happened everytime...
once the feeling is not the way it was...i know
i can feel...n i know that it's gonna happen anytime soon
just that...everytime i hoped that i will be wrong
i hoped that maybe im just over sensitive...
that everything will be fine soon...
yet...it happened still...
i found out...
not the best way to find out i must say...
but at least i do not have to deal with it face to face...
at least that when i found out...i could back away quietly...
taste my own wound...weep in silence
n finally...5 months later...
i finally knew what was that all about
i regretted it...laughed at how dumb i was...
n when i finally didnt have a shred of feelings for it anymore...
little did i know i was creating another trap for myself...
it happened before...
i should have been more careful this time
i should be more wise...not that stupid anymore
yet...it still happened....again
maybe this time i was better prepared...
yet the pain was not less...
n how i found out this time?
exactly the same thing as the last time...
in fact....everything that happened...the progression of it
it's all...similar
the 1st time we met...the getting to know each other...to the part of trusting each other n being close
n then...the lost of touch...the lost of contact...
suddenly...in just 1 day...
everything changed...
it's like...we never knew each other anymore
call me sensitive...
but i can sense...
i know when something's wrong
well...i was never wrong...wasn't i?
n when i found out just now...
the 1st thought that hit me was...
'wth? deja vu? this is happening to me...again?'
even that i can predict this is happening...
it still hit me...the impact was no less...
really...i started laughing since then
why did i get myself into this?
why did i allow this to happen?
why is it happening to me...again?
but i cannot control this rite?
i mean...how can i control wat's happening around me...
haihz...
even then...
all that i can think now is...
how can this happen exactly the same as last time?
why?
wat did i do to deserve this?
haih...
really....speechless...
although this time...
i am able to pull myself up
i knew this was gonna happen...
kinda prepared myself for it...
just that i didnt expect i will find out this way...or this soon...
n luckily for me...both times that happen
it's didnt reach that deep in my heart...
part of me is sad for losing a real close friend
but another part...why all the false signs if it was never meant to be?
it will pass =)
i'm sure of it...
just feel kinda dumb that it happened to me again =.="
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
What a day...
Dear bloggie...
this is the kinda day that makes me regret getting up from bed u know =X
should have stayed in bed n not step out of the house...
haihx...
it all started...when i woke up early this morning...to go imu
well...the bad luck didnt start then lah...
but had i not woken up to go rite...none of this would have happened
actually i didnt want to wake up u know...
i sat up...off the air cond...then i thought i rather go back to sleep
then i laid on my bed again...n shut my eyes
but my conscience won my subconcious this time =X
since it's my last day in imu....better not ffk ppl rite? >.<" somemore i ffk them like 2, 3 times ady =X
so i went to imu...very early somemore =.= 730am reach le...
but then...still shouldnt have larh...so many ppl ask me y wake up so early...
EH? almost forgot this...u know the stretch on kesas highway...the 1 near subang exit?
in the morning very jam...so they will put the cones in between the mid lane n the fast lane...
so that those ppl who r not turning in to subang exit can take the fast lane uninterrupted mar...
but then ah......i dono how some ppl drive sia...
really....driving in that fast lane is like driving through obstacle course nia...
particularly today!!
sooo many cones knocked down...n it was like...at the side, at the middle, at the far right of the lane...
so it's like...have to keep negotiate around the cones...
stupid larh...somemore that time i was driving like 100kmph lerh =X
suddenly in front stop ady...really brake until damn hard >.<
oh...n i thought that was the worst part while driving there...
how wrong was i...
in imu...nothing much bah...
walked around alot n climbed the stairs...
cuz me n my friend didnt know where to pass our withdrawal letter...
all the while i was waiting for a particular sms...
but...haihz~
after that...went back to vista to pack my stuffs...
last week i ady took back quite alot of stuffs ady...
i thought left little bit more for me to carry...
mana tau =.=
n then har...after i finish packing i realized there were sooo many bags
n i kept forgetting stuffs ya know...aih~
it took me 4 trips!!! 4!!!!
must wait for the lif n all lerh...
so tiring >.<"
after that i was very frust ady...
was wearing a skirt...n a formal shirt...
n i didnt bring any clip to tie up my hair somemore...
so sweaty n tired...
so...my trip continued on to....tpm
haih...suppose to...
was waiting...
but...
seems like...
then i was like...driving so slowly past...
kept waiting....
but to no avail...
nvm~ forget that lol...
went to jaring to pay the bills...wanted to terminate geh
but then it's still under contract...so i really dono how now
dont care larh not my pasal =P
ok...then my nightmare begun...when i started driving back on kesas...
i was...chilling n all...
ok lah...'heating' n all while driving...
very good driver ok...90kmph on middle lane...never break any rules
then halfway tru i noticed a police car on the fast lane behind me...
then i tot nothing much larh just leave it...
then suddenly i heard the siren @@"
i was like.....sweat...
cuz they on n off the siren...that kinda meant stop the car rite? >.<"
but then i tot i did nth wrong so i left it lor...
then they kept putting the siren...the police somemore waved his hand u know...
but then i dono it's for who....cuz the police car was behind me
it's either for me...or for the van behind me...
takkan lah ask me to stop then wave behind me...how to see wor >.<"
but then i looked at them n they stared at me back
indicating me to move over...
i was like....ok...shit....really shit...
then i mar stop lor...at the emergency lane
the police car followed me...but then stopped like 500m in front of me =.=
so i was thinking...takkan lah if wan me to stop u stop so far from me...
not me gua? >.<"
n then i noticed the van behind me never stop wor...
nobody else stopped with the police car...
that's y i dono it's me or wat!!!
but then they never come so i continued to drive on still >.<"
was so scared lerh...drove at 40kmph on the slowest lane..
all the while looking at the rear view mirror
seeing if they chase me =X
haihx~
then while driving back i past by like...3 police cars ok
everytime i saw 1 my grip on the steering wheel tighten
eee......but then luckily nothing happened lah
then ah....i was already so farn ady...
i almost caused an accident ok =X
that time....almost near the klang exit le bah...
i was at the middle lane still...but there's this truck in front of me driving sooo slow
cannot tahan larh so i planned to overtake lor
but this car behind me overtook 1st so i followed behind the car's back
then he overtooked ady...once his car was like out of my sight rite
i realize...there's a damn....CONE in the middle of the road
right in front of me......right in front!!
not a cone lah...dono how to say...the white n red thing they put on the roads if there r constructions...for simplicity's sake i just call it a cone lah =.=
the thing was so big rite...not a small cone that i can just overtake at the side
it was like lying smack in the middle of the lane
n that time the slow truck was like leveling with me ady so i got no place to overtake >.<"
if i turn left i will bang the truck....
if i turn right i will bang the concrete divider of the highway
if i brake i will bang the cone oso =X
i was like...die lah~ really die ady >.<"
i had to make a choice.......
so....i speeded up to like 120kmph to overtake the truck...
n brake just in time to cut in to the middle lane...
like that split second of chance i had to take >.<"
i squeezed my eyes shut as i tot i was gona bang that cone
but luckily i just touched it...
it was like....omg~
when i turned that time i can feel the whole car sway lerh
not the normal slow turn...
i just jammed the steering wheel to the left cuz really no time to turn le mar
n i brake like...so hard for a second then must accelerate again
omg omg omg...
i didnt think i would make it...
it's like in the movies sia
i had beads of sweats on my forehead ady >.<"
aih.....really...
after that i was soo shaken up i had to calm myself down with a strawberry shake from mcD
wanted to get mcflurry geh but i was driving =X
had to fetch my mom too...so by the time i reach home will melt ady larh
after that i just slept...
better u know...after 5 hours of sleep i felt that everything that happen was as though yesterday...
but still...
i still feel....arrghh~
Friday, June 15, 2007
Trust
Dear bloggie...
i cannot deny that i m absolutely filled with rage
even more so that i m so full of disappointment...
how much can u trust a person?
seriously...
when u tell a secret to someone n u ask that person not to tell a single soul...
u must know that there is a chance of that person telling another person
in fact...a big big chance...
n then that person u told telling the other person not to tell other ppl
n then it will go on n on n on n eventually...ur secret is out!
right?
it's normal...
i get it...
but that to happen with someone u trusted so much?
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Portion removed due to misunderstanding
my utmost apologies to my dear cousin
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not only that...
i understand the situation of the person who told me this...
whom...my secret eventually passed on...was spilled to my very own ear...
i know...if i track back who told who...
i know u would be in deep trouble...
but...if everyone were to ask the person they told
'u promised u wouldnt tell anyone...y did u break ur promise?'
ARE THEY EVEN FREAKIN' BOTHERED LOOK BACK AT THEMSELVES?
the pot calling the kettle black.
if u want to find fault on other person...
look at urself first...it would never have happened if U URSELF kept the secret in the 1st place...
so stop blaming other ppl n blame it on urself....dammit
u have no right to scold other ppl if u did the exact same thing u r scolding the person for
since the secret is out...
the least u could do is understand how i feel?
who is the victim here?
whose secret is it?
if u damn well think that u feel even more SAD than me...
then i guess i have nothing to say...
asking me to pretend it never happened?
so that i can...make everyone happy...
making everyone think that 'oh the person i told never told anyone'
letting ME carry all the burden?
U THINK...
U THINK i can pretend this never happened?
u think...that it wouldnt have an impact on me?
u think i could just let it go...
n continue to trust the person i entrusted this secret with?
how can i?
now that i know that the things i told this person is leaking
that what i tell him/her in the future will leak too
if u were in my shoes...can u pretend it never happened?
can u?
do u seriously think...getting scolded is worse than finding out ur secret is out n that u r being betrayed by the person u trusted alot?
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Portion removed due to misunderstanding
my utmost apologies to my dear cousin
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really...speechless...
-update on 16 June, 12:53am-
u know what?
it's...
haihx i dont know how to explain...
i just found out...
that the person i trusted have been repeatedly stabbing me behind my back
that guy...is one of my closest friend
whom i trusted with most of my problems n secrets
i thought...i could trust him...
after...so many years of friendship...this is how he treated me?
humans...although have a tendency to spill secrets...especially juicy gossips
also have a heart u know...
if u know that that secret is a matter of life n death...or it means alot to that person...or that if the secret is out that person would be so hurt...
u would think twice before u tell it to someone
if u know that something is really important n it matters alot...u would consider that person's feelings
especially if the person is ur close friend...
but i guess...this is not the situation for me...
Had i not read the msges he sent to my cousin today...
Had i not put things together...
i wouldnt have never found out about how badly he betrayed me...
this morning i sent him an sms...saying that i was utterly disappointed with him...
n i offered him some advice to think twice before u spill someone's important secret...
i guess he's been wondering wat he have done that caused me behave this way...
im just...soo disappointed i have nothing more to say to him
n then he went n smsed my cousin asking her what happened to me...
up til the extend that i read something from his msges
'can u tell me which rumour izit? i dono which secret is she so angry about...i know i gossip alot about her last time'
ohh.....so u mean...u dont know which secret is spilled
which means...which means u freakin' gossiped about alllll the secrets i entrusted u with...that u promised with ur life not to tell a single soul while u r still alive n breathing...
until u dont know which blardy secret that i found out...
all my problems...all my secrets r circulating around...
damn nice of u...
somemore dare to say that i'm one of ur close friends...
u treat ur close friends that way ah?
seriously...i never knew u were this kind of person...
really...i have nothing more to say to u...
oh well...what's done is done =)
no point crying over spilled milk...
at least...i've learnt a lesson here...
a big big lesson...
n i know who my true friends are...
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
my letter...finally~!!
arrghh...been waiting for the offer letter from NUS for so so long...
u know wat?
i have to reply by 12 June...
n now only they send me the letter...
it's like...i only got the letter on 12 June how to send the documents to them by today huh?
=.="
anyway....
at last!!
now that i realize...i got lots n lots of things to prepare prior to leaving =(
i have to pack stuffs u know...
n it's not like for a week long trip or wat...
it's like for....for....permanent stay >.<"
it'll be like at least 7 years before i come back for good...
that's if...
that's if...i really do want to come back after establishing 7 years there =X
hmm...
i have to do all those things...
u know...uni stuffs =.=
apply for student pass...send in all those forms
but the good thing here is...most of the applications are done online
kudos to them =)
save me lots of hassle by mails...
n the post is NOT reliable /pif
i accepted their offer online...now all i have to do is send in 1 form i think?
n then...registration day only kautim all other stuffs...gua?
omigosh...i m SO BLUR!!
okay...somemore...the application for the hostel
i've done it like...few days ago >.<"
n so sucky larhhhh!!!!!!
i applied for halls...
cuz ermm...basically halls r like a community n they have meal plans...
it's damn cheap ok! $3 a day for breakfast n dinner @@"
n then they have lots of activities...which a lazy bum like me needs =X
but......i didnt get wat i wanted...
all 3 choices i put diff halls ok...i never put prince george's park residence
oh...the pgpr is like...a condo larh practically...no meal plans =.=
so...quite bad lerh >.<" i got that T.T
aih...nvm larh...at least i got a place to stay...
that's for the uni stuffs...
n bout me living in sg...quite alot of things to prepare lerh
apply for new sg line...my hotlink line gona no more =(
n then...buy laptop to bring there XD
lolx...i want a hp pavillion *droolss*
somemore...open bank account etc etc...
aih....
it's like....im not coming back ady...
i think...i better stop before i write more sad things >.<"
=)
Monday, June 11, 2007
F1!!!
wow!!
definately the most interesting race of the season @@"
what with yellow flag for around half of the race...
n safety cars out 4 times!!
2 black flags @@
not to mention soo many accidents somemore =X
including 1 super big 1 >.<"
a very very dramatic race...damn syok~
lolxxx =P
ehh...not that i'm evil cuz i wanna see accidents happen
but then it's human nature to err...tend to....
get excited over....err...destructive things =P
anyway...
damn syok lor =P
1st 1st i forgot whose car bang the wall then got safety car...scott speed i think =X
cannot say i short term memory ok...
cuz this race...sooo many cars got accident until i damn blur ady ok!
then few laps after safety car gone...
there was this BIG BIG accident @@"
robert kubica banged the wall...then rebounded...n practically flew across the track..
then hit the wall on the other side of the track >.<"
all that's left of the car is the body...the parts all flew away ady @@"
somemore i see his head keep bobbing side to side during the whole impact
eeee......kerlian him >.<" lucky he is in stable condition...but he broken his leg T.T
ohh...quite syok seeing from the liuzzi's point of view...
he was behind when kubica had that accident....
so he was watching the car fly across the track...n he had to navigate through all the flying debris n tayars n all...damn cool lolx =P
after that it was already so syok....
not over yet lerh!!
it was already like...not common for the safety cars to come out during the race more than 1 time
from the f1 i've watched long long ago...2 times oso counted alot ady lor...
this 1 4 times lerh!!
after that...christian albers had an accident =.= safety car again!
then followed by liuzzi =.=...4th time lerhx!
n then during the safety car period...trulli go bang the track wall lolx...
safety car out also can have accident =X
this 1 not i say de arh lolx...quoted from someone haha...
not only that....got other interesting things also lor...
alonso n nico rosberg got a 10 sec stop/go penalty...
yay!! lolx...i dont like alonso that's y =D
n then arh...massa n fisichella got black flag!!! >.<"
cuz they go n drive through red lights in the pit stop...
aiyer...so kerlian...i tot got penalty or wat...mana tau black flag =X
then we saw a short stint of synchronize driving!! lolx
very cute lerh...
it's like...i forgot who lah...ralf schumacher n someone...
they brake too late at the same time...then both oso spin together
never bang lerh...but spin together...
like...totally same time same position side by side lol
n ohh....the kimi vs alonso race!!
i also blur of the positions ady...cuz keep changing due to the safety cars n pitstops n all...
but then that time alonso was at the back of kimi...
kept trying to cut but cannot...
then they went in pitstop together....sooo close u know
but mclaren's 1 was behind ferrari...
then mclaren's pitstop faster!! T.T then alonso came out 1st
justttt in the nick of time in front of kimi...
i was like....awwww....sob!! T.T
but then...it was not over after all =D
alonso tried to overtake someone n lost control...
then he err...ter go into the grass area...i dono how to explain >.<"
then kimi was in front of him again!!
weee~!!! alonso dai sei...bluekk =P
i thought that was the best part ady...
mana tau @@"
sato overtook alonso!!!
this race sato yeng lerh...overtook soo many cars...
n i thought alonso was skilled...but true enough sato overtook him with style...
haha...i was cheering n jumping up n down along with the crowd in canada...=D
oh...not to forget hamilton
he geng lor....in this dramatic race he can keep his cool lerh
pole position from start to finish =)
so young ady been up the podium 6 consecutive times since the start of the season
really...cannot underestimate him @@"
then wurz n kovalainen oso geng wor...up 16 places to 3rd n 4th place lolx...
the safety cars punya pasal larh! piffz...
think i got new driver to admire ady LOL...
kimi...rotting ady =X
eesh...dono wat's wrong with him larh...
i know he's a good driver....very good in fact
but when he was in mclaren the car wasnt good...
after he left only they picked up their performance!! eesshhh...
now he's in ferrari also not that good >.<"
sobb T.T
he's like the 1 i favoured since i 1st started watching f1 lerh!
i dono when...but very very long ago...primary school i guess
now arh...quite funny lor
i like kimi...but i dont like ferrari =X
i like mclaren...but i dont like alonso lolx
how?!
mclaren win i happy wor...but alonso win i not happy lolxxx
but this race...not bad larh XD
hamilton too talented not to be liked LOL
sooo long since i come across such an interesting race
really damn chun.....
lucky i woke up to watch
must thank someone for reminding me too XD
Thursday, June 07, 2007
=(
bloggie..... =(
michelle larh!!
go n trigger my hidden feelings which i have covered so perfectly over the past few weeks...
lolx...jk de larh =P
i...
>.<"
i just...
aihz~ i dont know how to put this in words...
u know what?
im actually quite reluctant to leave for sg...
i know im going to miss m'sia...
if i were to get the offer last year...or just before...
before i...before that period of time...
i would be ever so happy to go
in fact i would jump at the chance to leave!
for over a year i've been so miserable...
lonely...depressed...didnt want to stay here anymore
longing for the chance to leave this sad place
n start a new life elsewhere
for a reason to forget everything that ever happened
yet i didnt have the money or the chance to do so...
now...
why?
why did i have to leave when...
when i finally had the courage to let go?
when finally someone showed me there is more to life here...
when i was feeling happy after a long long time?
that i didnt want to leave this comfort zone?
it would be all the better if i left at a time when i m devastated...
when i thought all hopes were lost...
it would be a perfect opportunity to start over u know...
but seems that i have to let go when i've just only started to learn to trust
that i've learnt to feel comfortable...
that...happiness found me...where i thought no one would show me how...
sigh...still...
i have to thank that someone who was by my side...
who healed me from depression...
who made me happy in a long long time =)
although...i think that person didnt realize...
thank you so much...
i will miss u >.<"
Monday, June 04, 2007
imu vs nus
Bloggie...
i couldnt sleep >.<"
dont know why though...
considering that i havent have a good night's sleep all weekend cuz i was off on a holiday with my sis's family
which coincidently meaning i am sooo wear-ed out taking care of 3 nieces...especially 2 who kept fighting for my attention full time =.=
anyway...
since i couldnt sleep right...
might as well blog this out...
some of u might think...
that i'm crazy to give up a chance to be a doctor in m'sia
to take up a mere science degree in sg...
lolx...
well...if u put it that way...
of course that sounds abit...mental @@"
but then...sometimes things arent as simple as that...
there are loads more reasons behind it u know...
ok...the pros n cons:
if i stay in imu:
- i would get to be a doctor...with a prefix Dr. in front of my name...quite yeng rite lol
- i get to save lives...help ppl...
but i guess that's about the good part =X
now the bad part...
- money problems!! dont think being a doctor will make me rich...naa-ah...it would make me sooo poor i would be almost broke all my life... Cuz rite... to continue studying there it's like super expensive that i have to take loan...which i need to pay back like 2k a month for 20 years...already in debt where got money to specialize lerh? meaning i would have to stay as GP as the rest of my life...continue being poor also larh...so u see!!! no future =X now u know to be a doctor u need $$ >.<"
- even if i got the money to specialize i wouldnt really get the chance...the degree's only recognize in m'sia...n err... sri lanka =.= to get a postgraduate training in m'sia is hard...u see harh to get in public uni for medicine is like impossible for me ady...wat more specialist training =.=
- i dont like the life there! the facilities sux...it's like a shopping mall...so small =.= no sports facilities n no place to unwind when im feeling stressed also =X
- the study style there dont really suit me >.<" it's like self-study all the way...n i m like the laziest person i know...so how can? ppl r like studying everyday in the library while i pig out the whole day at home =X
- n the life when i'm a doctor =.= gosh...working like dog...then no time for family no time for social life...i think i would be heading for spinsterhood =X
if i go to nus:
- my financial problems are over!! ok lah not really over...still will have probs as the living cost there is like double =X still...i wouldnt face as much probs...n i wouldnt have to take loan n i wouldnt be in debt my whole life!
- the cert from there is worth much more =D lolx...mind u...top 20 uni in the world lerh =P
- i would get to enjoy a full fledged campus life!! lolx...the facilities there are like...thousand times better than imu...somemore got greenery! XD
- no doubt it would be stressful there...really...but i like this kind of stress...not like larh...as in prefer =.= better than imu's stress...that stress is hidden u know...cuz the timetable's like so free with only 2 hours aday...but if u dont study = dead! at least this 1 i can feel the stress lolx...
- the future's much brighter there ^^ no doubt larh...
now the bad part....errr...
- aih...most ppl go there ady wont come back m'sia u know =( what with the better salary n life there...
- i'm only a mere scientist...lolx...but i dont mind =) i'm still young lah...future...see how larh later
i guess...that's about it bah?
no other points to argue ady...
quite obvious which is the better option for me =D
Sunday, June 03, 2007
SG!!!!
Weeee~!!!!!!
so so so happyyyyyy XD
i got offered from NUS!!!
at long last.....
gosh...really made me wait sooooo long
wan yeh arh? =.="
well....
i'm going!
no doubt about it =D
i have like 2 months to prepare everything!!
n i dont feel like attending classes in IMU starting from tmr =P
lolx...n to think that i once had the thought that i WILL continue to attend classes and take exam until the end of Sem 1
but now....
siao merh =.= for wat....
study for nothing nia...dowan waste my energy
my precious time can spent on other more fun things!
like going on holiday!! go play!! go meet up with friends!!
spending my last days in m'sia =)
ah...still...
i will miss home =(
i will miss my family...my friends...
cannot go shopping with michelle ady >.<"
she's the only one i can shop with....no more saturday 1U nights T.T
somemore cannot go yumchar with friends ady =(
cannot go watch movie with friends also...
sigh....
oh well~
at least it's only sg =) very near!!
can come back often right! can come visit me toooo XD
i feel like going back to klang today larh!!!!!
but then.....settle my stuffs in imu 1st larh =)
weee~!!
cant wait XD