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Hello!
Long time no see again... =/
it's always the same sentence eh?
n the same excuse...busy again
oh...the last post was on chionging for the organic chem test...
as expected...i did badly =(
oh well...i didnt study hard for it...wat can i expect?
on another note though...
i got my genetics test 2 marks today...
n...oh my god! i almost screamed when i saw my marks
i dont like checking marks online! =.="
i always cannot find the correct 1...
wat i saw was Max Marks - 10...Highest Marks - 10... O.o...and Lowest Marks - 0 =.="
then i was like...where's my marks? where?? where??
and then i saw...i passed!
i not only passed...i got an A!!
i really cant believe it =/
i expected to pass...i didnt expect i could get an A!! =D
so happieeee....
n to think that...the test was right after the cnkc event...
n the whole weekend i did not touch my notes at all
n that i studied only the morning of the test...
that i almost gave up studying cuz i was super last min...
i still can get an A!!!!!
heeee.....damn lucky i guess =X
i know lah got ppl get full marks...prolly alot ppl tim... =.="
but then...considering how much effort i put in...it's very very lucky ady!!
but then to think of it...
it's always like that!
as in...the more i study for a test, the worse my marks will be =.="
really!!
i always study last min last time and yet i can get good results
then my 1st test for genetics i studied so hard for days n yet... =(
then the 2nd test i only studied like...the morning of the test n i can get an A @@"
see!! nx time i dont study...wait til last min only study =P
or maybe that's my study style...i can remember better under pressure
n i can study better at last min?
but then...cannot larh...
too much pressure...cannot cope =X
i dont wanna go through those times again...
where i get no sleep, lock myself in my room, glu my butt to my chair for 12 hours straight =.="
super frustrating...
i just have to think that... i got lucky this time...
next time must try harder k!
oh yeah...the past few days i was busy with my project
my IT project...have to do a website =.="
i was busy in front of my comp day n night...
whenever im free i will be tinkering with the html codes
even in meetings i can multitask =P
i have to take down the minutes u see...but when they talk crap
alt+tab is a good shortcut! wakakaka...
shh....
after days n days of my blood n sweat...
ok maybe not blood...but alot sweat!
n not to forget...brain juice!
after so many frustrating nights...
i m finally done with it!
it's a group work...but then im the 1 doing most of the things u see =X
cuz im the better 1 in html coding n stuff...
but i admit im still noob
so my website is very very simple...not that nice larh
but then can work can ady larh!
im just glad i can get it out of the way finally!!
cannot happy so fast yet =(
i still have 1 more project to go.....poster for my ocean chem
n then english essay!! grrr....
alot of things to kautim for my club...especially the m'sia drive trip =.="
who ask me to be 1 of the few m'sians in the club...
n who ask me to be d 1 who knows the roads best =.="
sigh...somemore im not in events!
yet i have to do alot things!
nvm larh...im not complaining...im not! =P
i like planning stuffs...hehe
omg! english essay...
chao~
Monday, October 22, 2007
heee....im at my desk again...
preparing to chiong for the next 3 days!!
dont know how long i can last =X
this battle is exceptionally hard to fight!
that's cuz my test on thursday is Organic Chem!!
my worst subject!! n i failed my last test even though i studied hard for it =(
see!!
plus....wat's worse is...
i skipped 6 of the lectures =X
damn notti rite?!
T.T
cuz...i skipped 1 or 2 cuz i need to study for other test n cannot wake up in the morning
then 1 thing lead to another...
so i thought i wouldnt be able to undstd even if i attend
so i skip n skip lor T.T
SOB!
lucky got webcast!
but imagine....6x2 = 12 hours of webcast
OMG!
cannot larh i can fall asleep watching the webcast =/
n u know wat...
i rejected ppl to go for the motoring events meeting
knowing me...i would love to take part in the meeting
as i have lots of ideas on where to go for drive trip
partly cuz im 1 of the few m'sians in the comm...
so naturally i would know much more on where to go for the trip
n i wanted to be in that comm!
so rare that they ask me to join in for their meetings >.<"
oh well...
1 thing is cuz they asked me too late...
as in...'we r at bk now...so if u can come now ya'
@@" imagine my reaction seeing the msg...with my lecture notes in front of me
n holding my coffee in another hand =.="
too much of a hassle to prepare n go all the way to bk
but if i dont have to study for the test on thurs i will go im sure
but then think properly....study more impt
i havent even started!!
oh dear...plus i have 2 projects due this week!
havent even start larh...just great =.=
we had like few months to do n we dragged up til the very last min
i wonder how r we gona hand in on time! =.="
lab reports! luckily i managed to finish the 2 lab reports in time yest
n i have 1 more pending...
argh~
forever busy larh me.....
i wanted to start studying last week
so i nonit to be so kancheong this week
but then u know larh me...super lazy
will leave til super last min 1!!
SEE! still blogging here =/
okies wish me luck...
it's another crazy week ahead of me!
Thursday, October 18, 2007
Bloggie...
i realize every weds night i will stone
stone as in sit in front of the comp doing nothing
while neglecting my huge pile of work n long overdue books to study
argh....
last week i basically stoned from like 8pm til 1am even though i had a test on fri
n i havent started studying anything! practically clueless about the subject
this week...with 2 lab reports, n 2 projects pending
very urgently pending in fact
i still stonned...
sat in front of the comp til like around 1am also
until i finally decided to snap out of it n start with my lab reports
argh...!!
what is with me!?
how come i dont feel panic at all?!
i am SO DEAD!
i mean...i am aware that as the days go by
im gona feel more n more panic n be dead
yet i m fine with dragging n procrastinating
n leaving everything until the last min!
OMG n i have organic chem test next week!
which i have been skipping lectures for 4 times!
which i failed very badly the last time
which i practically dont know anything at all
i am so dead
YER i keep saying i am dead rite
but i still feel so calm!
why arh!
brain ah brain...dont act so slow can anot
faster activate the panic mode lerh
i need the adrenalin rush to motivate me to do my work!
if i know i have an unfinished pile of work
i cannot possibly concentrate on studying
how can?!
tmr 8am i have class somemore!
n im going out after that to meet an IMU friend =D
he's in SG for the raya holidays so of cuz must meet mar XD
argh....!! but i have so many work to do! T.T
*cries*
tonight cannot sleep until i finish at least 1 of my reports!
which is due like...in a few days time...
both reports in fact =.=
on a sidenote...
i think i rather immerse myself in work
these few days i've been slacking
after the 2 tests last week i've really been slackin
not doing any work n not studying
gosh...n i have tonnes of time to think
to finally acknowledge my feelings
n feel what i've been feeling for the past few weeks
n now
I DONT HAVE TIME!
n i guess its better though
argh dono wat m i talking bout
aiyoh....so cheong hei
lab report ah lab report!!
what m i doing blogging here still?!
chao~
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Dear bloggie,
alot of things have happened in the past few days
and alot of things are happening and going to happen
but i dont have much to say
im just...void of words to blog here
actually i have alot alot on my mind that i wanna say out
it's just that it's hard to manifest it into words that are presentable here
my mood's been rocky these few days...
n i actually cried one of the past few nights =(
it's good also larh i get to cry out all my feelings
havent been crying often LOL
i hid too much inside me...too busy til i dont have time to feel
dont have time to evaluate my feelings properly
n when i finally couldnt take it anymore everything exploded
oh well...i feel better i guess? =/
or is it...?
i am still busy...
with assignments n projects n lab reports n stuffs
also with my nusmc
in fact i just came back from a meeting today
i found out that they shifted me to the marketing committee =X
i was in the events comm...
well...it's not a disappointment to me
more of a shock...
i mean...i totally suck at marketing n dealing with ppl
i dono how m i gona perform though
i thought they knew i couldnt handle the media as seen during the event
yet they still put me there =(
either i suck at events or they have no where else to put me
but i think they know i like events alot... i dono >.<"
sigh...maybe it's a good thing
being in marketing i get to meet alot of ppl...sponsors etc...
have to negotiate, present etc...
i suck at it =.=" i totally cannot talk to ppl!!
oh well...chance to learn
it's good practice for my future im sure
good learning experience though
but i have no confidence!
i still dont get why they wanna put me there >.<"
sigh.....
oh well....i guess i have to step out of my comfort zone
anyways...i am so behind my schedule
yet i dont feel the pressure
im like that *shakes head* must wait til the very last min
only i start panicking n keep die die die =.="
argh~!
ping arh ping...why r u so lazy?!
Friday, October 12, 2007
Dear bloggie...
it's been 10 days since i last blogged...
alot alot happened in the 10 days...
i couldnt even find time to sleep >.<"
during the last weekend i was busy with an event - CNKC for my motoring club
my god...that was like...
hell man
for all 3 days we had to be there at like 4am...
n the previous night we only got back at like 12am...
so plus the travel time n all...
i only got 2 hours of sleep a day!
n there i had to move tires, metal barricades...
damn tiring
plus from the time the sun rises til sun sets
i have to stand directly under the sun at the start/finish line
cuz im the timekeeper =.="
so...as u can imagine
i got sunburnt, rashes..muscle ache...injuries etc from that
plus a bad bad case of not enough sleep >.<"
immediately after that...
before i had time to recover n set back my biological clock
i have a TEST! GENETICS!
shit larh...i only started studying 1 day before the test
oh...actually no
i wanted to study the night before...
but then i fell asleep...
woke up every hour to persuade myself to sleep back again
n finally 8am only i woke up to study until 3pm...
gahh...i thought i screwed it
oh well...the test wasnt bad
it's quite direct actually...not the thinking kind
but then the bad thing was
we started at 615pm....supposed to have 30 mins
so at 630 i was happily doing the 2nd part of the paper...
n then the lecturer was like 'u have 5 mins left'
HAR?!?!?!?!
wth....only 630 lerh...wat 5 mins left?!?!
since then i panic ady...cannot think!
then i scribbled n simplified all my answers from ques 2 onwards
then when i reached ques 9 he was like 'oh i give u extra 5 mins so we will end at 645'
wahlau...can see from my paper sia
ques 2 to 9 cannot see my writing...ques 9 n 10 only normal =.=
argh...but still...no use! the damage has been done!
n i screwed that part
so.............
actually i cannot say i will pass
cuz the last genetics test i thought i will pass
in the end i.... =.=
aihh..........
n then today i had biochem
oh god....i tell u wat happened yesterday
tuesday night i didnt study...
wanted to start on weds night
in the end i slept early n woke up at 3pm on thurs afternoon
i was like totally devastated...totally given up hope
at the rock bottom already
cuz i kept trying to study n yet i dint understand a thing
i kept lying on the bed n mourning for myself >.<"
didnt even eat since weds afternoon
but then from 3pm onward i didnt know where i got the motivation from
i just started studying until 3am...
so for 12 hours i only left my chair for
tapao dinner x1, bathe x4 (too hot >.<"), make coffee x3...
@@"
really chiong in the 12 hours...
i managed to cover everything...but only surface larh not deep enough
then the test today...
OH MY GOD!
I COULD HAVE GOTTEN AN A!!!
a freakin' A!!!
actually....seeing that i only studied SUPER last min
it's quite a feat...
but too bad...i screwed the paper
GAH!!!!!!
there were 10 mcq ques n 2 short answer ques...
the last short answer ques was 5 marks...
i started doing n counting the maths way for the answer...
squeezing my brain n performing difficult maths equation to get the answer
then when i was left with 15 mins i realized there's GRAPH PAPER INSIDE!
SHIT!
i could've drawn the graph n obtained the answer THAT INSTANT
wahlau...imagine...
but then it was too late to start drawing the graph
so i proceeded with the complicated maths way
i got the answer eventually
BUT IT WAS NOT THE CORRECT ANSWER!
the lecturers gave us the answer at the end of the test =.="
my front part i did fairly well...
IF i saw the graph paper earlier....n i did it correctly
I COULD HAVE GOTTEN 18/20!
shit...............
which will...make me super happy!!!
but then now...AIH~!
SO SAD RITE...from A drop to C
wat is this! so careless..........
5 marks...25% just gone...like that
so sad............
i want to cry ady......
ok im done.........
wat's done is done.........
i cannot mourn over wat's history
just hope that next time...i dont repeat the same mistake!
T.T
*cries*
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
bloggie ar bloggie...
i am so doomed...
the last test i was well prepared for it...
yet i failed
the test next week...
i am very sure i will not study finish in time
let alone understand the topic n grasp the concept well
i really dare not imagine how badly i will fail this time =.="
plus next week i have test for my worst subject
u know why?
i was lost when the lecturer explained...
its like....the whole slide all equations
n then she was like
'from this become this...and then u get this...n then u do the maths n u get this...then become this equation...so from this will derive to this...n then so u get this....got it?'
dot dot dot......=.="
imagine the whole slide there's like more than 10 equations....
n then i dont even know how to get the 1st 1...
let alone understand the whole equation
somemore why r we doing maths!!!! urghhh..... i hate maths =(
oh my god...i am so gona fail both tests next week!!
u would think it's too early to think that
u know why?
cuz i have an event this friday to sunday
which i have to be there whole day...
by whole day i mean 3am to 8pm....
yes u saw it right...3am!!
oh the event starts at 10am liddat larh...but then
we gotta be there at 3am to set up the tracks n all...
so meaning 2am must go there jor...meaning 1am wake up
waitaminute...1am is my sleeping time =.=
nonit to sleep larh!
say 8pm only...by the time i get back to my room will be like 10 or 11pm jor =.="
i dono how m i gona surviveeeee......
kao meng arh!!
some ppl somemore worried bout tests this week
AIYOH got test this week only mar...
study during the break then mar kautim lor
after test then can commit to the event...
me lerh?!
i've got tests after...
which means i wont have time to study
n i will be sooooooooo physically and mentally exhausted from the event
i wont have the energy to study anymore after that =.=
yup.. i am dead
so far i've been trying to study these few days
but to no avail =.=
yesterday on my msn nick 'dont sleep tonight!! studyyyy.........'
yeah right......
the dont sleep tonight's true enough
but not the studying part
i ended up catching 3 episodes of Romantic Princess on YouTube the whole night
until 5am......swt
i tried to study....tried
yet i cannot resist the temptation.....
n tomorrow's weds
meaning i will be busy from 9am onwards
n i will only be back in my room at 11pm
after that i gotta go out n discuss with seniors bout the events
n i have classes 8am the next day
WHERE got time to study?!
n after the class i need to prepare for the event ady
OH MY GOD!
oh dear........
wish me luck =.="
hope i dont fail too badly larh
at least fail oso fail nicely? T.T