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again...
how come it's always the same...?
i'll always be the one helping n comforting others when they r down or sad
yet when im down...somehow they dont seem to care
im not asking them to return the favour
at least try to understand that i have feelings too
why is it that nobody ever cares when i cry?
Friday, September 26, 2008
sigh...
hi btw...
not much posts nowadays cuz i dont feel like blogging =X
it's my...mid semester break now...
supposed to be studying...many mid terms coming up
im way behind...some modules until now i have no clue of what's going on =/
yet i dont feel like it...
sighhh...
oh...i came back early from malaysia for an interview today
which i totally screwed...
dont say i still got chance
cuz it was a group interview with 15 ppl fighting for 3 spots
of which all of them did brilliantly
n i basically just didnt feel like opening my mouth
n when i was asked questions i stuttered n blabbed some nonsense
my...worst interview ever
i'm pretty sure i would be rejected
as they said
'u cannot answer my question...im not gonna choose u'
god...so direct
i can only laugh at my stupidity
i just...blew away a perfectly good chance
the thing is...i didnt do my best
i can talk...i can perform much better
it's just that i didnt feel like talking today
just didnt feel like opening my mouth...
well...i have only myself to blame
sigh....
guess i should go study now
although i really want my bed n my bolster =(
my mood is currently like this
the 1st song...
i love this soundtrack alot <3
really...great song...reaches deep into ur soul? lol
anyways...enjoy =3
i miss ro2 =(
Tuesday, September 02, 2008
Dear bloggie,
sigh.....
i would say....what a day~
u know sometimes u wanna try ur best, yet ur best is not enough
today i had this molecular bio CA...
n yep i knew i would screw this
but to know that i did badly kinda hit me hard...
cuz i know that all those mistakes are careless mistakes
that if i can focus n concentrate i would be able to avoid those mistakes
when my friend explained to me
only then i thought...wth? why didnt i think of that?
actually...couldnt say that i wasnt trying my best
as i only slept close to dawn last night...i didnt have enough sleep
i wanted to skip the 1st lecture n go straight for the CA
i really didnt know what got into me n made me wake up ~_~
normally i would just convince myself to sleep through
yet this was the only time i regretted i didnt convince myself
as soon as i was ready to go...stomach ache struck me =X
not only that...my nose allergy started to kick in
i dont know what's wrong with it nowadays
sneezing non-stop is a norm to be
but these days it got so bad at times that i couldnt even breathe in
i would feel dam itchy n painful...
my eyes would be watery that i couldnt focus
n my head spinning >.<
so for the 1st lecture i was suffering there...
wishing i was in bed...really bad
used up 2 packets of tissue in an hour =X
but i managed to hold on til the CA
yet i guess there's no point as i couldnt concentrate n think properly
just simply answer the ques
so it comes as no surprise that i failed
still i was disappointed in myself >.<
cant believe whole night of studying n yet it was all useless
why didnt i think properly?
guess it's over now
hopefully i learnt my lesson n start studying now
no more slacking around =X
Monday, September 01, 2008
Why do I always have the mood to blog when the time is not suitable?
while during those times when I complained i'm bored i wouldnt think of blogging =.="
I have been very slack this semester...
guess the stress hasnt kicked in yet...
so i kinda neglected my studies...
until the consequences came knocking on my door =(
this afternoon i had my jap studies tutorial...
n i just realized i had discussion questions to prepare the morning i woke up
which was like...1 hour before the tutorial...
to think that i didnt attend last week's lecture...
dam...panic~
i thought that was bad enough...
until just now when i logged in to ivle i got an annoucement
regarding my CA tmr~!
i was like (pardon my french) 'wat the fxxx'
great...just great..........
it's one of the toughest module this sem...
n from the 1st lecture til now i didnt understand a thing
trust me...not a single thing
the lecturer was too fast...n she explained in sentences too complicated to understand
ohh...i did pay attention alright...i tried my best
but most of the times i couldnt catch her words
even if i could i couldnt understand them
just 2 hours of staring at her wide eyed @@
while not understanding a thing...
the best i did was copied what she said
but i dont even understand what i write...goshhh
n now...out of the blue i discovered i had CA tmr!
i m so not prepared for it...not to mention that i havent tried studying once
i am...soo.....screwed
imagine my shock....damn....
actually....it's my careless mistake u know
i knew there was one coming...just didnt realize it was tmr
see~! consequence of not focusing enough
SIGH~!
long night ahead... T_T
i know i'll screw it...
all i can do now is try my best...
wish me luck =(