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i just came back from watching L: change the world
i...m...sad!!!! T.T
couldnt bear seeing him die by himself again
this time even worse...!!
seeing how he cared about other ppl...
yet he knows himself that he has only a few days left...
well to be honest the show wasnt that nice
i expected it to be more intriguing...which illuminates L's intelligence
but it was....so-so...
a few scary scenes =.= which made me twitch alot of times
until my friends kept laughing at me!! T.T
not that i can help it oso! =(
but the thing is...
it was so cute seeing L with kids!
oh...the part that i liked alot was...
this 2 scenes where suddenly i felt L was...omg! so handsome so yeng!!!
L being L...he's attractive as he is...
the uniqueness of him
but there was this scene when he chased after the girl
n realized he was too late...
seeing him out of breath n angry at himself...
omg...suddenly felt that he was so so man! *hearts <3*
n this other time when he tried to stop the plane...
arrrrhhh...cant stand it lah
super cute...that determination in his eyes...
makes him so lengchai~!!!
but the last part i just cant hold my tears anymore =/
i kept thinking of him...
that he has a few days left...
n then he hugged that girl! he cared about her!!!
so sweet~~~!!!
when he left her the message...i just couldnt stop myself crying anymore
sad.....T.T
at last he walked away towards the sunset...to meet his fate...
gosh...i really wanted to cry n mourn for him
but this friend of mine spoilt the moment by sniggering at me crying
esh...
nvm...at least i cried for him just now...lolcan't help it larh! im that emotionally attached to L ok? hmph...
i will miss L =(
Thursday, February 21, 2008
Bloggie.......!!!!!!!
I really want to dig a hole deep deep underground n hide my head in right now...
n while doing that i wanna laugh my head out...
ARGH it's so embarrassing i cant stop laughing at myself!! T.T
even as im typing this now im laughing... =.="
ok...i shall take a deep breath n start from the beginning...
as u know...today's thursday...
n thursday my busiest day...n tired-est day...
despite that...my happiest day of the week!
LOL...cuz i can meet this someone u see...ahemm *wink*
surprisingly...when i got to my last class at 6pm today...
i was very awake...n in a very happy mood...
but...oh god....
it started off pretty...well?
happy to see him...
althought i pretty much got 0 for the quiz =.=
the listening quiz is too fast...just couldnt catch anything...
still...i quickly put that behind me n focused my attention on him
well...in the class we're supposed to go in front to perform dialogues...
so normally he'll call us out to perform...
n usually it's 2 times each...
given that last week i was pretty happy that he kept calling me
i was looking forward to this week u know...
but then...after the half hour mark...
n after he called every girl in the class...
he still never noticed me!!
n i was feeling sad ady....*boohoo T.T*
so sad...n then some girl got called out 3 times!!!
by then i was like...wth! T.T he still never call me im gona be so sad!
so im such a nobody huh?
n that girl who got called out the 3rd time...
he was acting the scene out with her
at 1st he started to draw hearts on the board...like so ~~<3...
n then he pointed himself...then the board...then to her...n smile!!!
SOB! T.T
everybody laughed...me included...
but inside i was feeling....*Waaaa~~~ T.T*
so he wanted to ask her out on a date...n gave her tickets to some show
n then the look on his face was priceless!!
that look when u asked a girl out full of expectation
the huge smile on his face n the glint of laughter in his eyes! T.T
so sweett.....~ so heartbreaking for me as well =/
but that girl didnt know wat to say cuz the scence wasnt in the book
she was like..'ohh...how much?'
then he...HUH? his expression was like...=.="
we were laughing hard there...
n as he said the price he kept saying nono...im paying for that...in japanese
but i guess nobody understood
then he was smiling n said...free free!!
n kinda jumping on the spot n smiling while he said that...
SUPER CUTE! like some small boy like that....
eeeee.......kawaii desu ne~
omg lah...i was laughing n crying inside at the same time...
sob...by that time i gave up hope ady...
was thinking by now i ought to hide in 1 corner n observe the class alone
while he called other ppl out...
sob...
when i thought all hope was lost...
with 10 mins left on the clock...
he called me out...finally~!
but it was a new scene...n i didnt know wat to do...
apparently i was on a date with this guy...n im supposed to call
so...i just called...n said something random
then he said...nonono....not that...ask about the number
then i ohh...n everybody laughed
so i was in a laughing mood then...happy too cuz he finally noticed me
n then the worst n most embarassing thing happened~!
the conversation was like this
'moshi moshi...'
'can you give me the number for the arts museum?'
then he stopped me...n acted out my part
'nonono...u dont straight away pick up the phone n say that...'
he kinda imitated me talking very funnily...
so we laughed...n i laughed the hardest
long after everyone stopped laughing i was still laughing
n then i was like...shiet....
but i couldnt control my laughter...so i laughed harder
by then everyone was staring at me...including him!
then i panicked n tried to talk while laughing...
'sumimasen' came out like
'hah...su..haha...mi..hehe...ahaha...ma..ha...sen...ha'
OMG!!!! i realized WAT A FOOL i was making myself
n then i panicked even more...n stopped talking
but i cant stop laughing so i closed my mouth
n my body started spasming out of the laughter i was trying to hold
while making some funny sucking breath soound..damn
OMG i looked like an asthma patient crying n laughing at the same time
my voice was all changed...
n everyone had their eyes on me
EVERYONE!!!!
ARGH~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
if i were them i would be thinking
wth is so funny...wat's wrong with her omg!
n then i sucked a big breath in n started vomitting all the words out...
which sounded so unlike me n so unnatural...
OMG~!
i just wanted to run out of the room at that moment...
really...embarrassing...
very....
this outrated any other embarrassing moments of my life
i never laughed like that before...
not once...n my body spasming like that...
with all the funny breathing sound...
IT's HIM!
he made me so panic...
with him looking at me i was even more nervous
it happened during the 1st class as well...
i made such a food of myself T.T
i was fine in other tutorial classes...good in fact..
confident n can talk fluently...
not in his class though...
WAAAAAAAA~!
i do not want to attend the class next next week...
oh but i want to see him =/
nvm i shall wear a mask or wat then...
SO
EMBARRASSING
ARGH~~~!!!
how m i going to face him next time? =(
Sunday, February 17, 2008
dear bloggie,
finally i have time to rest n just chill...
it's been a busy busy week...
really killing me...
so i was really looking forward to the recess week
where i can finally go home n rest
n dont care bout anything until i get back to face the music
really thought i could just go back n hangout with family n relatives n friends...
at least i thought ppl would be happy with me going back
well...i guess not
okay i know i just got back to singapore last week from cny
n the week before cny where i went back for funeral
but both times r so short...was busy the whole time
n i barely had time to really rest n chill...
i really wanted to go back u know
even when i have to go back alone as my friends are all staying here...
i miss home...i miss my bed...
i miss lazing around...
being here in my room in singapore...
there's just this...atmosphere of studying
seeing my study table just next to my bed...
i cant jolly well sit on my bed whole day can i?
so i had to sit on the chair...
with books n notes in front of me reminding me what i'd better do
i HAVE to study
i want to go home...
less stressful there u see...
but...
since no one really wants me back...
wat's the point then?
would it be like last year again?
where i regretted going back...
felt sad most of the time at home
n everyone's reluctant enough to fetch me
oh well...
i guess i'm staying here for the sem break alright
the next time i can go back will be like...in may? =(
Thursday, February 14, 2008
Happy valentine's day~!! <3
actually, i didnt give much thought bout it ya know?
long since immuned from all the fuss...
almost forgot today is valentine's day...
plus...i have 10am - 7pm classes today...
but i feel like blogging this day out u see =P
the day started as any usual day...
well...think i woke up dreading my 7 long hours of classes today
dint get much sleep the night before too...
classes were usual...
but with some ppl dressing up nicely n holding roses n all larh =D
nahh...not jealous this year...dono why @@"
by the time i got to japanese lecture at 4pm i was already dead tired...
couldnt concentrate much >.<"
n i didnt care bout my quiz too! cannot think!
too tired larh u see...i m sure my face was black...
one look n u can guess im frowning =.="
大変ですね~
so i was thinking...
at the tutorial after the lecture...will that he brighten up my mood? =D
cuz for me...really nothing can make me smile...
auto-piloting anyways...
n when i got to the tutorial...
15mins passed n i still felt nothing...
moody still in fact...impartial to any jokes or laughter
so i thought....sheesh...even he can't brighten up my day...tsk tsk
but then...as time passed...
i realized i started to take note of his cute boyish smile...
his cheerfulness...his humour...
skipping around saying 'はい to everyone with a smile while giving and collecting papers...
n i realized the whole time his mouth didnt slant downwards even abit
that caught on n i slowly...started to smile! =)
the whole time my eyes were on him...
trying to steal a few stares at him while making it not that obvious
but i think he caught my eye a few times though >.<"
i blushed =X
plus he called me out 3 times today!! =D
hehe.....
even after a long long day he can still brighten up my day =)
that's wat makes me look forward to thursday the most...even though it's the longest day
but then u see.... ええと...
he wears a wedding ring =X
before u accuse me of anything.....
i am just admiring someone =.= not like anything's gona happen
plus...my blog or rather my life needs spicing up! haha
as i was walking out after the class...
it surprised me as in my head i was thinking
'i hope he's taking his wife to celebrate valentine's somewhere tonight...
he seemed so....happy about it...'
really! i was hoping he would have a great time tonight with her =)
seee.... i mean no harm
i just...like his character... ^^
anyway...after that i went to mcD to meet up with my 友達
u know wat? i received a rose!! XD
my first ever rose on v day~
contrary to popular belief...i did not in my life receive any flowers from anyone before =.="
thxx alot to the guys!! ありがとうございます
really appreciate it...
oh...last thing...
when i was walking back to my room...
there was this group of guai lou chatting on the corridor
so i was thinking...hmm...this guy's not bad looking
but it was just that...n i continued walking behind them when they parted ways
n then we were in the lift together...
he was talking to his friend n didnt realize he was behind me
so he moved back abit n his bag sorta hit me...
he turned back n said sorry...
but all i could notice was his eyes...staring at me so intently...
how to describe it? the kind of piercing look that could go straight to ur heart...
i held his gaze for 1 milisecond n quickly looked on the floor
n all i could manage was dono wat mumble =.=
but in my heart i was thinking 'omg!' hahah...
didnt know a guai lou would actually stare at me with such....feeling?
eh...dont accuse me of fa sam again =.="
im pretty sure i would forget bout it the next day
as with all other cute guys i held gazes with...LOL
eee...im supposed to be BZ!
essay due tmr...n a 4 hour long lab which is very brain juice draining
さようなら
Friday, February 01, 2008
Dear bloggie,
I am tired...very tired...
thought this sem would be abit slack...what with only 2 cores
surprisingly its the electives' that r taking the breath out of me
at 1st i was quite happy with my slacker timetable compared to last sem
only now did i realize that i have quite a heavy timetable =.="
i had 3 lectures and 1 tutorial today....
gahh....no rest from morning til evening
as i missed a few days of lectures n tutorials...
i m very far behind...
last sem i wouldnt care...maybe even glad that i can skip a day or 2
but now i am worried... =/
dont know why this sem so studious =.="
good sign? no?
prolly for me is good...but i dont like!
i've been studying at night til 2-3am in the morning everyday
n most of it japanese =.=
i have 3 quizzes every week! n classes almost everyday
n it's going unbelievably fast!
seriously!!!
i can read by now...except the kanji of cuz =.="
we r supposed to know how to read n write hiragana in 1 week...
n katakana the next... *sweats*
on top of that...since week 1 i have to memorize more than 100 vocabs
not to mention the grammars n stuffs...
gosh...very stressful!
spend like 4 hours a night memorizing vocabs n stuffs T.T
now i know what she meant by...quit ahead if u can =.=
nevertheless...the tutorials are fun i guess?
funny =D
today arh...i made a fool of myself larh~
we were reenacting a conversation between 2 ppl...
the script's something like...the doorbell rang n i'm supposed to answer the door
so i was to say 'donata desu ka?' - who is it?
n i ended up saying 'nan desu ka?' - what are you?
they burst into laughters n he answered 'human lah! wat else...' T.T
so xia sui.....! especially in front of...him *ahemm*
errrr......
he very cute larh! funny as well...
not to mention very helpful n nice n kind...
somemore not bad looking *winx*
too bad not available =(
i sot jor....wakakaka...
i must be out of my mind =.="
admire only larh~! cannot izit...hmph
xP
need to study ady...sayoonara!